Here’s The Deal….Test Results Now In…

Varmint5 said:

Rotten news, Craig

It must be hard to just wait and watch. But for some reason, I just have so much confidence in your ability to knock this back down again with Cyberknife if you need to. It worked for you before and I believe it will work for you again. Hang in there. I'm pulling for you with all the others.

Sandy

For some reason, the waiting is harder this time around...

I think it's because I've been in strong fight mode the past 3-years with my last cancer....partial recovery.....then all of my dad's mess for 16 precious months.....and then just trying to work on all the things that were neglected in our own lives....and just beginning to think that there may be a life after cancer for me....

And so, I'm a lot less patient than I normally am......I'm okay now....I had the breath taken out of me last week....now, I don't feel it...I'm into the business side of it now.

I just want to know what and where it's at...and then get on with it...

I've got to fight smarter - not harder, this time around....

I hope to know more next week...

Thank you as always:)

rogina2336 said:

Have you in my prayers. 

Have you in my prayers.  Wolfen had a good idea there for the back pain.  Hugs and Prayers.  Kim

 

Let's hope next week provides more clarity....

buckeye2 said:

Wishing You Well

Craig,

I still stalk the Board sometimes and saw you are going through a tough time.  You helped me through several of those and I wish I could use words to help you through yours but lack the talent.  Sounds like you are being proactive about researching a good treatment plan and that's good.  I hope whatever treatment is decided leaves you able to both enjoy life and continue to help others.  You are a class act!

 

Lisa

Your presence says more to me than words ever could:)

BTW, just so we know that 'some' good can come out of cancer....and because, you might not have seen the post prior to this one...and because, you were aware of my writing....and how I had a dead-spell there for 25-years thanks to an errant professor against a fragile ego that I was carrying back then.....

One of the ladies here, Jen2012, showed me a link to Coping Magazine - this is a major publication as it turns out, Lisa:)

So, this was significant...and a milestone achievement....took a couple of years and the help from a community member to help me realize that something I wrote finally will make it to print in some fashion. 

Anyway, they had a "word-limit" for their submissions.....go over the number....and adios...

Of course, that didn't stop me...I've never been bound by rules when I don't wanna':)

So, I wrote her a couple of stories...and re-wrote each of them at least twice to try and shrink it enough to fit their format....one of my articles was double the length.....and the other was three-times the minimum...

LOL!

But, she did know that, because I told her in advance of sending anything in...but, she saw something...and her and her staff picked one story to be published in an upcoming release of their magazine - "The Story of Big Billy."

Out of the other article, they grabbed 3 quotes from the other article that they will use sporadically somewhere among the issues...they don't always do quotes with every issue. 

Here is the link for you....if you ever want to check it out:) 

http://csn.cancer.org/node/259864

I've thought about you and wondered what had been going on....I happened to catch a post and wanted to let you know that my thoughts are with you and your husband...I know how hard it has been for you both.

I'm certainly glad to see my old pal - $I2

As always thank you for your kind words and support....

-Craig

LindaK. said:

Ditto

What Chelsea said.  I was so anxious to hear about your appointment.  Sounds like you have a great onc and together you will develop a plan to deal with whatever is going on.  Thanks for the detailed update, I learn more from you each day  :-) 

Linda

I think you and Jeff were more anxious than I was, LOL!

We'll see what we can see....and then, we'll know what to do:)

Chelsea71 said:

Well, I am relieved. It
Well, I am relieved. It could have been worse. You know, to some extent, what you're dealing with. It appears to be in your liver only which means that they should be able to target it directly vs systemically. You're just going to have to dig down deep within yourself and muster whatever it takes to put this next chapter behind you. You set an example for people within this group and we rely on you. You will share your experience with people here (in your usual eloquent style) and we will support you every step of the way. I just wish you didn't have to go through it again....You don't deserve this. None of us do.

Chels

You know, Chels...

Sometimes, I think that I raised the bar too high for myself...

I had forgotten that people are watching...and they are looking at  how you comport yourself and handle constant adversity...

Perhaps, through others - we see what we want to be. 

I've always underestimated the impact and responsibility that comes along with that.  All of us are looking for living examples out there to help us gauge our reactions and thought processes to help tell us if we're staying in between the white lines.

I'm no different in that regard either...

But, I felt a hush over this crowd when the news broke....and for a moment, I thought what have I done?  Have I destroyed Hope for others?  Or am I just telling the real-life story of Cancer?

When the BB story publishes officially, I'm going to post a link.....and then try and enjoy that the 2nd time around....we were all robbed of that good news...and I think that's still what upsets me the most.

Thank you as always and my best to Steve!

You too!

-c

annalexandria said:

This is hard news,

but I'm glad to hear that there may still be some hope, whether in the form of "not cancer" or in the form of "cancer that can be treated".  I know (or at least I think I know) how hard this must be to accept, after being in remission for such a long stretch.  I have scans in August, and I'm all too aware that my own period of being NEDesque could be coming to an end.   These multiple recurrences are so disheatening.  But although three always seems to be the magic number, at least in all the best tales...who says number four won't be the one to do the trick in the tale of Sundanceh?  I firmly believe that you still have the chance to get to NED for good.  And we'll be right here, going along for the ride with you.  Sending a little Seattle strength your way~AA

Yeah, Ann

This period I worked so hard for, was just squandered by working a full-time job....and my dad as a full-time job....we've been working on our lives this year and it is a mess everywhere we look, but still we keep trying.

So, I feel cheated to a large degree, even though I got the longest time ever....it really wasn't, because I could not get this rocket off the launch pad. 

Maybe, this has not really sunk in yet, because it has not confirmed, though we all feel pretty sure....

#4 would be telling us all alot of things if we wanted to listen to the truth of it....

Chance?

Well, I've always maintanined that a Chance is all that we can ever really ask for, isn't it?

And so, I'll side with you on this one.

What would we name this battle campaign, Ann? 

No More After Four!

 At least it rhymes, LOL!

Sending you early best wishes for your August date....may it be what we both hope it will be...

"Lots-o-Love"

-Craig

LivinginNH said:

 
Well now, ain't that news a

 

Well now, ain't that news a kicker.     I guess it's time to bring out Big Billy my friend.  At least the doctor has a few options available, that's good news.  You can do it dear, the Lion will roar once again!

Love ya,

Cyn

Big Billy is out signing autographs!