So angry...

I was alone.  My husband had just taken a job in a new city.    Two months later I was diagnosed.  The only people I really know are my Dr.'s.  Had a lumpectomy in November, 2012.  All went good, but now the Tamoxifen after 6 months is giving me side effects.  I hate taking meds!  We are al in this together and we are all fighters.

Hi, I felt the same way when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I did not want to tell anyone, but I had to because I needed someone to take me to the hospital.  I told my cousin and my boss.  I eventually told the remaining relatives and joined a support group through American Cancer Society.  I like the group because they understand.  My friends and family just tells me "you will survive, you're ok."  Never heard from them again.  I am alone too, so I joined groups dealing with breast cancer, like this group.   You are doing the rigt thing, by joining.  I still feel alone to this day.  No one comes to see me or visit me to see if I am okay.  I just give up with them and trying to find another job and another place to spend my time.

Kim

sea60 said:

Angry, sad, depressed...

you name it, we felt it. I remember I had a book I would read to the kids when they were young, "The Gingerbread Man". Oh how I thought of that little book and how those words resonated into my head everytime I had to go to yet another scan, procedure, surgery. I just wanted to run and run and run...get away!

All I can tell you is that you'll get through this. With a lot of help. Family, friends, spouse. I had to learn how to reach out and accept help instead of always being the one to help and support others, that was hard.

There is a point. Your life and all the things you have yet to do. Get help. Pray. Reach out, do all you can to get through this because you will. And you'll be stronger and wiser and most of all, once you get past all the emotions, you'll experience a grateful heart and you'll relish the simple small things that can bring joy.

Hugs and prayers for you,

Sylvia

 

 

 

 

I think we've all been in your shoes at one time or another.  I wish you good luck and want you to know that it will get better.

burcu123 said:

Give yourself permission to be angry

I was very angry too. I felt much better when I was given permission to be angry. Offcourse you should be angry you should be mad. This thing came on you like a nightmare , you have no fault you did not deserve it, you did not need this disease to be a better person.

This is your hurricane , your tornado your natural disaster , your bomb,  allow yourself to be angry, do not feel guilty because you are angry.

 

yell, curse, then carry on and do what you need to doto survive. This also shall pass, humans have an  amazing capacity to adapt.

What burcu wrote is very true.  One pink sister on here went out and bought a bunch of cheap glass dishes, brought them home and busted them all.  She had so much anger and she felt this would help her and it did.  We don't all need to do that, but, let yourself get mad, get it all out.  Don't hold it in.  I think you will feel better if you do.  Our feelings are so messed up from the minute we get diagnosed.  Just want you to know that we all do understand.

Hugs, Kylez

KIMKATAOKA said:

I Felt Angry Too

Hi, I felt the same way when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I did not want to tell anyone, but I had to because I needed someone to take me to the hospital.  I told my cousin and my boss.  I eventually told the remaining relatives and joined a support group through American Cancer Society.  I like the group because they understand.  My friends and family just tells me "you will survive, you're ok."  Never heard from them again.  I am alone too, so I joined groups dealing with breast cancer, like this group.   You are doing the rigt thing, by joining.  I still feel alone to this day.  No one comes to see me or visit me to see if I am okay.  I just give up with them and trying to find another job and another place to spend my time.

Kim

I didn't know if you have a support group of bc survivors in your area or not.  Some survivors find that they really help them in expressing their feelings and hearing how others feel too.  You could ask your oncologist if he knows or just call your cancer center or hospital.

Lynn Smith said:

I have allergies to alot of things

I have allergies to alot of things esp meds.Every pill I take I worry when it's first prescribed. I also hear about others reactions and it scares me.With 2 friends, a niece, mom,sister having cancer before me I worried about chemo and side effects.I took one day at a time.Finally was the  doc appt to find out what my treatment was.Just take tamoxifin for 5 years.I was Stage 0 DCIS.

I knew there were side effects with my friends but the one took a sedative before her chemo and the other one had to wait it out.She was allergic to it but the symptons hit just after the chemo treatment.She sometimes was put in the hospital but cancer free after  9 years.She was told by her doctor that he HOPED the cancer never comes back because of her serious complications and he worried.My sister had no problems with her 4 chemo treatments. She even drover herself to and from treatments.She's Very independent.

I made up my mind and decided "I WILL not worry and take on what needs to be done to safe my life".Even though no chemo the first time if ever a second time I have to take what is dished out.

Lynn Smith

Would love to see an update from you.  Remember, we are all here for you.

Hugs, Jan