CivilMatt said:

Happy thoughts

Vivian,

I am sorry you feel so low, I am much better at answering engineering questions then yours. Of course other than drugs or alcohol it just takes time to feel better (even drugs and alcohol are bad ideas).  It is just the finality and unfairness of it all which floods your thoughts.  If life was fair (so to speak) the world would be full of great people, but it is not fair and were not all great.

The closest thing I can relate to H&N and your feelings is the timeline for taste bud recovery.  It just takes time and one day you notice it is better.

By looks of your picture dancing, you do have more to remember David by.  You may not have years of memories, but you do have some important times together, you told us about them.

David would want you to be happy and so do I.

Matt

My bible says the same thing as yours....so I truly believe God thinks and sees you the same way ... with unconditional love....the same way you loved David is the same way God loves you tenfold. That's my stance

I can't possibly imagine how you feel, I have not lost a wife or child, I shudder to even write those words.....I did lose my father and brother two years ago within months of each other...but that pales in comparison to those on here who have lost the love of their life or a child.

I do pray for you (and others) each night....this Sunday the date of your anniversary I bet I know David would say how much he misses you, but please carry on and enjoy life....that is not going to happen soon....but over time you will, but of course always have a hole in your heart for David.

Best,

Tim

VanessaSLO said:

I pray for you...

Dear Vivian, you're in my daily prayers as I wish that you can see the light in the end of this dark and long tunnel you're in. After every rain there is a sun and I believe that for you too! It can't rain forever !!

I think Matt said it best, one day it just starts getting better. I hope that day comes soon for you. Until then, you just have to continue putting one foot in front of the other and going through the motions. God bless

Words can't really help. Just know God loves you as you are and he understands how you miss your husband. You are in my prayers.

Debbie

Vivian:

I so know how you feel.  It's been almost 3 years since I lost Charlie and he's still on my mind 24/7.  I miss him so much and always will.  And all these "firsts" you have coming up are always the hardest to get thru; but you will get thru them.  My father-in-law always asks when I visit them, is it any easier for you?  And I tell him I don't know that it's easier but you learn to go on because that's what he would have wanted.  And Vivian, God thinks the world of you and loves you unconditionally.  I truly understand the questioning of why and I believe God does too;  I don't know that the months of June, July, and August will ever be the same for me as June is our anniversary; July is our birthday (we had the same birthday!) and August is when he passed away.  You do think your world has ended that's only natural and your life is not the same, but remember, it just means life will be different and can still be good.  I'm so glad to see you are still with us.  I haven't posted in a while but I do keep up to see what's going on with everybody and this site will always be a blessing and comfort to me not to mention support.  Please feel free to pm me or give me a call or shoot me an e-mail if you like.  I will be happy to talk with you or e-mail you if you feel that's something you would like to do.  Try to keep your chin up and stay busy and I will be praying for you as you go thru these "firsts" without David.  And remember David may not be with you physcially but he's always with you in spirit.  I truly believe that and it is a big comfort.  God Bless!

Jan (Basketcase)