I'm drunk, my mom is dying of cancer, and I feel weak

Call hospice. They are the experts on helping the whole family deal with death and dying. It may be too early to actually get them involved in your mother's care, but they can suggest  support groups and other tools that are available in your area. Ask your mother's doctors what support is out there for both your mother and you. Also, try to just be there for your mom. She is still here. Don't throw away the now worrying about the future. I know that is not easy, but try. Remember, too, that no one knows what that future holds.  No one knows how long your mother will live, not even the dr.  Try to celebrate today. When my husband was dx., the literature said he had about 22 months. He made it for six years. What a blessing those six years were! We celebrated every birthday, Christmas, etc. knowing it might be his last. I can only guess how hard this is for one so young. It was hard for this grandma, but I know you can do it. We find that we are stronger than we think. Take care, find help, and don't be so hard on yourself. Do what your heart tells you is right. Hugs, Fay

I love the advice Fay gave..very heart felt and the honest truth. As being 24 years old dealing with the same thing, Docs gave my Mom a few months to live, there is not a second in my mind that doesn't think this can't be true it's not allowed to happen this way why did God do this?..but there Docs that say that, there not God. They don't know what tomorrow can bring and the best thing to do is be there every second you can for your Mother..I'll tell you a little about my personal experience it sucks more than hell, my Mom wanted me to finish college and go back to school work towards getting my degree so I got accepted to a school and that was my plan for however long it would take..then my Mom was diagnosed, I had to deal with that going to a new school not knowing anyone in a new environment that I knew nothing about living out on my own for the first time, boy was that the hardest thing ever..I wanted to throw in the towel immediately and leave it all to be with my Mom I would've given anything to be with her everyday BUT knowing it would make her happy to see me succeed and do well thats why I never gave up..every chance I get I spend with my Mom life is too short not to and you have to cherish every moment take advantage of that time right now..your Mom is still here but won't be forever and its soo difficult and gets very emotional but I know your Mom would feel nothing more than happy knowing your there for her, it's the little things that count overall 

Dear Zmanstupid, I lost my father when I was 19..I told him everything..I'm 48 rite now..my husband passed away 2 months ago umpiring a baseball game..I have 2 sons 15 & 18..now listen to me..I know the pain & hurt my boys feel..because I felt it @ 19..I wasnt close to my mother..very close to my dad..I have to ask you a personal question..& dont jump down my throat..Who were you closer to..mom or dad?..you answer this truthfully..& I will help you..dont answer me..well who do u think?..I swear to God..who had your back..which parent was always there for you?..I'm talking sporting events or whatever..maybe u were 1 of the lucky ones that had 2 parents backing you up..but in reality of life..that is not reality..who was your go to parent?