I Feel Good, But...

Hi, everyone!

I have only posted once here before. I have BC with mets to the pelvic/spine.  I had radiation and it has really relieved a lot of pain in my back.  I still feel stiffness, but not sure what to do about that (or if I can).  It would be nice to feel even better.  Asking for too much, maybe?  LOL

I am also having a hard time sleeping.  Tried Midnite (OTC), but it doesn't help as much as I hoped.  I still wake up just about every 2 hours. I do not want to take anything that is going to make me groggy in the morning or something that I will have to take forever.  I'm on Tamoxifen and monthly injections of Zometa, so I am also not sure if anything will interfere.  And, yes.  I will probably ask my doctor.    And...I'm open for suggestions from any of you, of course. 

I just went back to work on Monday and I feel pretty good. Starting off P/T and then will work my way back into F/T in the next few weeks (hopefully).  I am a little tired, but not too much (and mostly when I feel zonked, it's due to not sleeping good the night before). 

So...I feel good, but I wonder if I should be enjoying it.  I know that sounds funny to say, but I just sometimes wonder if another ball is going to drop on me.  I was just really diagnosed in December with this and so it's still all fairly new.  I read WAY too much on the internet.  Some of it awful, some of it good...and then I rely on forums - like this - to REALLY find out "now" information because to me, reading all these stories with people living with bone mets for a long while is REALLY helping me.  I am encouraged, inspired, and really grateful that others are sharing their stories and experiences.  I realize that all the stuff I was reading on the internet....in the end...nobody really can tell you anything.  An expiration date?  Hard to tell because nobody has one and everyone is individual.  I try to steer away from the statistics of it all.  Do you think I'm finally learning? 

I am 42 with 3 young kids and I want to be around for a long time.  Period. Bottom line.  Yes, I know....Doesn't everyone?  So you know...most days now, I don't "forget", but I try not to think the "doom and gloom" every minute of the day. I'm not sure what it is...whether it's just that I've been busy with other things or that I am beginning to gain more positivity in thinking that I really CAN and WILL deal with this for a long while....Hmmmm....

Anyway, I am just yapping, but appreciate being able to come on here.  Of course, nobody has to respond. Sometimes it's good just to yap, so thank you if you've read this! 

HUGS!