I'm losing my hair again...

Gabe N Abby Mom
Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
in Breast Cancer #1

This is the 4th time I am losing my hair due to treatments.  The reality is that I don't have much to lose...it's all less than an inch long and I have male pattern baldness from the brain rads. But the little bit there is, is falling out.  It feels the same way it did the first time, both emotionally and physically.  I hate this disease!

Hugs,

Linda

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  • desertgirl947
    desertgirl947 Member Posts: 653 Member
    #2
    I don't think it would ever

    I don't think it would ever be easy, even if it seems a person ought to get used to it after a few times.  UGH! 

    This weekend was the first time since last April that I have been able to comb/brush my hair back instead of forward.  It is getting to be more like it was, although a friend of mine says it's more grey.  I had a few ladies comment to me at church this morning that my hair is really growing.  (The switch from combing forward to combing it back creates that vision.)  Then we had a family thing this afternoon, and I got comments there, too.

    I found myself thinking today that I do not know what I would do if I were to lose my hair again.  I have held on to my hats and hair that I wore for five months because in the back of my mind I wonder if I will have to deal with cancer again in the future.

    I don't understand exactly what you must be feeling, but I do feel for you.  I do hope that there will be things along the way that brighten your spirits as you work through this.

     

    e

  • Bella Luna
    Bella Luna Member Posts: 1,578 Member
    #3
    Me too.

    I hate it too.  I hate that you and your family are going through this mess, too.  I have never met you in person, but I can tell you are a ray of sunshine.  You touch those with your inner and outer beauty( mind, body, soul) where ever you go.  Big hugs to you.

  • McMarty
    McMarty Member Posts: 212 Member
    #4
    This was my week to loose my

    This was my week to loose my hair too, for the second time!  It was falling out pretty fast so I had it shaved off on Monday.  Now my scalp really hurts!  That didn't happen last time.

    Anyway, I knew it was coming, it was no surprise but it wasn't any easier this time!  It's always humiliating and then there are those beautiful bold bald women that just look amazing with now hair and I look like Benjamin Buttons (when he looked OLD)  Lipstick can't fix this!!

     

  • mollyz
    mollyz Member Posts: 756 Member
    #5
    So Sorry!

    Linda im so sorry this is happening to you again,what do your children think? Im just glad that your still alive and able to share so much with us,a lot of times when i come on here I might ask about something im concerned about but i know the ones i can actually listen to and take advice from and you've gave me very good and knowlegable advice over the years,most of us know each others journey and i know you've been a fighter and still a fighter.Thanks for being here for me when i needed you the most.~~MollyZ~~

  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    #6
    I have never experinced

    I have never experinced this...but I am sure hard each time. MY thoughts are with you.

    Denise

  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #7
    disneyfan2008 said:

    I have never experinced

    I have never experinced this...but I am sure hard each time. MY thoughts are with you.

    Denise

    I feel your pain

    As one who hasn't had a full head of hair in 2 years, 4 months and 30 days (but, hey, who's counting?) I can relate.  It's so symbolic of good health to have hair.  To be without it is reminiscent of why you don't have it.  Vanity does play a role, but for me it isn't so much about vanity, but why I'm this way.  It is human to be vain, but this goes beyond, doesn't it?

     I understand and am so sorry you have to lose it again.  See you soon.

    Hugs, Suzanne

  • MsGebby
    MsGebby Member Posts: 659
    #8
    Damn Linda

    I wish I could make this disease go away!   Stay strong (like always) and keep smiling.  It's always an easy task, but a smile helps make the day brighter.  

    Keep us posted and we will keep you in our prayers.

    Sending hugs and love,

    Mary

  • CypressCynthia
    CypressCynthia Member Posts: 4,014 Member
    #9
    I am so so sorry!  I hated

    I am so so sorry!  I hated losing my hair too and I didn't think it would bother me beforehand.  I cried and cried.  I am not sure why, but I was a complete baby about it.  I am sending you extra big hugs!!!

  • Clementine_P
    Clementine_P Member Posts: 518 Member
    #10
    So sorry Linda

    I'm am so sorry that you are having to go through this again.  I felt really traumatized by the loss of my hair and I really doubt it is any easier whether it is the first time or the tenth time.  I wish you didn't have to deal with this.  Please feel free to vent all you need about this!  We are all ears.

    Clementine

  • PennyJ
    PennyJ Member Posts: 31
    #11
    I am so sorry

    that you have to go through this for the 4th time.  As if chemo itself wasn't enough to deal with.  I didn't mind so much the first time, but the second time was really hard, I was so proud of my 1/2 inch of hair!  I also wish I was one of those women who look good (or even ok) bald but I think I looked more like Darth Vader at the end of the Star Wars movie when he takes his helmet off!  I always enjoy reading your posts and I am in your corner, rooting for you.

    Hugs,

    Penny

  • jamiegww
    jamiegww Member Posts: 384
    #12
    I'm so sorry Linda!

    I've lost my hair twice now and it's finally grown to about one quarter inch now but I'm having signs that my cancer is getting worse so I think I will probably start back on chemo infusions soon and I will most likely say goodbye to what little I have again.  You're right that it doesn't get easier each time; in this case.......practice does not make perfect........it just makes you want to scream louder and harder.  I actually do scream sometimes when my husband is at work.  I worry sometimes that my neighbors will hear me and call the sheriff to investigate.  I hope you have some time when you can scream and not have to explain yourself to anyone for doing so.  Lately, I think my cancer center should have a soundproof room where a patient can go to cry or scream when they get bad news.

     

    HUGS!!!

    Jamie 

  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #13
    jamiegww said:

    I'm so sorry Linda!

    I've lost my hair twice now and it's finally grown to about one quarter inch now but I'm having signs that my cancer is getting worse so I think I will probably start back on chemo infusions soon and I will most likely say goodbye to what little I have again.  You're right that it doesn't get easier each time; in this case.......practice does not make perfect........it just makes you want to scream louder and harder.  I actually do scream sometimes when my husband is at work.  I worry sometimes that my neighbors will hear me and call the sheriff to investigate.  I hope you have some time when you can scream and not have to explain yourself to anyone for doing so.  Lately, I think my cancer center should have a soundproof room where a patient can go to cry or scream when they get bad news.

     

    HUGS!!!

    Jamie 

    Linda ... I am so so so so sorry --

    having to lose our hair, once or twice is horrible -- but, 4 times --  is unimaginable.  You are truly a WARRIOR, on a mission -- I am so humbled by you, and your journey.

    You are truly a blessing to all of here that know, and love you.

    Continued strength, and courage -

    Vicki Sam

     

     

  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    #14
    Oh Linda

    I am so sorry.  What chemo are you on now?  I have lost mine 3 times and it is hard everytime.  The third was the easiest as it was just coming back from the 2nd time.  I feel your pain with all of this Linda, and absolutely hate cancer. 

    Hugs and more hugs,

    Carol

     

     

  • Enriqueta
    Enriqueta Member Posts: 1
    #15
    Losing My Hair

    I was hoping I would be the exception and not lose my hair , but I'm not.  I also thought I wasn't vain, but I guess I am.  So, today I'll get my head shaved.  I am encouraged to hear you all having dealt with this.  You are a courageous group and a great example of how to keep moving forward.

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