The passing of my beloved husband

Elizabeth 1978
Elizabeth 1978 Member Posts: 20
in Head and Neck Cancer #1
In may my journey began with the love of my life, I thought that he would have survive but its been a hell of a journey that turn my life upside down.

After having surgery and losing his ability to speak and eat and having a feeding tube, nothing we did was making anything for the better, after been told his tumor had been removed and that Chemo and Radiation would complete his treatment, it was not meant to be, We were giving the run around in the first place and nothing was making him better,

He was my life and I was his, I had my heart broken so many times and I cry day and night looking for hope but even that is taken away. After an infection and a 2nd opinion and been told that the cancer had spread and the loosing of his vision on the right eye it was heart breaking but I stood and comfort him and told him things will be ok.

On Wed between 6.15 and 6.20 in the afternoon, I held him and told him I gave him permission to die, that it was ok to go and that he did not need to suffer or fight for me, I told him to look for his father and that I love him, and he took his last breath and went.

My heart was shutter and my soul is gone, I know now that no matter how much i wish he would have come back and woke up it was not meant to be.

I feel for all the people that suffer from this dreadful decease because its a cruel one to have.

xoxox

My facebook has a few messages of the people that have pass their sympatiu


Chloe Elizabeth Osorio facebook ID
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  • MarineE5
    MarineE5 Member Posts: 1,034 Member
    #2
    No Words
    Elizabeth,

    No words that I type today will ease the pain that you feel. Hopefully, as time passes, so does the pain and only fond memories remain.

    Semper Fidelis (Always Faithful) He to you and you to him....
  • amy_h414
    amy_h414 Member Posts: 98
    #3
    I am so sorry
    Elizabeth you have my deepest sympathies. You are right that it is a cruel disease. No one should have to suffer like this.
  • luvofmylif
    luvofmylif Member Posts: 344
    #4
    amy_h414 said:

    I am so sorry
    Elizabeth you have my deepest sympathies. You are right that it is a cruel disease. No one should have to suffer like this.

    Oh my God, that instills
    Oh my God, that instills great sorrow that I have for you and great fear for me. I can't say anything to make you feel better I know. I too, think this a dreadful disease. I don't know how anyone can make it through without the love of their life. Praying for peace for you. At least he is not suffering anymore but I know you miss him.

    Joan
  • Tonsil Dad
    Tonsil Dad Member Posts: 488
    #5
    luvofmylif said:

    Oh my God, that instills
    Oh my God, that instills great sorrow that I have for you and great fear for me. I can't say anything to make you feel better I know. I too, think this a dreadful disease. I don't know how anyone can make it through without the love of their life. Praying for peace for you. At least he is not suffering anymore but I know you miss him.

    Joan

    Prayers.
    Elizabeth, please accept our deepest sympathy, words cannot
    express your feelings for the loss of your husband, partner , soul mate.
    It hurts each and everyone of us on here when we loose one of our OWN to
    this horrible disease.
    He is no longer suffering and I pray your grieving will be swift.

    God bless
    Tonsil dad,

    Dan.
  • VivianLee5689
    VivianLee5689 Member Posts: 546
    #6
    Tonsil Dad said:

    Prayers.
    Elizabeth, please accept our deepest sympathy, words cannot
    express your feelings for the loss of your husband, partner , soul mate.
    It hurts each and everyone of us on here when we loose one of our OWN to
    this horrible disease.
    He is no longer suffering and I pray your grieving will be swift.

    God bless
    Tonsil dad,

    Dan.

    so very sorry
    Elizabeth I really hated to read your post. My heart is breaking for you. I wish we didn't have to lose our loved ones and have to tell them its ok to leave us. I still have David, but based on what the doctors said today I too am facing the reality that my love is going to die. My heart truly aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss.
  • ToBeGolden
    ToBeGolden Member Posts: 695
    #7
    Cancer Is So Cruel
    Cancer is a real Beast. To die (or have a loved one die) is difficult enough, but why does the road to the afterlife have to be such a struggle? I am sure that your husband is standing next to his father, and they are both looking down at you. Rick.
  • Skiffin16
    Skiffin16 Member Posts: 8,305 Member
    #8
    Gone in Body, Never in Spirit
    So sorry for the passing of your husband, it's terrible to read of such loss. It takes a piece of me away....

    Just know that your husband is with oyu, in you and a part of you, he will always be.

    So even though his body is gone, his spirit and memories will be with you forever.

    prayers with you,
    John
  • Skiffin16
    Skiffin16 Member Posts: 8,305 Member
    #9
    Double
    Double
  • blackswampboy
    blackswampboy Member Posts: 341
    #10
    condolences
    “They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it.
    Death cannot kill what never dies.
    Nor can spirits ever be divided, that love and live in the same divine principle, the root and record of their friendship.
    If absence be not death, neither is theirs.
    Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still.
    For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent.
    In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure.
    This is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.”
    ― William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude / More Fruits of Solitude
  • phrannie51
    phrannie51 Member Posts: 4,716
    #11
    Prayers and peace be with you
    at this time...my heartfelt sympathies are with you.

    p
  • Skiffin16
    Skiffin16 Member Posts: 8,305 Member
    #12
    On A Roll
    John
  • NJShore
    NJShore Member Posts: 429 Member
    #13
    Our Condolances
    Elizabeth,

    I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find great comfort in friends and family and your memories.

    Kari and Dan
  • CivilMatt
    CivilMatt Member Posts: 4,724 Member
    #14
    peace
    Elizabeth,

    I am sorry for the loss of your husband and I am sorry for the cruel path of cancer. Remember fondly the days before.

    Best,

    Matt
  • Billie67
    Billie67 Member Posts: 898
    #15
    CivilMatt said:

    peace
    Elizabeth,

    I am sorry for the loss of your husband and I am sorry for the cruel path of cancer. Remember fondly the days before.

    Best,

    Matt

    Elizabeth
    I am so very sorry to hear of your husbands passing. I will pray for you to find peace, cancer is such a dreadful disease, I hate it!!!
    Billie
  • Mikemetz
    Mikemetz Member Posts: 465 Member
    #16
    So sorry, and thank you
    Your post was so touching that it brought me to tears. I am so sorry for your loss. At the same time, it reminded me to never take for granted the fact that I am one of the fortunate people who have survived HNC--so far. Thank you for that reminder.

    Mike
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    #17
    prayers lifted for you
    I am so sorry, Elizabeth.

    Your husband was blessed to have a wife who loved him so much. I can only imagine how difficult this is for you.
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    #18
    blackswampboy said:

    condolences
    “They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it.
    Death cannot kill what never dies.
    Nor can spirits ever be divided, that love and live in the same divine principle, the root and record of their friendship.
    If absence be not death, neither is theirs.
    Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still.
    For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent.
    In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure.
    This is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.”
    ― William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude / More Fruits of Solitude

    beautiful
    Thank you for sharing that.
  • shoeloy
    shoeloy Member Posts: 70
    #19
    Prayers and Peace
    I know it is very hard for you. I have watched the love of my life suffer through all of my treatments and preyend to be strong. You will always have him with you in spieit and pray that God allows comfort and peace for you and your family. We all here eill continue to pray for you.

    Loyd
  • Pam M
    Pam M Member Posts: 2,196
    #20
    blackswampboy said:

    condolences
    “They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it.
    Death cannot kill what never dies.
    Nor can spirits ever be divided, that love and live in the same divine principle, the root and record of their friendship.
    If absence be not death, neither is theirs.
    Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still.
    For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent.
    In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure.
    This is the comfort of friends, that though they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal.”
    ― William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude / More Fruits of Solitude

    Love that, blackswampboy
    Touching
  • Pam M
    Pam M Member Posts: 2,196
    #21
    Very Sorry
    Chloe Elizabeth, I ache for you. I'm so sorry your husband has been taken from you. I understand he just couldn't make the recovery we'd all have liked, but it's hard to think that the asked-for miracle just wasn't to be. I hope you find some small comfort here and there, and that you can spend some time with others who cared for him. I wish, with all the advice we all throw out on this site, that we could offer some to help get you through this horrible time.

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