scanxiety.....never ceases to amaze me *UPDATE*

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  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #22
    Momof2plusteentwins said:

    Grace
    I know what you mean. Cancer is on my mind every second of the day. I was diagnosed 4/11/12 and that's all I have thought of. Stage IV rectal cancer with mets to liver. Had surgery to remove rectal tumor and single liver met. Ned sept scan, but I feel like I need to be scanned every week to keep an eye on everything. Next scan in December and I am already worried. My family that sees me occasionally sees me not sick and no one really understands unless they live it. I feel like I have a death sentence that is torturing me slowly.
    Sandy :)

    Sandy
    haha know what you mean....yes a weekly scan would be good just to be sure....NOT that would be a lot of radiation but seriously I take your point. My only thought is time.....as you move away it will lessen....sometimes now between scans I am anxiety free. I have always compared it to sneaking slowly slowly away from the beast.....whack down comes the paw sometimes and you have to start over....but sometimes you can sneak away.

    I was diagnosed in 2005 Sandy and have fought three separate times....you will get there girl....you really really will

    best love,

    mags
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #23
    can we ever escape and find some peace....?
    Mags:

    Rumor has it that when the grass grows over us we finally will:)
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #24
    Sundanceh said:

    can we ever escape and find some peace....?
    Mags:

    Rumor has it that when the grass grows over us we finally will:)

    haha
    hahah thanks there Craigie-poo

    might be just a rumor though.....

    hugs
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331 Member
    #25
    maglets said:

    haha
    hahah thanks there Craigie-poo

    might be just a rumor though.....

    hugs

    Hi mags !
    I remember a few days ago that it was time for you to have your Scans, I remembered that it was around Halloween l remembered as well about your yearly scanxiety ,LOL. But I know, everything it's going to be OK as usual my friend .Good luck ,prayers and vibes cher Amie !
    ((((HUGS)))).
  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    #26
    I know the wait......
    I had my first post chemo scan in Sept - all clear. I was a pile of nerves up to that date. When I saw my Onc he was so happy to give me the news. He said we will scan you every 6 months for the first 3 years and he told me not to let cancer hold me hostage. I really thought about that and it was a powerful statement. This 'cancer' gets hold of our body, mind, emotions, spirit, family, finances, every waking and sleeping thought. Enough. So I decided every 6 months I just need to go, get the scan and just do that unhappy thing at that moment. I know it is easy to say but I really feel cancer has taken time from me that I cannot get back so I will only give it what's needed and really try to live!
  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    #27
    Momof2plusteentwins said:

    Mags
    Good luck with scan. I wish we could all hold each other hands for these scans. Looking forward to your NED results tomorrow.
    Sandy :)

    I think we hold hands -
    virally for each other. Through the www from one keyboard to another. Support without borders.
  • Chelsea71
    Chelsea71 Member Posts: 1,169 Member
    #28
    I think scans are the worse
    I think scans are the worse kind of torture a person can endure. My husband (who actually has the cancer), starts to worry approx. 5 minutes before getting the results. For myself, the anxiety creeps in a couple weeks before the scan. Insomnia, irritability, distracted all the time etc... I have to take a full mg of Ativan before getting the results. I've often wondered if it gets easier over time, but I'm guessing it does not. I have the feeling you're going to get good news. Even if the results are not what you're hoping for, I know that you will dig deep within yourself and find the ability to deal with the situation. You guys are the strongest group of people imaginable.

    Good luck!
  • Chelsea71
    Chelsea71 Member Posts: 1,169 Member
    #29
    I think scans are the worse
    I think scans are the worse kind of torture a person can endure. My husband (who actually has the cancer), starts to worry approx. 5 minutes before getting the results. For myself, the anxiety creeps in a couple weeks before the scan. Insomnia, irritability, distracted all the time etc... I have to take a full mg of Ativan before getting the results. I've often wondered if it gets easier over time, but I'm guessing it does not. I have the feeling you're going to get good news. Even if the results are not what you're hoping for, I know that you will dig deep within yourself and find the ability to deal with the situation. You guys are the strongest group of people imaginable.

    Good luck!

    Chelsea

    Whoops! I guess I'm impatient. I am finding this web site to be very slow lately.
  • lauragb
    lauragb Member Posts: 370 Member
    #30
    I hope NED visited you in
    I hope NED visited you in the doughnut! I feel your scanxiousness. Mine are coming up next month. I think I'm starting to get a little whacky already. Like many others have said, l think I give cancer too much attention. Time for more soothing relaxing images. I look forward to hearing your good results:)
  • Cathleen Mary
    Cathleen Mary Member Posts: 827 Member
    #31
    lauragb said:

    I hope NED visited you in
    I hope NED visited you in the doughnut! I feel your scanxiousness. Mine are coming up next month. I think I'm starting to get a little whacky already. Like many others have said, l think I give cancer too much attention. Time for more soothing relaxing images. I look forward to hearing your good results:)

    There is so much about

    There is so much about having cancer that no can prepare us for and living with uncertainty/anxiety is at the top of my list. There are so many benchmarks to get through; then, there's new ones. Praying that all went well.

    hugs,
    Cathleen Mary
  • Cathleen Mary
    Cathleen Mary Member Posts: 827 Member
    #32
    lauragb said:

    I hope NED visited you in
    I hope NED visited you in the doughnut! I feel your scanxiousness. Mine are coming up next month. I think I'm starting to get a little whacky already. Like many others have said, l think I give cancer too much attention. Time for more soothing relaxing images. I look forward to hearing your good results:)

    There is so much about

    There is so much about having cancer that no can prepare us for and living with uncertainty/anxiety is at the top of my list. There are so many benchmarks to get through; then, there's new ones. Praying that all went well.

    hugs,
    Cathleen Mary
  • Semira
    Semira Member Posts: 381 Member
    #33
    Feeling with you
    and thinking of you both. Sending best wishes all the way from Germany!
    A big big hug
    Petra
  • janderson1964
    janderson1964 Member Posts: 2,215 Member
    #34
    I am praying for a clean
    I am praying for a clean scan.
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #35
    janderson1964 said:

    I am praying for a clean
    I am praying for a clean scan.

    thank you
    thank you one and all for your kind and thoughtful words.

    No word yet....it will take some time I expect....something that we obviously all share..

    the sun is shining here today so that is a very good thing.

    thinking of all of you and all our woes

    maags
  • smokeyjoe
    smokeyjoe Member Posts: 1,425 Member
    #36
    maglets said:

    thank you
    thank you one and all for your kind and thoughtful words.

    No word yet....it will take some time I expect....something that we obviously all share..

    the sun is shining here today so that is a very good thing.

    thinking of all of you and all our woes

    maags

    Mags you could joined me up
    Mags you could joined me up at the Bala Cranberry Festival .... went to the winery :) Bought me some cranberry wine ... cranberries are good for you!!
  • YoVita
    YoVita Member Posts: 590 Member
    #37
    Hoping for a clear scan
    for you. Also hope you don't have to wait too long for the results.
  • tommycat
    tommycat Member Posts: 790 Member
    #38
    Maglets......today is here
    Maglets......today is here and you did it---you got through it---you WENT for your scans. Phew---over! Now to wait for the good results, which I hope you'll post.
    PS: Like the image of holding hands through cyberspace.
    xo
    TC
  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    #39
    A Change of Mind, Maybe?
    I just had a thought (it happens every now and then), we are not dying from cancer - we are living with it. Scans are part of the living with it. We each need to learn the "how" to live with it as there is no instruction manual for this. So we need to face blood tests and scans and all that fun stuff. I know it really, really, really, really sucks (alot) but the alternative is not an option. Hope my words of wisdom(?) helps someone.
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #40
    maglets said:

    thank you
    thank you one and all for your kind and thoughtful words.

    No word yet....it will take some time I expect....something that we obviously all share..

    the sun is shining here today so that is a very good thing.

    thinking of all of you and all our woes

    maags

    Mags...
    While the scans aren't fun, it's part of the game as another member recently said here.
    I've found that they get easier over time. I just go on with my life and not until 6 days later do I get antsy.
    I guess that since I've been in the same pattern for so long that things are what they area and I'm not going
    to change things by worrying about them..

    {{{hugs}}}
    -phil
  • jjaj133
    jjaj133 Member Posts: 867 Member
    #41
    Dear Mags, I hope all is
    Dear Mags, I hope all is well by now. Mine is Friday and I too have been so blessed. However, I start about 2 weeks before the scan imagining every ache & pain to be the beast. I tell myself I am being silly, but we all know what can happen. Good luck dear lady and continued good health,
    Hugs,
    & Prayers,
    Judy

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