Cannot get rid of this nagging fear.

surprise- you are not nuts!
I know I certainly thought all that and more. Still do sometimes! It is natural because cancer kills...but as you will see from this site, btw welcome! you found the best place possible for help, love and support, anyway you will meet many survivors. Some are pretty long term! Others are like you and just beginning the horrible trek down BC lane. Others have completed treatment and are trying to figure out how to live "normally" again. It is so difficult to go from living life and doing daily routines to being dx with CANCER. It is the only thing we hear. Then the treatment itself almost kills some of us! Depression kicks in. And then one day, treatment is over, the sun come out and the doc gives us positive news! And for some if the news isn't as positive as we hoped, we don't give up! Because there is always hope. So try now to think about the many many millions of women who are survivors and stop thinking about those that weren't. Odds are on your side.
Good luck and God Bless
Sandy

so sorry you fear...it's a
so sorry you fear...it's a terriable feeling-as you know..

Have you tried a therapist at the cancer center. I spoke to social worker or some kind of counselor which was very helpful...and used a journal daily..also in hind sight helpful.

Denise

lynn1950 said:

You are not nuts, you are a
You are not nuts, you are a cancer survivor! As treatment wound down I became obsessed with fear and it ran my life for a while. With counseling, Yoga, meditation, medication and time the fear has been tamped down. Oh, it's still there and jumps out to say "boo" every once and a while, especially when it's time for a checkup. Hang in there. It does get better! xoxoxo Lynn

No, you are not nuts. Or if
No, you are not nuts. Or if you are, we all are! You've expressed the way that all of us feel, maybe deep down, but, we all understand. The good news is that with time, you will start feeling mentally better and the fear will not be so constant.

It's important to live your life, live it to the fullest and not let cancer ruin that.

Hugs and it will get better,


Jan

Your fear and thoughts are
Your fear and thoughts are completely normal after a cancer diagnosis. I still struggle with it, and I am 2 years post treatment.
xoxo
heather

hope4thebest said:

try a bc support group
Welcome Carolyn,
Maybe a local mtg in your area? I have found that helpful. It is very comforting to see other people of all ages, in all stages of this illness. The fear is just kicking in with me, I am only 1.5 years out from dx and I can relate to your feelings. I keep active and that makes me feel like a am promoting good health.
Maybe a weekend away from your home environment? I was lucky enough to go to Cambodia between my surgeries. It was an intense trip that removed me from thinking about cancer. Sure, I had other fears, like getting lost... Or running into a big spider!! but it was a great distraction.
Keep your humor up with movies, or whatever works. Laughter is powerful.
Take care,
Annie

Keeping you in good thoughts and prayers ...
it does get better in time .. does this feeling go away entirely .. no! However,
the sky's look a little brighter, the grass a little greener, so we plan
to attend a party, or book a vacation -- and start to live each and every day to its fullest.

It takes time ... Breast cancer is a life altering disease -- no question about
this.

Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

Vicki Sam

Hugs!
Nah I'm thinking I'm a lot like this chick! ;-) What you are feeling is super normal, recurrence is scary but let me tell you as one who has had recurrence it is also survivable! I tend to think of my fear as a way to keep myself alive, a self imposed be on the look out so to speak. It keeps me on my toes and aware of my body so that if anything seems wrong I run to the doctor. It will relent as time passes, your dx sounds like the odds are good for you to do super well!

Hugs,

RE