Nervous - review scheduled

As some you recall, after my surgery I felt my Path report was pretty good all things considering, large tumor and all.

I was given my classification via phone as
T3a N0 Mx - clear cell - grade 3 - negative margins - 12 cm extraction size

Well I finally got a hard copy of my pathology report via postal service, and it seems a few things were left out of that voice discussion.

First is Node involvement. I was told n0, but on the path report is says:

REGIONAL LYMPH NODES (pN):
- pNX: REGIONAL LYMPH NODES CANNOT BE ASSESSED

Correct me if I am wrong, but that does not make it n0 - that makes it nx does it not?

Another passage on the path that I find disturbing, and was also left out of the phone call was this:

PRIMARY TUMOR (pT):
- pT3a: TUMOR GROSSLY EXTENDS INTO THE RENAL VEIN BUT NOT BEYOND GEROTA'S FASCIA

The T3a I understood on the phone - but that extension into the renal vein can not bode well, nor would I think it to be a trivial matter worthy of being omitted in conversation. But again, I am no expert.

Then almost on Cue, The VA calls the next day and wants to schedule an appointment to discuss the Pathology report with Oncology. The follow phrases it as "To make sure you understand the implications of the report".

I'm thinking we could have phrased that message a little better. Geez I am already nervous in light of the full pathology details. That message came across as a little impending.

I try to push this stuff out of my mind and get some work done, but it just keeps invading my thoughts on a daily basis. Am I babbling and unduly nervous? Most likely both, but I just felt the need to vent somewhere.