Sorry girls...one week out from last chemo and
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Linda,Gabe N Abby Mom said:I think we've all been at
I think we've all been at that point where we just want the roller coaster to stop and let us off...I hope you are feeling better today.
Hugs,
Linda
You of all people know the roller coaster. I ache to feel better. It feels like a very long time ago that I had "fun" and felt good. I wouldn't go through all of this if I didn't think it was for the good and I would get better. Do you ever feel good?
Love,
Rebecca0 -
Oh RozRozHopkins said:Hi
I'm English and though not perfect by a long way our medical system is so much better. Everyone pays from their wages automatically so when things crop up nothing comes out of your savings. I find the system here barbaric and terrible for a civilized country. There now I'm venting........... Heaven help you here if you aren't armed with an Insurance Card.
Chemo, I remember I looked at a pile of ironing and thought I'd rather commit suicide than tackle it. Could hardly move so exhausted. But I slept when ever my body told me to because I new it was a healing process and felt no guilt. Gosh I napped all the time for a long time.
My son who loves me I know, couldn't talk about the cancer and did not want to ever see me with no hair until I finally said I couldn't stand being too hot when he visited and I took the hat off. Infact he did 't want to touch me as if it was catching. No one understands how we feel who haven't experienced this. I'm sorry you have a bundle of things happening all at once, this a rotten time for you. I am hoping you have some strong friends who are supporting you, women need to share. I hope your pain relief works soon, nothing worse when so much on your plate. Keep posting because 'we get it'.
Let me live where YOU live! My strong friends are mostly here on the board. However, I do have a friend from the animal shelter where I volunteered when this bomb shell hit me and she is a trooper. But she has never gone through it and also doesn't understand how tired I am all of the time. They seem to think that if they ask how you are and you respond in the affirmative that that is how you will feel 10 minutes from now when you are in the bathroom busy with one end or the other!
I totally agree with your assessment of this country's medical problems. Greed brought it on I think about 30 years ago. It wasn't this bad before then. I have no clue as to how it could be resolved.
Thank you for your understanding!
Rebecca0 -
My heart goes put to yourallendorfer said:47ronin
Thank you for your understanding. I am coming to grips with my daughter leaving my life, and the grandkids too. It is hard, but I realize that she hasn't got it in her heart. I do find support here as my safety net. I am sorry that you had to quit the chemo early, and wish that I could. I am so sick all day, the sickest I have been yet and I keep crying. Everyone says tell the Oncologist and ask them what to do but I have an arsenol of pills in there and I start crying when I look at it because I don't know which one to take. I really need a personal nurse!!! I am so confused night and day.
How are you now after your 4 rounds? Have you gone through any surgeries? I wish the best for you, too, my new sister.
Hugs,
Rebecca
My heart goes put to you Rebecca ,there is a light at the end of the tunnel gust hang in there. It's all right to be mad and rant and rave i'm so sorry about your daughter and grandkids i just can't image one of my kids just walking away as they where my life line thorough out all this cancer mess,kick it to the curb so to speak.My prayers go with you and lots of hugs coming your way.
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oopsrallendorfer said:Oh Roz
Let me live where YOU live! My strong friends are mostly here on the board. However, I do have a friend from the animal shelter where I volunteered when this bomb shell hit me and she is a trooper. But she has never gone through it and also doesn't understand how tired I am all of the time. They seem to think that if they ask how you are and you respond in the affirmative that that is how you will feel 10 minutes from now when you are in the bathroom busy with one end or the other!
I totally agree with your assessment of this country's medical problems. Greed brought it on I think about 30 years ago. It wasn't this bad before then. I have no clue as to how it could be resolved.
Thank you for your understanding!
Rebecca
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Leave the daughter thing go
Leave the daughter thing go for now ....... my college kids just left for colleges out of state.... and I was a bit relieved to say the least we did go to counseling which helped daughter has a worse attitude than son , better with counseling, but it will take time Hope you can hang in there for your own health we are hear to listen to venting ... we understand! Sue D0 -
I've been wanting to postsdukowitz said:Leave the daughter thing go
Leave the daughter thing go for now ....... my college kids just left for colleges out of state.... and I was a bit relieved to say the least we did go to counseling which helped daughter has a worse attitude than son , better with counseling, but it will take time Hope you can hang in there for your own health we are hear to listen to venting ... we understand! Sue D
to at least offer some support and understanding, but I'm away and finally got the computer going so I don't flag posts from my phone anymore! Sheesh!
So, here it goes. I have (at home and I'm not there) a spreadsheet/checklist a friend had to help with remembering when to take meds getting through chemo. If you (or anyone) will send me a PM with their email address, I'll share it - but I won't be home until Sept, 2. And I'll have to find it. I just rememembered I have this. I remember how impressed I was with it, but I don't remember if it will help you or not.
I wonder what would happen if you called your daughter and asked her to help with something specific? Or if her dad did? Like taking you to an oncology appointment, or help preparing some meals, picking up something from the store, etc. If you think you'd get a negative response, don't do it. You don't need to add anything else to upset you. The thing is, no one seems to think having breast cancer is that big a deal anymore because they all know someone whGive o had it and is "just fine". We know differently. Add to that the naiveity of youth and the self-centeredness of youth and it can be an impossible situation. If you want to maintain or repair your relationship with your daughter, you may need to put that on the back burner until you're feeling well again. And you will feel well again even though it seems impossible now. I had a similar experience with my only sibling. Sigh.
My only advice is to give yourself a break. You're sicker than you've ever been and you can't do everything. Only you know how to take care of yourself and that should be your only responsibility now.
Gosh, I hope you can feel better soon. You've had a long haul with chemo. Just so you know, I've been sending out some prayers for you and I will continue to do so.
Hugs,
Suzanne
PS Let your husband take care of you - he either prepares food (sandwiches work) for the both of you or he starves. He'll figure it out0 -
Oh Dear Becca
I've been away and just now read your post. O M G!! How my heart sunk. I wish I was closer so I could help out.
I also would say that you need to talk to someone at the hospital and medical facility where you are treated about the finances. Being sick should not bankrupt anyone. Our country and politicians need to take care of our own! This is one topic that boils my blood! (telling myself to stop)
Please try to finish the chemo. I don't know what it feels like because I was fortunate enough to be able to bypass that treatment. What I do know is that you have to do everything necessary to get well. I need you Becca. It's selfish of me. But I have come to know you as a dear friend and I want you to get well.
Sending tons of love and gentle hugs. You are loved ....
xoxo
Mary0 -
GRRRR!!!
Becky I did not read all the posts here so I may make suggestions others have already made so I am sorry in advance if I do that. First let me suggest you let people know you cannot do extra, you in fact should be doing less you are not well yet and are working hard on getting well. If need be have your oncologist write a note to your employer suggesting what your current limitations are (there is no shame in this I had to do it when I went back to work because my energy was so sapped), stop using metal utensil's~switch to sturdy plastic ones to help limit the metal taste due to chemo it may help to enhance the taste of food, contact your daughter and tell her you could use a bit of help that he chemo is wearing on you and you could use her help. Perhaps she could come over and do some housework for you, bring you a few meals to freeze so I difficult day's you will have an easy meal. I would also suggest you contact your local ASC and tell them what your situation is and ask if they know of any local monetary support that you could draw on. Ranting is okay, there is no shame in it we have all been there and we certainly understand how you are feeling. You say you have two chemo's left so you are almost there, keep working on getting through this you can do it, it is doable and you will get through this!
Now if you still feel super lousy call your onco and tell them how you are feeling, they may be able to suggest a medication that will ease your discomfort a bit. Do not suffer without checking to see if there is something they can do aide you. I will be keeping you in prayer, hang in there, it is worth all the discomfort and pain to have a future!
♥ RE ♥0 -
last chemo
Rebecca, hope by now you are feeling a little better. Several things helped me get through the initial ugly shock of having BC. One was my surgeon's nurse who was my angel and "held my hand" through the chemo, surgery and radiation. Second was a psychiatrist who put me on Lexapro and helped me understand my feelings of anger and sadness and kept me calm.
Third was the American Cancer Society who put me in touch with a "support person" in my area who I could talk to on the phone and who had gone through the same thing. I also had the support of friends, family and my children and husband. However, I must say I got nothing in the way of support from my mother. She chose to just pretend I didn't have breast cancer. She's in her 80's and I just think she was afraid and couldn't handle it. Maybe that's how your daughter feels.
You'll feel much better about things after your last chemo. Good luck.
Judy0 -
Thanks SuzanneDouble Whammy said:I've been wanting to post
to at least offer some support and understanding, but I'm away and finally got the computer going so I don't flag posts from my phone anymore! Sheesh!
So, here it goes. I have (at home and I'm not there) a spreadsheet/checklist a friend had to help with remembering when to take meds getting through chemo. If you (or anyone) will send me a PM with their email address, I'll share it - but I won't be home until Sept, 2. And I'll have to find it. I just rememembered I have this. I remember how impressed I was with it, but I don't remember if it will help you or not.
I wonder what would happen if you called your daughter and asked her to help with something specific? Or if her dad did? Like taking you to an oncology appointment, or help preparing some meals, picking up something from the store, etc. If you think you'd get a negative response, don't do it. You don't need to add anything else to upset you. The thing is, no one seems to think having breast cancer is that big a deal anymore because they all know someone whGive o had it and is "just fine". We know differently. Add to that the naiveity of youth and the self-centeredness of youth and it can be an impossible situation. If you want to maintain or repair your relationship with your daughter, you may need to put that on the back burner until you're feeling well again. And you will feel well again even though it seems impossible now. I had a similar experience with my only sibling. Sigh.
My only advice is to give yourself a break. You're sicker than you've ever been and you can't do everything. Only you know how to take care of yourself and that should be your only responsibility now.
Gosh, I hope you can feel better soon. You've had a long haul with chemo. Just so you know, I've been sending out some prayers for you and I will continue to do so.
Hugs,
Suzanne
PS Let your husband take care of you - he either prepares food (sandwiches work) for the both of you or he starves. He'll figure it out
Here comes a PM with my email for the meds help. After years of living with my dear inept husband, I think he would starve, and actually be surprised that the food didn't just materialize in front of him. Thanks for the concern and help!
Love ya,
Rebecca0 -
Thank you MaryMsGebby said:Oh Dear Becca
I've been away and just now read your post. O M G!! How my heart sunk. I wish I was closer so I could help out.
I also would say that you need to talk to someone at the hospital and medical facility where you are treated about the finances. Being sick should not bankrupt anyone. Our country and politicians need to take care of our own! This is one topic that boils my blood! (telling myself to stop)
Please try to finish the chemo. I don't know what it feels like because I was fortunate enough to be able to bypass that treatment. What I do know is that you have to do everything necessary to get well. I need you Becca. It's selfish of me. But I have come to know you as a dear friend and I want you to get well.
Sending tons of love and gentle hugs. You are loved ....
xoxo
Mary
You know I love you too. I am glad you bypassed the chemo. I am going to finish it but it is like taking poison, it kills so much. I hope it is killing the cancer. The tumors have shrunk, and that is good. But the chemo is too much. I don't know what to do but move forward.
So grateful to know you, my friend!!
Rebecca0 -
grrrrr! from me tooRE said:GRRRR!!!
Becky I did not read all the posts here so I may make suggestions others have already made so I am sorry in advance if I do that. First let me suggest you let people know you cannot do extra, you in fact should be doing less you are not well yet and are working hard on getting well. If need be have your oncologist write a note to your employer suggesting what your current limitations are (there is no shame in this I had to do it when I went back to work because my energy was so sapped), stop using metal utensil's~switch to sturdy plastic ones to help limit the metal taste due to chemo it may help to enhance the taste of food, contact your daughter and tell her you could use a bit of help that he chemo is wearing on you and you could use her help. Perhaps she could come over and do some housework for you, bring you a few meals to freeze so I difficult day's you will have an easy meal. I would also suggest you contact your local ASC and tell them what your situation is and ask if they know of any local monetary support that you could draw on. Ranting is okay, there is no shame in it we have all been there and we certainly understand how you are feeling. You say you have two chemo's left so you are almost there, keep working on getting through this you can do it, it is doable and you will get through this!
Now if you still feel super lousy call your onco and tell them how you are feeling, they may be able to suggest a medication that will ease your discomfort a bit. Do not suffer without checking to see if there is something they can do aide you. I will be keeping you in prayer, hang in there, it is worth all the discomfort and pain to have a future!
♥ RE ♥
RE: I thank you most of all for the prayers. I wish I knew how to tell people so they would listen that I can't do extra. I feel almost like I am begging these people to please remember that I have BC and am going through chemo and can't do even what I used to do, let alone the extras. But they seem to think I look healthy so I must be. They are cutting me no slack. But if I have the Oncologist write a note for work that would endanger my job if it appeared that I could not do it. There are others who would gladly take my place.
My daughter lives 3 hours away, so I think that she is happy she has an excuse not to come and help. She hasn't offered any because "she lives just too far away".
My Oncologist has already prescribed meds, and my cupboard is full, and when I am sick I look at the cupboard and cry. I don't know which one to take. I was so achy all over so I wondered if I should take the Vicodin, but then I had to take a Prilosec for the stomach that was in pain, only to take Advil for the miserable headache. Then to take a stool softener for the effects from the Vicodin, and an Ativan for my shaking nerves. I feel like flushing the whole cupboard down the toilet where it belongs. She gave me 2 mouth washes for the sore mouth..it was beyond sore...it was agony. But they are different and I am supposed to use each of them 4 times a day. I don't know how when the one says don't eat food for an hour after using it. Well, I guess pills don't count as food.
You see my dilemma. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!0 -
sorry your family are not
sorry your family are not treating you well! You can vent away all you want...we all have our good and bad times. I did not have chemo so I can only imagine what you are going through. I wish you the best.
Denise0 -
Please....GrandmaJ said:last chemo
Rebecca, hope by now you are feeling a little better. Several things helped me get through the initial ugly shock of having BC. One was my surgeon's nurse who was my angel and "held my hand" through the chemo, surgery and radiation. Second was a psychiatrist who put me on Lexapro and helped me understand my feelings of anger and sadness and kept me calm.
Third was the American Cancer Society who put me in touch with a "support person" in my area who I could talk to on the phone and who had gone through the same thing. I also had the support of friends, family and my children and husband. However, I must say I got nothing in the way of support from my mother. She chose to just pretend I didn't have breast cancer. She's in her 80's and I just think she was afraid and couldn't handle it. Maybe that's how your daughter feels.
You'll feel much better about things after your last chemo. Good luck.
Judy
Please don't say you hate your life.....:(......You're having a really bad time and we certainly understand.....but you're one chemo away from having some light at the end of the tunnel.....it will get better....it takes time....I couldn't help but think of our pink sisters who have lost their battle with bc....they would gladly feel like crap if it meant they were still alive to feel crappy....I so understand how you're feeling, we all do and you have every right to vent your feelings! I think that helps emotionally...we're here for you...Always!
As for your medication, I have found the best help there is the pharmacist.....talk to them about what to take when....I have a wonderful one....if not for her I would be screwed!
As for your daughter, as others have said, as bad as it hurts, let it go for now...I know easier said than done....is she your only child? if she lives 3 hours away and has small children, perhaps she CAN'T make herself available to you...I don't pretend to know what caused this separation, but perhaps try looking at this from her perspective....my daughter was 36 with 3 kids when I was first diagnosed ....I thought she would lose her mind....she lives an hour and a half from us....she felt so torn....I told her, her husband and children came first....when I had my first and second recurrence again she about went over the edge.... I'm stage IV but thanks be to God I am in remission....and chemo for the rest of my life....as maintenance.....our son is a shrink, so I get lots of "advice" from him...lol
Don't be afraid to ask for help from friends...women aren't good at this...but sometimes we have to swallow our pride and reach out....as for your "inept" husband....if he won't eat unless you fix it, let him go hungry! lol.....after a while he'll get the message! You're the sick one not him! I am so blessed with my husband, he cooks when I don't feel like it...now granted, it maybe a Marie Callendars frozen dinner but it fills us up....lol actually they're pretty good....you make a slit in the top, put them on a baking sheet and pop 'em in the oven for 45- 60 minutes, and bingo, there's dinner! Send him to the store with a list and stock up on them....if he won't go to the store, ask a friend to go...people like to have a specific task to help
out...
I hope I haven't come across as preachy, but my heart breaks for you....I care....but please remember you won't always feel this way...but it takes time....allow yourself time...you wil feel better....
Oh and here's what my Oncologist told me last week....they are trying to get weight back on me....lost 35 pounds...he asked me if I liked wine...no I don't...so he said what do I like alcohol wise..I'm not a drinker, but do enjoy a bloody Mary and or a margarita now and then.... He said, then have it! Alcohol has mucho calories...he said just not the day before, the day of and the day after chemo! Okay...I've had one this weekend.....
Heavens this is way to long! We're here for you...
You can do it, sweetie!
Hugs, Nancy0 -
Oh, dear Rebecca, I justdisneyfan2008 said:sorry your family are not
sorry your family are not treating you well! You can vent away all you want...we all have our good and bad times. I did not have chemo so I can only imagine what you are going through. I wish you the best.
Denise
Oh, dear Rebecca, I just found this thread and I'm so sorry you're having such a bad time.
I believe you're following me on the treatment path and just have 1 or 2 more chemos then rads. (?)
My advice sounds like and is a couple of cliches, I know, but it's sincere:
"Just keep on keeping on"---you will get through it
"Just say NO"---when asked to do "extras" can't you say "No, it's taking all I have to do my regular job and get through this cancer treatment" ?
Cancer center social workers have lots of resources for financial help depending on your situation. Don't wait til you're tapped out. Ours suggested we file with the hospital/cancer center to see if we could get a discount on co-pays since we are "high volume" users--me and hubby. We filed, but haven't heard anything yet. Nothing ventured nothing gained.
Is your husband disabled? If not, can you say to him, "I need you to help me get through this. Here's what I really need from you."
And, as others have said, just leave the daughter issue til you're stronger. Please don't burn any bridges.
I hope you don't mind me saying these things. I just want you to feel better SO much. I know what a caring person you are with all of us here. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Angie0 -
Just vent.....
I sort of know what you are going through. My surgery was 8-04-2010 and both my daughters said it is only a small cancer. They were not with me for dx,surgery or even now. My husband needed them when I was going through treatment but they weren't there for him either. We have great memories of them as children and our grand kids and that gets us through the days that we have hurt or bad feelings because of no contact with them. Had my appt. last Friday for 2 year check up and both docs gave me great news. So I take that and try to be happy. Don't get me wrong I get peed off at the girls but ..... My husband has been there and you need to let yours know you need him. In 45 years my husband didn't lift a finger (more or less) to help but these past 2 years he has been a jewel. He reaches his end of the rope with the cancer and the kids but we get through it. Friends help and coming to this site has been great. Even though I don't post often I read all the time.
Know my prayers and everyone here is pulling for you,
Diana0 -
Thanks for the suggestionsMAJW said:Please....
Please don't say you hate your life.....:(......You're having a really bad time and we certainly understand.....but you're one chemo away from having some light at the end of the tunnel.....it will get better....it takes time....I couldn't help but think of our pink sisters who have lost their battle with bc....they would gladly feel like crap if it meant they were still alive to feel crappy....I so understand how you're feeling, we all do and you have every right to vent your feelings! I think that helps emotionally...we're here for you...Always!
As for your medication, I have found the best help there is the pharmacist.....talk to them about what to take when....I have a wonderful one....if not for her I would be screwed!
As for your daughter, as others have said, as bad as it hurts, let it go for now...I know easier said than done....is she your only child? if she lives 3 hours away and has small children, perhaps she CAN'T make herself available to you...I don't pretend to know what caused this separation, but perhaps try looking at this from her perspective....my daughter was 36 with 3 kids when I was first diagnosed ....I thought she would lose her mind....she lives an hour and a half from us....she felt so torn....I told her, her husband and children came first....when I had my first and second recurrence again she about went over the edge.... I'm stage IV but thanks be to God I am in remission....and chemo for the rest of my life....as maintenance.....our son is a shrink, so I get lots of "advice" from him...lol
Don't be afraid to ask for help from friends...women aren't good at this...but sometimes we have to swallow our pride and reach out....as for your "inept" husband....if he won't eat unless you fix it, let him go hungry! lol.....after a while he'll get the message! You're the sick one not him! I am so blessed with my husband, he cooks when I don't feel like it...now granted, it maybe a Marie Callendars frozen dinner but it fills us up....lol actually they're pretty good....you make a slit in the top, put them on a baking sheet and pop 'em in the oven for 45- 60 minutes, and bingo, there's dinner! Send him to the store with a list and stock up on them....if he won't go to the store, ask a friend to go...people like to have a specific task to help
out...
I hope I haven't come across as preachy, but my heart breaks for you....I care....but please remember you won't always feel this way...but it takes time....allow yourself time...you wil feel better....
Oh and here's what my Oncologist told me last week....they are trying to get weight back on me....lost 35 pounds...he asked me if I liked wine...no I don't...so he said what do I like alcohol wise..I'm not a drinker, but do enjoy a bloody Mary and or a margarita now and then.... He said, then have it! Alcohol has mucho calories...he said just not the day before, the day of and the day after chemo! Okay...I've had one this weekend.....
Heavens this is way to long! We're here for you...
You can do it, sweetie!
Hugs, Nancy
I really thought about the frozen dinner one and decided to go that route after last night. I had a craving for salad with broccoli and egg and onion. It was a side to go with (once again) left over lasagne that has been reheated too much for my husband. In the time it took about 10 minutes to make both salads I couldn't stomach the sight of it and John didn't want his either. In the garbage it went. The cost of food makes that a crime. So thanks for the suggestion, this weekend I am stocking up on some of it.
Thanks again!
Rebecca0 -
Hi AngieAngieD said:Oh, dear Rebecca, I just
Oh, dear Rebecca, I just found this thread and I'm so sorry you're having such a bad time.
I believe you're following me on the treatment path and just have 1 or 2 more chemos then rads. (?)
My advice sounds like and is a couple of cliches, I know, but it's sincere:
"Just keep on keeping on"---you will get through it
"Just say NO"---when asked to do "extras" can't you say "No, it's taking all I have to do my regular job and get through this cancer treatment" ?
Cancer center social workers have lots of resources for financial help depending on your situation. Don't wait til you're tapped out. Ours suggested we file with the hospital/cancer center to see if we could get a discount on co-pays since we are "high volume" users--me and hubby. We filed, but haven't heard anything yet. Nothing ventured nothing gained.
Is your husband disabled? If not, can you say to him, "I need you to help me get through this. Here's what I really need from you."
And, as others have said, just leave the daughter issue til you're stronger. Please don't burn any bridges.
I hope you don't mind me saying these things. I just want you to feel better SO much. I know what a caring person you are with all of us here. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Angie
No, my husband isn't disabled. He is like Gagee's husband below. He is doing much better since I have been diagnosed and going through treatment. He is just having to do somethings he never did before and needs practice!
There is one thought I would like to bring out about bridges that has been on my mind all night. It seems to me that I am the one that built it in the first place, and have spent years on it trying to put out the fires coming from the other side. After a while you just have to admit that the bridge isn't wanted. I won't light a fire on my end, but I am tired now of putting out the smoldering embers from the other end and can't do it anymore.
I love you Angie, and hope that you will stay and visit with us as the Lord puts new wind in your beloved sails!!
Hugs,
Rebecca0 -
Are you my long lost sister?gagee said:Just vent.....
I sort of know what you are going through. My surgery was 8-04-2010 and both my daughters said it is only a small cancer. They were not with me for dx,surgery or even now. My husband needed them when I was going through treatment but they weren't there for him either. We have great memories of them as children and our grand kids and that gets us through the days that we have hurt or bad feelings because of no contact with them. Had my appt. last Friday for 2 year check up and both docs gave me great news. So I take that and try to be happy. Don't get me wrong I get peed off at the girls but ..... My husband has been there and you need to let yours know you need him. In 45 years my husband didn't lift a finger (more or less) to help but these past 2 years he has been a jewel. He reaches his end of the rope with the cancer and the kids but we get through it. Friends help and coming to this site has been great. Even though I don't post often I read all the time.
Know my prayers and everyone here is pulling for you,
Diana
wow, we sure have a lot in common!
Hugs,
Rebecca0 -
Hope You're Doing Ok, Rebeccarallendorfer said:47ronin
Thank you for your understanding. I am coming to grips with my daughter leaving my life, and the grandkids too. It is hard, but I realize that she hasn't got it in her heart. I do find support here as my safety net. I am sorry that you had to quit the chemo early, and wish that I could. I am so sick all day, the sickest I have been yet and I keep crying. Everyone says tell the Oncologist and ask them what to do but I have an arsenol of pills in there and I start crying when I look at it because I don't know which one to take. I really need a personal nurse!!! I am so confused night and day.
How are you now after your 4 rounds? Have you gone through any surgeries? I wish the best for you, too, my new sister.
Hugs,
Rebecca
I'm sorry I didn't reply before this; somehow I screwed up my log-in and password information. (I blame chemo-brain). I hope that you're not feeling as low as you did a couple of days ago. I'm fighting a tough depression myself, and it's hard to pull out of it.
I can empathize with being overwhelmed by the arsenal of pills: I stopped taking the antidepressant my Onco prescribed because I just got so sick and tired of taking one drug that causes a side effect, and taking another pill for that, which causes another side effect. I do plan to try to get another antidepressant on my next trip, because it was dumb of me to go off of them all at once.
I just saw a PS yesterday about reconstruction. I had originally signed up for DIEP flap reconstruction, but my job is giving me a hard time about taking more time off, so I'm going to do implants, which have a shorter recovery time. I'm hoping that my hair will come back soon, because I can't stand my current job, but don't feel very confident about trying to line up something else when I'm wearing a wig and have (badly) drawn-on eyebrows. I wish that worrying about insurance and medical bills wasn't such a huge part of this experience.
I am so sorry for all the sh*t you're going through now. I really hope that things get better for you soon.
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