Cancer has found me again!!! Help!!!!

wags
wags Member Posts: 6
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Hello, this is my 3rd Cancer. I had so much radation back in the 80's that it has given me breast cancer. My case is very different, I have a implant stim in my back, which means they can't do an MRI on me. The doctor told me they are not sure what they will see when they go in. They told me that the best option will be a double mas and they are not sure if they will be able to do reconstructive surgery since I have had so much surgery from my Non-Hogkins back in the 80's. I am 49 years old and I know that I must do the right thing with 4 kids and 6 grandkids that need me. I am just really confused about all of this and they want to do surgery on August 21st which I am not sure I am ready for. I am seeing my doctor again on the 2nd just to ask more question. I think I sent the reconstructive doctor looking into something they have never seen, I see him again on the 7th. The radiation oncologist told me he won't do anymore radiation. I am just trying to wrap my head around all of this and figure out the right thing.
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  • salls41
    salls41 Member Posts: 340
    #2
    So Sorry
    I am so sorry you have to go through this! This is my first and hopefully last time for me. I was dx in Nov 2011 with triple negative breast cancer. I did 6 rounds of chemo (TAC) and had a bi lateral Mastectomy. I am currently in the reconstructive phase. I can not say how I would feel in your situation, I can only offer prayers and positive thoughts to you! You are at the right place for support!
    {{{Hugs}}}
    Sandy
  • wags
    wags Member Posts: 6
    #3
    salls41 said:

    So Sorry
    I am so sorry you have to go through this! This is my first and hopefully last time for me. I was dx in Nov 2011 with triple negative breast cancer. I did 6 rounds of chemo (TAC) and had a bi lateral Mastectomy. I am currently in the reconstructive phase. I can not say how I would feel in your situation, I can only offer prayers and positive thoughts to you! You are at the right place for support!
    {{{Hugs}}}
    Sandy

    Thanks so much for the Hugs
    Thanks so much for the Hugs Sandy. My thoughts and Prayers are with you also.
  • MAJW
    MAJW Member Posts: 2,510 Member
    #4
    wags said:

    Thanks so much for the Hugs
    Thanks so much for the Hugs Sandy. My thoughts and Prayers are with you also.

    Glad....
    Glad. You found us, but hate the reason....this site is full of loving, caring women....we're all in different stages and phases...from those newly diagnosed to those like me, stage IV...I was dx in 09 with triple negative bc...I've had 3 types of recurrence..none in the breast...go figure! But I'm doing well with my current chemo....we're all different even with the same type...

    Please keep posting, ask anything, vent, whatever you need, we'll try to help...

    Hugs, Nancy
  • CypressCynthia
    CypressCynthia Member Posts: 4,014 Member
    #5
    I am so sorry that you are
    I am so sorry that you are dealing with cancer again. My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight. Please let us know how you are doing.
  • ksf56
    ksf56 Member Posts: 202
    #6
    Oh Wags!
    I'm so sorry you needed to find us but welcome to the masses of fine folks here. I can't imagine how shocked you are right now - you must be crazy with all that's happening. For me it was like being on a merry-go-round that's going to fast and you can't get off. I wish I could help more but I will offer my prayers to all those here and hopefully they will help!

    Best to you!
    Hugs!
    Karen
  • wags
    wags Member Posts: 6
    #7
    ksf56 said:

    Oh Wags!
    I'm so sorry you needed to find us but welcome to the masses of fine folks here. I can't imagine how shocked you are right now - you must be crazy with all that's happening. For me it was like being on a merry-go-round that's going to fast and you can't get off. I wish I could help more but I will offer my prayers to all those here and hopefully they will help!

    Best to you!
    Hugs!
    Karen

    Thank's everyone!!
    Thank's everyone!! It is nice to know that I am not alone. I do feel like I am on a merry-go-round also. I just want to sleep all the time and not wake up because it hits me in the face!!! I know I must do the right thing, but I am so scared!!
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #8
    wags said:

    Thank's everyone!!
    Thank's everyone!! It is nice to know that I am not alone. I do feel like I am on a merry-go-round also. I just want to sleep all the time and not wake up because it hits me in the face!!! I know I must do the right thing, but I am so scared!!

    Third cancer?
    Wow! What was your second cancer?
    So sorry you've been hit with this again. Each time has got to take a piece of you with it. I've had 2 primary cancers, breast and endometrial. There are others who have had several as well. What on earth?
    Glad you found us. This group really helped me 2 years ago when I was diagnosed. I still feel so connected and hang around to give hope - I'm a 2 year survivor and doing great.
    Please keep us along as part of your journey.
    Hugs,
    Suzanne
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #9
    Double Whammy said:

    Third cancer?
    Wow! What was your second cancer?
    So sorry you've been hit with this again. Each time has got to take a piece of you with it. I've had 2 primary cancers, breast and endometrial. There are others who have had several as well. What on earth?
    Glad you found us. This group really helped me 2 years ago when I was diagnosed. I still feel so connected and hang around to give hope - I'm a 2 year survivor and doing great.
    Please keep us along as part of your journey.
    Hugs,
    Suzanne

    Once is too much--much less 3 times
    I was first diagnosed in Dec. '09 and in Jan. '12 moved to Stage IV with bone mets. Now I have an upcoming recheck with possible biopsy after a breast MRI showed a "suspicious mass" in the same breast. I know what you're feeling. It all just stinks. Just when you think you can breathe again--BAM. We're all here for you, sweetheart. Glad you have another doctor's appointment to ask more questions. Write them down and try to bring an extra set of ears. I don't know about you, but sometimes I get so nervous, my mind doesn't function well when I'm face to face with the doctors.

    Take good care and keep us posted. We care.

    Hugs, Renee
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
    #10
    wags said:

    Thanks so much for the Hugs
    Thanks so much for the Hugs Sandy. My thoughts and Prayers are with you also.

    I am so sorry. Sending
    I am so sorry. Sending positive thoughts, prayers and lots of hugs!


    Jan
  • LoveBabyJesus
    LoveBabyJesus Member Posts: 1,679 Member
    #11
    Hi.
    Hi and welcome! So sorry this is your third time fighting the beast. Please know you've come to the best place. You'll find a lot of love and support here.

    I will keep you in my prayers. I pray you find the courage to fight this again and end up at the end of the tunnel, fully recovered.

    I know it doesn't get any easier no matter how often you've been though this. and that it gets tiring...and the fear takes over our minds. But please know and believe that you can beat this again! always keep the faith.

    XOXO
  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
    #12
    MAJW said:

    Glad....
    Glad. You found us, but hate the reason....this site is full of loving, caring women....we're all in different stages and phases...from those newly diagnosed to those like me, stage IV...I was dx in 09 with triple negative bc...I've had 3 types of recurrence..none in the breast...go figure! But I'm doing well with my current chemo....we're all different even with the same type...

    Please keep posting, ask anything, vent, whatever you need, we'll try to help...

    Hugs, Nancy

    Welcome to the site. I am
    Welcome to the site. I am very sorry you are here because of bc but we are all here to help however we can.

    I wish you good luck, am sending prayers and lots of hugs.


    Hugs, Noel
  • mollyz
    mollyz Member Posts: 756 Member
    #13
    Welcome wags!
    I'm am so sorry your having to go through this again,I see your new to the boards but not new to this disease. keep us posted on your decision and with prayer i pray peace for you and your family.hugs ~~MollyZ~~
  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
    #14
    wags said:

    Thank's everyone!!
    Thank's everyone!! It is nice to know that I am not alone. I do feel like I am on a merry-go-round also. I just want to sleep all the time and not wake up because it hits me in the face!!! I know I must do the right thing, but I am so scared!!

    You can do this! I know you
    You can do this! I know you can! We will help you however we can wags!
  • wags
    wags Member Posts: 6
    #15
    mollyz said:

    Welcome wags!
    I'm am so sorry your having to go through this again,I see your new to the boards but not new to this disease. keep us posted on your decision and with prayer i pray peace for you and your family.hugs ~~MollyZ~~

    Holding on!!
    First I want to Thank you all for your support it means a lot. I went to the doctors again yesterday and we wrote down all the things I wanted to ask. She was really great in letting me know what will happen. Since my case is so different and not being able to get an MRI and having so much Radiation, they are not sure what they will see when they go in. With having Hogkin's in the 80's and Thyroid Cancer in 08, it is hard for them to know what kind of damage the Radiation has done. So surgery is set for Aug 21st. I just need to get of this merry-go-round so I can move on!!
  • MAJW
    MAJW Member Posts: 2,510 Member
    #16
    wags said:

    Holding on!!
    First I want to Thank you all for your support it means a lot. I went to the doctors again yesterday and we wrote down all the things I wanted to ask. She was really great in letting me know what will happen. Since my case is so different and not being able to get an MRI and having so much Radiation, they are not sure what they will see when they go in. With having Hogkin's in the 80's and Thyroid Cancer in 08, it is hard for them to know what kind of damage the Radiation has done. So surgery is set for Aug 21st. I just need to get of this merry-go-round so I can move on!!

    Wags....
    Holding on, at times, is all we can do....and holding on is what we have to do.....like you've done before, you'll do what you have to do...
    I so hate this is on your plate again..but we understand....and we're here for you....physically we can't help but we can give encouragement and support...

    Hold on and keep us updated...
    Hugs, Nancy
  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
    #17
    wags said:

    Holding on!!
    First I want to Thank you all for your support it means a lot. I went to the doctors again yesterday and we wrote down all the things I wanted to ask. She was really great in letting me know what will happen. Since my case is so different and not being able to get an MRI and having so much Radiation, they are not sure what they will see when they go in. With having Hogkin's in the 80's and Thyroid Cancer in 08, it is hard for them to know what kind of damage the Radiation has done. So surgery is set for Aug 21st. I just need to get of this merry-go-round so I can move on!!

    We will have to get the pink
    We will have to get the pink bus out for you on the 21st! And, we will all be saying prayers for you too!
  • DianeBC
    DianeBC Member Posts: 3,881 Member
    #18
    mollyz said:

    Welcome wags!
    I'm am so sorry your having to go through this again,I see your new to the boards but not new to this disease. keep us posted on your decision and with prayer i pray peace for you and your family.hugs ~~MollyZ~~

    3 times is just too much and
    3 times is just too much and just not right. I am so sorry and I am sending lots of prayers to you.

    Hugs, Diane
  • debi.18
    debi.18 Member Posts: 850 Member
    #19
    DianeBC said:

    3 times is just too much and
    3 times is just too much and just not right. I am so sorry and I am sending lots of prayers to you.

    Hugs, Diane

    So sorry~
    Once is enough, 3 times is just seems unfair. As the others have said, you have found the most wonderful group here! The support is amazing! I know my walk on this journey was much easier due to the women (and a few men) here.

    Keeping you in my prayers. Keep us updated.

    Hugs, Debi
  • MsGebby
    MsGebby Member Posts: 659
    #20
    Hi Wags
    I just wanted to be here for you, too.

    I know it's so hard to wrap your brain around this but I do believe that the warrior in you will fight hard.

    It certainly is not fair! My heart aches for you. Sending you the gentlest of hugs and keeping you in my prayers.

    AND ... when the pink bus arrives, I will be the one wearing the hawaiian shirt with the pink pelicans on it, a cowgirl hat, white shorts, and cowboy boots. Cuz that's how I roll

    :)

    Mary
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    #21
    wags said:

    Holding on!!
    First I want to Thank you all for your support it means a lot. I went to the doctors again yesterday and we wrote down all the things I wanted to ask. She was really great in letting me know what will happen. Since my case is so different and not being able to get an MRI and having so much Radiation, they are not sure what they will see when they go in. With having Hogkin's in the 80's and Thyroid Cancer in 08, it is hard for them to know what kind of damage the Radiation has done. So surgery is set for Aug 21st. I just need to get of this merry-go-round so I can move on!!

    I am sorry too wags that you
    I am sorry too wags that you are going thru this again. Wishing you good luck on the 21st.

    Prayers coming too,

    Megan

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