Finally hitting me...

hopeful and optimistic said:

Dear Kurt,
My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time in your life.

Mojo
Kurt, I know you will do fine. Stay in control of your throughts and your family will get you threw this.

God bless, keep in touch.

Powerful
Kurt,

On your previous thread, your reply to my post was very powerful (http://csn.cancer.org/node/241991#comment-1252908).  I suggest you read what you wrote, then read it again and give yourself credit for the work you've obviously done before.  You have the power (& mojo)...remember to make the time to use it.   

And most importantly,  remember the breath--deep breath in, slowly exhale.  Repeat as needed during mindful meditation and guided visualization to mitigate the anxiety & fear.  Prior to undergoing previous major non elective medical procedures, my friends and family tried to reassure me that "everything would be all right."   Easy to say when you're not the patient!  

The breathing practice, in particular, & guided visualizations helped the most to calm my nerves and worries.  These practices also proved enormously beneficial for me in coping with the roller coaster of emotions on this PCa journey with my husband.  If you'd like some suggestions for audio guided visualizations and/or books on mindful meditation to help prepare for The Day, PLMK. 

BTW, re the proverbial "...forest for the trees,"  thought you'd like to know you're not the only one--I have a charter membership in the "Can't See the Forest for the Trees" club.   IMHO, acknowledging that fact is necessary before the forest is clearly visable.  Now,  if only we can keep those trees in full view (perspective) but stay focused on the forest!   It may sound corny, but with practice, I personally know it can help. 

Be well. 

mrs pjd

mrspjd said:

Powerful
Kurt,

On your previous thread, your reply to my post was very powerful (http://csn.cancer.org/node/241991#comment-1252908).  I suggest you read what you wrote, then read it again and give yourself credit for the work you've obviously done before.  You have the power (& mojo)...remember to make the time to use it.   

And most importantly,  remember the breath--deep breath in, slowly exhale.  Repeat as needed during mindful meditation and guided visualization to mitigate the anxiety & fear.  Prior to undergoing previous major non elective medical procedures, my friends and family tried to reassure me that "everything would be all right."   Easy to say when you're not the patient!  

The breathing practice, in particular, & guided visualizations helped the most to calm my nerves and worries.  These practices also proved enormously beneficial for me in coping with the roller coaster of emotions on this PCa journey with my husband.  If you'd like some suggestions for audio guided visualizations and/or books on mindful meditation to help prepare for The Day, PLMK. 

BTW, re the proverbial "...forest for the trees,"  thought you'd like to know you're not the only one--I have a charter membership in the "Can't See the Forest for the Trees" club.   IMHO, acknowledging that fact is necessary before the forest is clearly visable.  Now,  if only we can keep those trees in full view (perspective) but stay focused on the forest!   It may sound corny, but with practice, I personally know it can help. 

Be well. 

mrs pjd

Warming up may help
Kurt

I think you are experiencing depression. This is common pre and after surgery. However, once all done you can turn this page of your life book and .......all will be part of the past.

Along our lives we all experienced occasional anxiety and most of the times the cause were due to the fact of dealing with the unknown. Our minds will take us to the abysms of the worse and such triplicate still more that sour feeling.

For me “warming up” before confronting a stressful situation works well and helps me out of depression. The way I do it is by figuring out (imagining) the procedure in detail as seen along the whole period but seeing it with the eyes of someone else. It is like that I am in another person’s body and I am looking to the scene where I am the player. The feeling is that the actor is not me so that I should not be in fear.
My strategy is in fact similar to the Buddhism practiced where one learns in accepting our karma. This warming up, sort of meditation or Zen, helped me in confronting the situation you are in at my times. Try it. It may work.

Here is my story which may help you to image yourself as the actor but seen from your own eyes;

“… On the “D-Day” with an empty stomach at noon time the nurse and a doctor in charge of the pre-op preparations gave me a pill for relaxation, and then I dressed a light hospital gown and was taken on a stretcher to the surgery hall. There I was given general anaesthesia (epidural) with a shot done near the spinal cord to block any pain. I fall asleep at the entrance to the operating room. Much later, I think, I recall being awaken at one time by the doctor calling my name to which I answer (I saw three or four greyish silhouettes over me). He asked me if I was all right and I said that I felt urinating. Then I fallen asleep again and only waken up at around 22H00 at the recovery room, and saw my wife smiling at me. She had been the whole time of the operation in a wanting lounge where she was kept informed on the progression of the surgery. She told me that Dr. Komatsu shown her my prostate gland (on the way to the pathologist lab at the hospital) explaining that it looked normal in aspect shape and size. He told me later that the operation took 5 hours and that he had carefully suck/vacuum all soft tissue surrounding the organs before stitching me up.”

Wishing you a successful eventless surgery.

VGama