Jr's in hospital

Finally Jr had to give in and go to ER yesterday morning, he was there for hours before they put in the IV. Later he was taken to his room.

Tuesday they will scope him.

Thank you to everyone for your replies about the stent and to Loretta and Bill (my angels on earth) who did research for me on stents.

We have no idea what lies ahead for Jr. just pray that he will be comfortable and have peace.

We all wish he never had the stent but at the time we knew nothing about esophageal cancer and the doctors made everything sound so urgent, and of course this cancer is, but we knew we had to move fast and Jr was not even given the option of a J-tube, never heard of one, just to have a stent, so of course ,trusting the thoracic surgeon at the Chicago hospital the stent was placed.
Thinking this was going to solve his eating problems but it only caused severe pain and suffering.

My heart is broken, not just for my dear brother but for all of you suffering with this disease.
The ancient old question resurfaces, WHY SO MUCH SUFFERING??

I know this is not heaven, I know God only knows, but in times like these I still feel the need to ask WHY???

WHY?! did my son have to leave us after just turning 20???????????????????? HE was just a baby. My baby boy. I can't touch his precious hair, I can't see his sweet smile. I can't hear his voice say, "mom."
I have grieved daily for him, and now my body is physically going down as well.
I know he is in heaven, I know he is safe in the arms of Jesus, but I WANT HIM!!!!!!!!!!
I'm his mommy.

Now my brother. I watch him go bit by bit.
Suffering.
So today I ask WHY??????????????

I understand death, that we all must die, but suffer???? suffer for almost 3 years???
My brother was suffering way before he was diagnosed, thinking it was a bad case of acid reflux, then being told it was GERD.
He kept throwing up everything he ate and dranked.
Then all of this.

I love God, as you all know here, I am not ashamed to say I am a believer in Jesus Christ, and I do trust Him that He knows what He is doing but I am only flesh here and it hurts. It hurts so bad to see so many suffering, to hear another one is gone.

I know death, I felt clothed in death when my son was taken away so quickly. Death is so final here.
I have my son's shoes still sitting at my front door, I know he is not coming back but I can't bear to take his shoes away.

Forgive me, I'm just a bit emotional right now.
I am planning to see my brother today and I know the shock of seeing him so thin will be so hard for me to see. He was always so big, very broad shouldered.

One day we will know what this is really all about, until then we love and then have to see those we love go one by one.