Lot Going On.....
I have been putting off posting until I had all my ducks in a row...... I guess the row is as straight as its gonna get for now. I have had some very minor lung mets recur but that is not the issue. I went to the hospital a few weeks back with a major headache. I never get headaches so it was odd. I had just had a brain scan the month before and all was fine. BUT.....yes...there's that friggin BUTT.....not clear no more. It appears I have a small brain met in the back left on my head. Actually there is 2 but the second one is VERY tiny. SOOOOOOOOOOO....there it is.....there...I said it....god it's a scary thing to say.....MY BRAIN?????? REALLY????? Everyone knows when it goes there....you are dead....it's over....ain't the the general assumption???? I have always thought that my entire life so how do I tell ME any different now? ALL the people WE know on this board that just DON'T make it thru brain mets. You all know who I am talking about. God has blessed us with TaraHK...... I love you Tara and thank God for your brain met success and just that I have had YOU to talk to. I would not be getting thru this VERY difficult time if it wasn't for you. Thank you Thank you Thank you!
I have learned that treating brain mets is way more advanced than I had thought. Well.....heck...I tried NOT to think about any brain anything. They can actually do MORE with my brain than they can with my lungs! Since I have found all this out I do have to say I am feeling more confident that I will beat this recurrence just like I did the 4 liver mets and 20+ lung mets. As long as you guys hang with me and help me make it thru the nite....I think it will be ok.
I start on Folfox tomorrow. Anyone have any suggestions as far as that goes? I am confused on that. Folfox can break the brain/blood barrier? Anything I should do for helping with neurapothy? The herbs my TCM doc is giving me will be targeting that as well.
Next week I will be getting Cyberknife on those 2 mets and that is 1 treatment and they say no other radiation is needed. They wanted me to have 1 treatment of the Folfox before the Cyberknife. I don't know how long that will continue.
CRAIG.....our worst nightmare come true???? Go figure!!!!
Sooooo....now I got you all up to date. Recurrence #5....... It's a biggie...... BUT....it can KSS MY BUTT!!!!! Love you guys!!!
Jennie
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love your attitude
hi jennie,
i wish it were not , but now you got another fight.
i posted about david sh...... who wrote anticancer
he had brain tumour and a recurrence and lived very very well for about 20 years.
you got to read the brain that changes itself, it might give you some hope and faith that our brains can achieve lots.
in my gcmaf post manwithnoname described his childs protocol, it looked impressive to me.
he has been through a few brain tumour surgeries, maybe you could pm any questions. he is big on alternative therapies that are going to keep you alive.
really big hugs, on the day you get this news and i get good news.
hugs,
pete0 -
Thanks Pete.......pete43lost_at_sea said:love your attitude
hi jennie,
i wish it were not , but now you got another fight.
i posted about david sh...... who wrote anticancer
he had brain tumour and a recurrence and lived very very well for about 20 years.
you got to read the brain that changes itself, it might give you some hope and faith that our brains can achieve lots.
in my gcmaf post manwithnoname described his childs protocol, it looked impressive to me.
he has been through a few brain tumour surgeries, maybe you could pm any questions. he is big on alternative therapies that are going to keep you alive.
really big hugs, on the day you get this news and i get good news.
hugs,
pete
Yes. I am learning quite a bit new brain stuff! .... You expecting some good news today????? Share ...share. :-)
Jenne0 -
Bad news great attitude
As so often here it is not great news you have to share and I am sorry to hear of this latest 'but'. However, you have been through many 'buts' before and beaten more than you ever would have thought. IT is undoubtably going to trigger those negative thoughts that brain mets mean you are dead but those are so similar to what we all have at each set back-I well remember my first diagnosis of CRC having the same thoughts, yet here we all are.
Get some knowledge on this as it will help balance those thoughts. No one can say this isn't serious but alot can be done- as you say there are more treatments for brain mets than those in some areas of the body. It used to be whole brain radiation for this and cyberknife has made a huge difference to that so seems a good first step. Chemo becomes a problem as the brain has a barrier that protects itself from a lot of drugs that means it may be less effective but can still sensitive the tumour to the radiotherapy. Surgery is an option for some brain mets and an opinon on this will be critical.
Take some time though to get your 'ducks in order'- each time we take a knock back it messes up our ducks again. Just because its number five for you doesn't mean you won't feel this one in the same way. Look after all of you and allow yourself some time to get your head around this.
steve0 -
Hi Stevesteved said:Bad news great attitude
As so often here it is not great news you have to share and I am sorry to hear of this latest 'but'. However, you have been through many 'buts' before and beaten more than you ever would have thought. IT is undoubtably going to trigger those negative thoughts that brain mets mean you are dead but those are so similar to what we all have at each set back-I well remember my first diagnosis of CRC having the same thoughts, yet here we all are.
Get some knowledge on this as it will help balance those thoughts. No one can say this isn't serious but alot can be done- as you say there are more treatments for brain mets than those in some areas of the body. It used to be whole brain radiation for this and cyberknife has made a huge difference to that so seems a good first step. Chemo becomes a problem as the brain has a barrier that protects itself from a lot of drugs that means it may be less effective but can still sensitive the tumour to the radiotherapy. Surgery is an option for some brain mets and an opinon on this will be critical.
Take some time though to get your 'ducks in order'- each time we take a knock back it messes up our ducks again. Just because its number five for you doesn't mean you won't feel this one in the same way. Look after all of you and allow yourself some time to get your head around this.
steve
I have already spoke to a surgeon. Actually, I have been thru all steps needed to get me going on course. That's what I have been doing for the last month. The course is set.... I have a path to follow. I feel confident......just need YOU guys for backup! : WHERE IS CHERYL HUTCH???? I really need her to tell me....just like in the old days...NOT to be a winey baby!!!! LOL
Jennie0 -
Hugs Jennieidlehunters said:Hi Steve
I have already spoke to a surgeon. Actually, I have been thru all steps needed to get me going on course. That's what I have been doing for the last month. The course is set.... I have a path to follow. I feel confident......just need YOU guys for backup! : WHERE IS CHERYL HUTCH???? I really need her to tell me....just like in the old days...NOT to be a winey baby!!!! LOL
Jennie
Not much I can say other than I soooooo wish it wasn't so. You are one of the good guys,when is this crap disease going to leave you alone. Hugs again and I hope they cyberkfife the little sods right out of your head so they don't ever come back..Ron0 -
Hi Jen:)
"The Crazy Colon Train"
I always figured I'd get there before you did...as I've said, I'm terribly sorry for this. The 3 cases we've had here prior did not have the happy ending we all wanted.
Tara is holding the light and shining it through the darkness for all of us here, especially you at this time. I'm glad that she has been able to help and comfort you. Nobody else but her would even do for you right now.
I'm hopeful for all good things for you - you must be scared - I know you are - and I recognize the ruffling feathers and the strength you are portraying...but see, I know Jennie...pretty dam good too....and I know that underneath it all, that you are apprehensive and frightened.
Which is okay by me...I'd be worried about you if you weren't. I would be too...doesn't mean anything other than you are human and this is scary stuff.
But, the bravado is for the group....this is me you're talking to:)
Get well, Jennie...you know how I feel - about everything:)
Love/Craig0 -
eldergeotina said:Jennie:
I love you my friend. I want so much for this to just be a bad dream for you. Stay strong. Lean on your loved ones and on us.
Love and Hugs - Tina
Cheryl is not here today Jen so as an "older" ??? well seasoned??? female member of the forum hahah none of that sounds too great.....I am here to tell you to stop being a whineeeyyy baby!!!!
NOT......Jennie you amaze me. What a great wonderful attitude you. NO 5 ......that is just totally the pits there girl. I send you great love and deepest respect......
mags0 -
Actually, Jennie, I DO have a story...
It started as lung cancer, but mets to the brain....and she is STILL alive and kicking butt!!!!
It's one of my computer client's office manager...lung (primary), brain mets, breast (primary), thyroid (pending).
BUT, 3 years later...she is still around, and kicking cancer's butt!!!
BIG hugs to you, dearheart!!!
Hugs, Kathi0 -
...and the old lady chimes in.....PhillieG said:Everyone knows when it goes there....you are dead
Tell that to Lance Armstrong....
and many, many, many others....remember, my tag line after round 2 (primary breast after primary CRC)....."I was given 6 months to live 8 YEARS ago...guess I don't do what I'm told...ask my mom!!!"
BIG hugs, Kathi0 -
Jenniegeotina said:Jennie:
I love you my friend. I want so much for this to just be a bad dream for you. Stay strong. Lean on your loved ones and on us.
Love and Hugs - Tina
Crap. A whole different ballgame with new rules and stratagies to learn. And it sounds like you are well on your way to learning it all.
Thoughts, prayers, and good vibes coming your way.
Angela0 -
Hey Jennie,
I'm so sorry to
Hey Jennie,
I'm so sorry to hear that you have yet another battle on your hands. But you you've kicked cancer's butt before, so go at it swinging girl!
All my best, take care,
Cynthia0 -
And you will kick Recurrence
And you will kick Recurrence #5's butt! No Whiny baby, you. You are strong, resilient and remind me not to be a whiny baby with your actions. Yep, there's lots going on but you will prevail and be here for us. I hope the support from here will help you through this trial you must endure. Sending love, light and prayers your way. Laura0 -
Phil beat me to it!
Jennie,
I was going to tell you to think of Lance Armstrong, but Phil beat me to it:) I know you will get through this and we are all here supporting you any way we can. You are a fighter so this cancer just doesn't stand a chance! It is going down!!!!!
Sending you lots of hugs,
Sara0 -
We all know attitude isn't everything...
but your take-no-prisoners approach has GOT to make a difference! And while brain involvement is naturally terrifying (I think for me because the brain seems to be more "me" than other organs), there are people living with brain tumors successfully. My friend's husband has had brain cancer, with many recurrences, for the last seven years. He's still golfing, traveling and enjoying life, so it can be done. You can do it too! Sending tons of strength and positivity your way-Ann0 -
Feel so sorry Jennie , I'm not going to be very long on itannalexandria said:We all know attitude isn't everything...
but your take-no-prisoners approach has GOT to make a difference! And while brain involvement is naturally terrifying (I think for me because the brain seems to be more "me" than other organs), there are people living with brain tumors successfully. My friend's husband has had brain cancer, with many recurrences, for the last seven years. He's still golfing, traveling and enjoying life, so it can be done. You can do it too! Sending tons of strength and positivity your way-Ann
I don't want give you just a support sentence that may sound empty or false, Just tell you something real , be optimistic, my cousin had a brain tumor two years ago ,so ciberknife and now no activity there , dry,dead ( the tumor). So..... it's not somebothy that somebody friends know, is my cousin so it's a first hand reality , I see her at least every 2 weeks!
God bless you.0 -
With you, Jennie!
Jennie, you are so brave! I used to get a bad taste in my mouth when people would say that to me because i always thought, "hm. i'm not brave. I'm just doing what i got to do to survive, and anyone would do the same thing in my place." But that isn't necessarily true. It's our attitudes that keep us alive. For as long as we can, we believe we'll survive, and we do. Even when the pain is so unbearable we can't stand ourselves, or when we get the news that yet another hardened battle is about to begin when we just recovered from the last recurrence...We keep our spirits high, and we believe in our hearts that it won't win. Not ever!
I'll be sending super positive energy your way the whole time.
Hugs,
Krista0
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