Nervous about Scan

TMac52
TMac52 Member Posts: 352
in Colorectal Cancer #1
My scan isnt til the end of May (29th) but it is really starting to make me nervous. As the time nears I find myself thinking about it sooo often. Wondering if I'll get good or bad news. I have no reason to think I'll get bad news other than Cancer is Cancer we don't know what its gonna do. My first scan after surgey (APR) was last May and was all clear. When I read some post's here they break my heart I feel blessed to be working full time again nueropathy, Joint pain, and all. It still hurts so bad to get out of bed. I am working out and trying to get back to some sence of normal. But I also know that this could all change again and I could be in a fight for my life like so many others here.
Just wanted to vent, Thanks for listening!!!!
Love always, Tom
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  • Vickilg
    Vickilg Member Posts: 281 Member
    #2
    Good luck...
    Ah, cancer... it really is an emotional bully, isn't it. I will be thinking of you and praying for the best. When I have scans I try to keep myself very, very busy but at night, those feelings of fear hit hard. Best wishes for a great scan, my friend.

    Big hug!
  • thingy45
    thingy45 Member Posts: 632 Member
    #3
    Me too
    Hi Tom,

    I had my first scan today after my DX and resection last year. I had a few sleepness nights, BUT I try to pracgtise the power of positief thinking.
    The scan went OK as usual, after drinking 2 liters of the goo. NOW the nerve racking waite for the outcome. In 10 days I have a appointment with the onc.
    I pray for both of us and keep my fingers crossed.
    Hugs, Marjan
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #4
    Vickilg said:

    Good luck...
    Ah, cancer... it really is an emotional bully, isn't it. I will be thinking of you and praying for the best. When I have scans I try to keep myself very, very busy but at night, those feelings of fear hit hard. Best wishes for a great scan, my friend.

    Big hug!

    ahhhh Tom
    Tom i doubt there would be one person here who does not identify with everything you are saying. The fear does not go away and every scan is reason for scaniety....I know what you mean about other people here too.....so many fighting really really tough battles.

    Sending you lots of support and a hug.....the scan will come and go. I always expect the worst just as a defense trick....then when the news is good even more reason to breathe again.

    Very very best to you Tom....

    mags
  • barbebarb
    barbebarb Member Posts: 464
    #5
    thingy45 said:

    Me too
    Hi Tom,

    I had my first scan today after my DX and resection last year. I had a few sleepness nights, BUT I try to pracgtise the power of positief thinking.
    The scan went OK as usual, after drinking 2 liters of the goo. NOW the nerve racking waite for the outcome. In 10 days I have a appointment with the onc.
    I pray for both of us and keep my fingers crossed.
    Hugs, Marjan

    Positive thoughts to you
    I break down when I arrive at the hospital then try to visualize fighting cancer soldiers completed their fight. Sounds dumb but I get myself so worked up. I will be on chemo soon after surgery so I must accept scans as way of life now and part of the treatment plan.
    Like you said cancer is cancer and it is a waste of energy to do but we are all working towards normalcy against an awful disease.
    Prayers and positive thoughts for you and Marjan
  • jjaj133
    jjaj133 Member Posts: 867 Member
    #6
    Good Luck to you both, Tom &
    Good Luck to you both, Tom & Marjan.
    I just had a clear scan. Reason to celebrate right? BUT my cea went from 2 to 3.1. Still normal range. Cancer robs us of peace of mind. having had 3 battles I know longer "feel safe". So it is with good reason we all suffer from "scansiety".
    My surgeon ordered a Pet scan in July. I think he is nervous too. LOL
    Good Luck to you both,you are all in my prayers.
    Hugs, Judy
  • smokeyjoe
    smokeyjoe Member Posts: 1,425 Member
    #7
    jjaj133 said:

    Good Luck to you both, Tom &
    Good Luck to you both, Tom & Marjan.
    I just had a clear scan. Reason to celebrate right? BUT my cea went from 2 to 3.1. Still normal range. Cancer robs us of peace of mind. having had 3 battles I know longer "feel safe". So it is with good reason we all suffer from "scansiety".
    My surgeon ordered a Pet scan in July. I think he is nervous too. LOL
    Good Luck to you both,you are all in my prayers.
    Hugs, Judy

    Good vibes coming your way.
    Good vibes coming your way. How often do you scan now?
  • tommycat
    tommycat Member Posts: 790 Member
    #8
    Wish there was an answer...
    Would imagine everyone here goes through the same thing.
    Every
    Single
    Time
    But if it does help, please keep in mind that you are not alone, that there are people here who are going to be rooting for you, praying for you and holding you in the light.
    Will be looking for your follow-up post
    :)
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331 Member
    #9
    tommycat said:

    Wish there was an answer...
    Would imagine everyone here goes through the same thing.
    Every
    Single
    Time
    But if it does help, please keep in mind that you are not alone, that there are people here who are going to be rooting for you, praying for you and holding you in the light.
    Will be looking for your follow-up post
    :)

    Hi Tom .
    Just want to wish you good luck on your scan and send you a big hug!
    God bless you.
  • lesvanb
    lesvanb Member Posts: 905
    #10
    Lots of hugs Tom!
    Yes everything you say I can relate to.

    all the best, Leslie
  • steveandnat
    steveandnat Member Posts: 886
    #11
    wishing the best
    Scan time is nerve racking because you want to know but worried what the news will bring. You sound like good news will be on your side. Praying for the best. Jeff
  • LAF53
    LAF53 Member Posts: 60
    #12
    I understand
    I had a mammogram today and was a wreck, and I will continue to be a wreck until I hear the results. So strange how this stuff never bothered me before cancer.

    All the best to you.

    Lydia
  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
    #13
    I feel exactly the same way
    I had mine April 27th but some lymph nodes caught their attention so instead of another six months I get to do it again in July. I'm trying not to worry like you but I'm not doing a very good job of it. I'm with you on the neuropathy and joint pain...why joint pain...I swear I feel 80 when I get up in the morning starting at my shoulders to my hands down to my feet. But I know there is so much more suffering out there than what I have. I'll be thinking of you on the 29th and wishing you well. OK, my pity party is over :)

    Debbie
  • lauragb
    lauragb Member Posts: 370 Member
    #14
    Tom, I feel your anxiety. I
    Tom, I feel your anxiety. I am having a scan either this week or next which is giving me severe scanxiety and then I get to have the gastrographin enema to check for leaks the week after and the takedown the week after that. Right now, I'm most freaked out about the scan. I was feeling really good mentally for awhile but now that it's time for a bunch of procedures, the anxiety is back. I so understand how you feel. One of my fears when I was first diagnosed was that I would always be looking over my shoulder for cancer to come calling. Luckily I have gotten past that some of the time but have to admit I've been looking the last few days.
    Bless you and everyone on here who goes through this. I know you understand.
    Lastly goodluck and I will send prayers and keep you in the light for continued NEDness.

    Laura
  • Cathleen Mary
    Cathleen Mary Member Posts: 827 Member
    #15
    lauragb said:

    Tom, I feel your anxiety. I
    Tom, I feel your anxiety. I am having a scan either this week or next which is giving me severe scanxiety and then I get to have the gastrographin enema to check for leaks the week after and the takedown the week after that. Right now, I'm most freaked out about the scan. I was feeling really good mentally for awhile but now that it's time for a bunch of procedures, the anxiety is back. I so understand how you feel. One of my fears when I was first diagnosed was that I would always be looking over my shoulder for cancer to come calling. Luckily I have gotten past that some of the time but have to admit I've been looking the last few days.
    Bless you and everyone on here who goes through this. I know you understand.
    Lastly goodluck and I will send prayers and keep you in the light for continued NEDness.

    Laura

    It is too bad we can't all

    It is too bad we can't all be in the same waiting room supporting one another! If I use myself as a barometer for normal (which is a huge stretch!!!), your scan anxiety is perfectly normal and well shared. It is amazing what I now experience as routine but scans aren't yet in that league.

    My LFTs and CEA are slowly rising so I will have an MRI of my liver on Friday and my usual CT the 30th of May. I feel your anxiety. I keep telling myself that we are in this for the long haul and there will be bumps along the way.

    All of us are in my heart as we move forward one step at a time.

    Cathleen Mary
  • thxmiker
    thxmiker Member Posts: 1,278 Member
    #16
    Feel Blessed!`
    WTG TOM! We all want the fear of the Big C to go away! When you got your NED feel blessed and nothing less. We are rooting for your continued success.
    Best Always, mike
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #17
    Scanxiety is
    Something we all get to some degree. I think if you didn't get nervous a little I'd be more concerned.
    Hope things go well Tom.
    -phil

    I have a CT Scan tomorrow, get results the following week. It usually doesn't get to me until the night before I get results. I used to worry from the day of the scan until the results but after time I got more used to it.
  • idlehunters
    idlehunters Member Posts: 1,787 Member
    #18
    PhillieG said:

    Scanxiety is
    Something we all get to some degree. I think if you didn't get nervous a little I'd be more concerned.
    Hope things go well Tom.
    -phil

    I have a CT Scan tomorrow, get results the following week. It usually doesn't get to me until the night before I get results. I used to worry from the day of the scan until the results but after time I got more used to it.

    Hey Tom
    I know its hard not to worry but you will be fine! Sending good vibes your way!

    Jennie
  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #19
    Scan
    That fear will never go away. It seems to loom over you day after day. I'll be doing something fun and then think of my upcoming test and then that fun is ruined for many minutes but then I'm thinking about the fun thing going on or whatever. I'm a worrier by nature, I'll worry for no reason, and if there is nothing to worry about I'll find something. Hate that about myself. Even though I've given that worry to God many times, I'll always take it back. Scanxiety is a part of this disease. Praying for a great scan result.

    Kim
  • son of hal
    son of hal Member Posts: 117
    #20
    Good luck Tom... One day at
    Good luck Tom... One day at a time, is what they say.(not me) It's funny, I don't get nervous or anxious about scans but I kinda do, briefly, when I see other people (family) getting nervous. I'm going in for my takedown on May 21 and my family is way more nervous than I am. I've always believed that it does no good to worry so I've had this weird inner peace that things happen for a reason and I just accept the results and move on. I wish that for all of you with upcoming scans and tests. It is a very strange feeling to NOT worry when you see everyone around you showing such concern. I don't know where it comes from (religion, faith, or just contempt for this disease) but I wish I could bottle it and sell it...
    Take care, CJ

    Good luck to you too, Marjan and Phil,(and any others).
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238 Member
    #21
    Tom...Big hugs to you! It's
    Tom...Big hugs to you! It's gonna be fine buddy. We went through chemo together and now we're going to keep going through clear scans together! Nothing else will do :)

    Love ya, Gail

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