Your always there

AnneBehymer
AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
edited March 2012 in Ovarian Cancer #1
My pallaitive care nurse was talking to me last week about doing something to help me deal with all the changes and all the side effects of my chemo. I told her musice helps a lot and so does writing, I told her about my last poem and she is now going to use it in their welcome packages to new patients. She also said she might put it up in the office. I thought I would share it with you all, I know some will totally understand what I am talking about. I hope this reaches some hearts and let them know you are not alone in this walk we are forced to march.

You are not alone
by
Anne Behymer

I wake up and you are there
by my side

I try to go for a walk and
and you slow my walk
to a crawl

I try to have a bit to
eat, and even that
I can not do without
you

Why wont you go away
I am so tired
You hide sleep so well
I seek but can not
Find peace

Must you stay so long
Must I feel you
All day long

Cancer was not enough you
Had to tag along
You make my day and nights
A living hell

Cancer you and your friends
I can beat
But Pain you knock me
Off my feet



Love, Hugs, and Prayers
Anne

Comments

  • jbeans888
    jbeans888 Member Posts: 313
    #2
    That pretty much sums it up.
    That pretty much sums it up. good job Anne
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    #3
    jbeans888 said:

    That pretty much sums it up.
    That pretty much sums it up. good job Anne

    can you tell pain is one of
    can you tell pain is one of my biggest problems
  • azgrandma
    azgrandma Member Posts: 609 Member
    #4
    AnneBehymer said:

    can you tell pain is one of
    can you tell pain is one of my biggest problems

    I hate this diesase
    I hate this disease and wish we were all cured
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    #5
    azgrandma said:

    I hate this diesase
    I hate this disease and wish we were all cured

    so do I my mom and I were
    so do I my mom and I were talking about this today my life has changed so much because of one catscan in the ER when I went in because I was having problems breathing. Really not only my life but the life of my mom and dads, I am now not able to pay rent and they watch me like a hawk because they don't know when this diesase will take me from them.
  • karen1951
    karen1951 Member Posts: 103
    #6
    AnneBehymer said:

    so do I my mom and I were
    so do I my mom and I were talking about this today my life has changed so much because of one catscan in the ER when I went in because I was having problems breathing. Really not only my life but the life of my mom and dads, I am now not able to pay rent and they watch me like a hawk because they don't know when this diesase will take me from them.

    anne...your poem hit the
    anne...your poem hit the nail on the head.....i hope you find a way to deal with your pain....love and prayers...karen
  • lovesanimals
    lovesanimals Member Posts: 1,366 Member
    #7
    karen1951 said:

    anne...your poem hit the
    anne...your poem hit the nail on the head.....i hope you find a way to deal with your pain....love and prayers...karen

    Very powerful, Anne
    Thank you for sharing. I hope the pain gets better for you.

    Kelly
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    #8
    lovesanimals said:

    Very powerful, Anne
    Thank you for sharing. I hope the pain gets better for you.

    Kelly

    thank you all
    My pain has gotten better I just hate that I have to use such heave medication to keep it under control I can not drive until I am off it so I feel like I am stuck at home and any time I need to go some where I am a burden to my family and friends. I am praying for the day that I don't have to use morphine anymore.

    Love, Hugs, and Prayers
    Anne
  • lovesanimals
    lovesanimals Member Posts: 1,366 Member
    #9
    AnneBehymer said:

    thank you all
    My pain has gotten better I just hate that I have to use such heave medication to keep it under control I can not drive until I am off it so I feel like I am stuck at home and any time I need to go some where I am a burden to my family and friends. I am praying for the day that I don't have to use morphine anymore.

    Love, Hugs, and Prayers
    Anne

    I'm praying for you too
    And all of us will celebrate with you when you reach that day when morphine is no longer needed!

    Kelly

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