Recurrent Met to Liver

A small cancer spot has shown up on my liver. This is the second time it has happened. When my rectal stage iv cancer came back in January 2010, I had one spot on the liver that was surgically removed. This followed agressive chemo that ended in September. Now 4 months later, another spot has appeared.

They plan on doing a liver ablation next week with no chemo so that they can see if there are more spots waiting to come back. There is no sign of cancer any where else in my body. The theory is that the chemo supresses the cancer cells and the doctor wants to see if more spots show up. He wants to do the ablation to save me an additional surgery in case I need another resection.

The doctor said that this is still at a curable stage. But I have to say that I am scared, very scared. I have been fighting this since June 2009 and have been very positive the entire time but this time, even though they say its beatable, I am feeling depressed. My positive attitude is what has helped me, my family and friends get through this but I cannot even think of anything else right now. All I can think of is that I am going to dye from this.

I am sorry. I know this is depressing and everyone here is dealing with their own problems. I was just wondering if anyone has had the ablation before and what I should expect.