Missing Miss Linda

deanna14
deanna14 Member Posts: 732
in Uterine/Endometrial Cancer #1
Linda and her family have been on my mind all day... My heart aches for them and I pray that the Lord is comforting them as only he can. I remember how much she loved Christmas with her children and especially her grandchildren. In the early days... the first Christmas after dx, it was so important to her to make memories for her grandchildren, to pass on all her traditions,like making rolls...

I miss you dear friend.... You will not be forgotten!
«1

Comments

  • daisy366
    daisy366 Member Posts: 1,458 Member
    #2
    Me too!!
    Linda and her family are in my thoughts and prayers too. I remember her sharing that she packed up last year's special Christmas ornaments for her grandchildren.

    This site doesn't seem the same without her ongoing contributions ......but really she still lives here and in all that benefit from her good works.

    With fond and loving memories, Mary Ann
  • Becky444
    Becky444 Member Posts: 29 Member
    #3
    daisy366 said:

    Me too!!
    Linda and her family are in my thoughts and prayers too. I remember her sharing that she packed up last year's special Christmas ornaments for her grandchildren.

    This site doesn't seem the same without her ongoing contributions ......but really she still lives here and in all that benefit from her good works.

    With fond and loving memories, Mary Ann

    Miss Linda too!
    When I open up the discussion board for uterine cancer I see her each time & think of her family. She shared so much with us and I am so grateful to have known her. I smile when I think about how she enjoyed pumpkin pie with her grandkids before Thanksgiving dinner in the morning. Her family is in my prayers too.
  • deanna14
    deanna14 Member Posts: 732
    #4
    daisy366 said:

    Me too!!
    Linda and her family are in my thoughts and prayers too. I remember her sharing that she packed up last year's special Christmas ornaments for her grandchildren.

    This site doesn't seem the same without her ongoing contributions ......but really she still lives here and in all that benefit from her good works.

    With fond and loving memories, Mary Ann

    Thanks ladies!
    I'm so glad that I can still come here and share.
  • HellieC
    HellieC Member Posts: 524 Member
    #5
    deanna14 said:

    Thanks ladies!
    I'm so glad that I can still come here and share.

    Linda will always be missed
    Linda is often in my thoughts too. A shining beacon who showed us the way in so many things. May her family take continued comfort in knowing that she was so cherished.
    Helen
  • TiggersDoBounce
    TiggersDoBounce Member Posts: 408
    #6
    Missing Linda...
    Linda has been in my thoughts too...I remember her funny post about how she went to the grocery store for some last minute item and threw her Santa hat on her bald head and had to wear a mask to protect herself from germs...A child in a nearby shopping cart pointed at her and said to their Mother, look it's Santa...

    That really cracked her up....

    I made Cinnamon Rolls this morning and thought of her. I am sure her family has shed many tears over her loss...it is unavoidable as grief gets resolved on its own schedule. Hopefully they too will be filled with many funny memories they can share around the table today.

    Merry Christmas ladies and go make some great memories!
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #7
    TiggersDoBounce said:

    Missing Linda...
    Linda has been in my thoughts too...I remember her funny post about how she went to the grocery store for some last minute item and threw her Santa hat on her bald head and had to wear a mask to protect herself from germs...A child in a nearby shopping cart pointed at her and said to their Mother, look it's Santa...

    That really cracked her up....

    I made Cinnamon Rolls this morning and thought of her. I am sure her family has shed many tears over her loss...it is unavoidable as grief gets resolved on its own schedule. Hopefully they too will be filled with many funny memories they can share around the table today.

    Merry Christmas ladies and go make some great memories!

    Think of her often
    I would have loved to know her in person, but feel blessed to have known her as part of this group. She was indeed a positive beam of light.

    Suzanne
  • Tresia23
    Tresia23 Member Posts: 77
    #8
    daisy366 said:

    Me too!!
    Linda and her family are in my thoughts and prayers too. I remember her sharing that she packed up last year's special Christmas ornaments for her grandchildren.

    This site doesn't seem the same without her ongoing contributions ......but really she still lives here and in all that benefit from her good works.

    With fond and loving memories, Mary Ann

    'she really still lives here'
    Hi Mary Ann,

    I really love what you said about Linda. It is certainly different now without her contributions and I find myself searching some of the wonderful posts that have a similar energy to that of Linda kind of wishing to see her name. I loved her responsiveness picking up on all sorts of issues. She has created something that will last by setting a high standard. We are all beneficiaries of her incredible determination and curiosity to get the the crux of the question, with humour as well! A great spirit.

    Missing her and wishing her family kind and loving thoughts at this special time of year.

    Georgia
  • Songflower
    Songflower Member Posts: 608
    #9
    Double Whammy said:

    Think of her often
    I would have loved to know her in person, but feel blessed to have known her as part of this group. She was indeed a positive beam of light.

    Suzanne

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane
  • TiggersDoBounce
    TiggersDoBounce Member Posts: 408
    #10
    Songflower said:

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane

    Diane
    Sending you thoughts and prayers. We need you here with us :) Please don't stop posting.
    I will keep praying for you Diane, you have been such a dear sister to us all on this board.

    Since you opened the door about Linda, I feel I can share my story here as well..

    I went to an event at the end of November called "Postcards From Heaven". It is hosted by a medium named Maureen Hancock. She is the author of the book; "The Medium Next Door". She shares her gift by sharing messages from loved ones lost.

    She is well known here in New England for her work with cancer patients and so much more.

    When she came to me (as she walked through the room) she stopped in front of me and told me she "saw" a woman standing behind me. She asked if I knew who it was. Is it your Mother? I said no. Is it your Mother In Law? I said no. She seemed perplexed. She told me she had passed within the current month, had red hair and her named either began with "L" or was named Ellen, something with "L". I told her I had no idea who it was. I told her my name began with "L" but she said it is someone with the closeness of Mother, Sister, Aunt...etc. She told to me think about it and it would eventually make sense. the message was to stay strong.

    After reflecting on it, I am inclined to believe it was Linda. I didn't want to wig anyone out or cause drama (as I know everyone has their own beliefs)but now seems the time to share my experience..
  • Tresia23
    Tresia23 Member Posts: 77
    #11
    Songflower said:

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane

    Sharing your sadness
    Hi Diane,

    I am so sorry to hear your news. Your fatigue and pain sound overwhelming. Livers have a way of making us feel really down, exhausted and unable to keep going. I have experienced this myself when I was sick with hepatitis and when also caring for my husband who had liver cancer. It is really tough when you feel so weak and vulnerable

    I have only been on CSN for a year and I have often read your posts going back sometime.

    Please stay in touch, even if just occasionally. We can send loving thoughts your way and you can rest in that love even when you are tired.

    Love,
    Georgia
  • Kaleena
    Kaleena Member Posts: 2,088 Member
    #12
    Songflower said:

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane

    Sending you hugs
    Sending you hugs ((((Diane))))and thoughts and prayers. Diane, I just don't know what to say except I am thinking of you and hoping you get your strength back to the point where you can get out and do something out of the ordinary. Do something that doesn't involve the doctor's office.

    Sending you peace and happiness your way.

    Kathy
  • Cindy Bear
    Cindy Bear Member Posts: 569
    #13
    I too
    Miss Linda a lot. She was so bright, so kind and encouraging.. It's hard to believe someone I never actually met, could affect me so much. But she left her mark on me. Live large and make the most of every precious day. I can't believe she's gone 6 wks.. She will live on , in our hearts, and in our cyber world...

    Diane, My heart hurts when I read your posts. Sending big cyber hugs to you .
  • Gracegoi
    Gracegoi Member Posts: 59
    #14
    Cindy Bear said:

    I too
    Miss Linda a lot. She was so bright, so kind and encouraging.. It's hard to believe someone I never actually met, could affect me so much. But she left her mark on me. Live large and make the most of every precious day. I can't believe she's gone 6 wks.. She will live on , in our hearts, and in our cyber world...

    Diane, My heart hurts when I read your posts. Sending big cyber hugs to you .

    Diane
    I have been thinking about you for a couple of weeks worrying about you mostly and missing your funny sweet posts. I was so glad to see you were posting but after I read what you shared and right now tears are falling.

    I don't doubt one bit about Linda visiting you or Laurie. I have a feeling she can see the bigger picture . That's my afterlife hope as it is with many. Like Georgia shared I hope to continue seeing you when your able so we can send some energy your way. Just pop in you don't have to say anything.

    many hugs,

    Grace
  • HellieC
    HellieC Member Posts: 524 Member
    #15
    Songflower said:

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane

    Thank you Diane
    Thank you Diane, for sharing Linda's visit to you. Even though I never met her, I miss her posts such a lot. It is comforting to know that she is "out there" watching over us. It would be typical of Linda's approach to quietly come to those who were hurting and to try to help them find peace.
    I am so sorry that your liver tumours have grown and that you are so tired. I wish I could do or say something to ease your pain. This is a wicked disease but you are dealing with it with grace and courage. I pray that something intervenes to make it better or easier for you. Please continue to post if you can. We are all here for you, hoping that, in some small way, we can help and support.
    Kindest thoughts
    Helen
  • Becky444
    Becky444 Member Posts: 29 Member
    #16
    Gracegoi said:

    Diane
    I have been thinking about you for a couple of weeks worrying about you mostly and missing your funny sweet posts. I was so glad to see you were posting but after I read what you shared and right now tears are falling.

    I don't doubt one bit about Linda visiting you or Laurie. I have a feeling she can see the bigger picture . That's my afterlife hope as it is with many. Like Georgia shared I hope to continue seeing you when your able so we can send some energy your way. Just pop in you don't have to say anything.

    many hugs,

    Grace

    Diane
    I had been wondering about you. I don't post often but have been checking in for a couple years and have followed your posts. I am so sorry you are having such a time with the liver mets and feeling so exhausted. I will continue to pray for you and all the other gals here.
    I do hope to see you posting or just checking in on us. This site has given me a lift many times and where else can we go where you are completely understood. We will be here for you Diane. Hugs, Becky
  • Songflower
    Songflower Member Posts: 608
    #17
    Becky444 said:

    Diane
    I had been wondering about you. I don't post often but have been checking in for a couple years and have followed your posts. I am so sorry you are having such a time with the liver mets and feeling so exhausted. I will continue to pray for you and all the other gals here.
    I do hope to see you posting or just checking in on us. This site has given me a lift many times and where else can we go where you are completely understood. We will be here for you Diane. Hugs, Becky

    WOW talk about support
    Thank you for kindness and support. I didn't want anyone to think I was a kinky nut. I never experienced anything like that before. Plus, having the same illness, made it feel stranger. I havee never done any psychic "stuff" . The only thing was when my brother was lost in the boundary waters between Minnesota and Canada. Of course my family kept searching past the professionals quiting(they only go 10 days) and then they quit when someone dies at the point of exposure. I had a dream about him and he was sitting on a rock and by a stream and he told me to stop worrying because "I'm the best I've ever been." After that dream I became so peaceful. They found my brother's body six years later. It comforted my mother.

    Thank you for the support. I don't want to be a whiner. I just didn't want to drag others down.

    Love, Diane
  • daisy366
    daisy366 Member Posts: 1,458 Member
    #18
    Songflower said:

    WOW talk about support
    Thank you for kindness and support. I didn't want anyone to think I was a kinky nut. I never experienced anything like that before. Plus, having the same illness, made it feel stranger. I havee never done any psychic "stuff" . The only thing was when my brother was lost in the boundary waters between Minnesota and Canada. Of course my family kept searching past the professionals quiting(they only go 10 days) and then they quit when someone dies at the point of exposure. I had a dream about him and he was sitting on a rock and by a stream and he told me to stop worrying because "I'm the best I've ever been." After that dream I became so peaceful. They found my brother's body six years later. It comforted my mother.

    Thank you for the support. I don't want to be a whiner. I just didn't want to drag others down.

    Love, Diane

    Dear Diane!!
    You don't even come close to being a whiner!!! This forum is for ALL OF US - through THICK and THIN. Please share when you need or want to. We are here for you and I for one love you and your posts. You are one classy lady.

    I believe that Linda is our guardian angel and I'm glad you felt her presence. What an awesome gift. Laurie - great experience for you too.

    Big hugs to you, Diane. Mary Ann
  • marieinlv
    marieinlv Member Posts: 47
    #19
    Songflower said:

    Linda visited me the first night she was gone
    I was crying in my bed the first night she was gone and then suddenly I sensed Linda was in my room, I could, I believe see her. She told me she was checking on all of us before she left. I felt a sense of peace after listening to her.

    I saw my Doctor today and my liver tumors have grown. Lungs look good but I still have fluid which is OK and no cancer in lungs. I have mets to abdomen. Right kidney is enlarged. I've tried most of the drugs and there are not much options. I feel very tired and need to bump up the pain meds.

    I am not going to do liver treatments, my Doctor does not feel it is indicated if it is not metastasized; he believes treatment is needed if it is targeted.

    I'm working on not crying. It's hard for me at the Doctor's office or with friends. It's hard dear friends when you just want good news and it's not there.

    Thank you for being here for me. I don't think I will continue blogging. I am running out of strength. I want you to save you strength for yourselves. That will make me happy.
    I love you all. Diane

    Amazing connection
    Diane, I don't respond, I Do read the board. My Husband, just yesterday, asked how everyone here is doing. I told him I was worried about you. You also have helped me, we don't have to reinvent the wheel because of the work you and SOOO many have already done. Research, Trials, experience. I can't find the words to express how thank-full I am that Linda connected us all together. We will understand each other more than most folks. Thank-You for all Your strength. I'll be praying with You. God IS not done with Miracles, that is something to dwell on. Thinking of you, Marie
  • Kaleena
    Kaleena Member Posts: 2,088 Member
    #20
    Songflower said:

    WOW talk about support
    Thank you for kindness and support. I didn't want anyone to think I was a kinky nut. I never experienced anything like that before. Plus, having the same illness, made it feel stranger. I havee never done any psychic "stuff" . The only thing was when my brother was lost in the boundary waters between Minnesota and Canada. Of course my family kept searching past the professionals quiting(they only go 10 days) and then they quit when someone dies at the point of exposure. I had a dream about him and he was sitting on a rock and by a stream and he told me to stop worrying because "I'm the best I've ever been." After that dream I became so peaceful. They found my brother's body six years later. It comforted my mother.

    Thank you for the support. I don't want to be a whiner. I just didn't want to drag others down.

    Love, Diane

    By no means are you a
    By no means are you a whiner, Diane. I have to say that I too missed Linda very much and really didn't want to come back to this site. I miss reading about all of her new experiences and hearing about all the frontier treatment she was able to try, fun with her grandchildren, etc.

    But, I realize that I miss seeing and hearing everyone else here like you Diane, and all the wonderful ladies here! I have gained so much information from all of you. And like families, when one of us is down, we feel for each other, but we wouldn't have it any other way. When I first came to this sight, your photo and name (Songflower) was very comforting to me.

    Thank you, too, Diane for sharing your very personal story.

    Kathy

    P.S. (((Hugs))) to all!
  • Ro10
    Ro10 Member Posts: 1,561 Member
    #21
    Songflower said:

    WOW talk about support
    Thank you for kindness and support. I didn't want anyone to think I was a kinky nut. I never experienced anything like that before. Plus, having the same illness, made it feel stranger. I havee never done any psychic "stuff" . The only thing was when my brother was lost in the boundary waters between Minnesota and Canada. Of course my family kept searching past the professionals quiting(they only go 10 days) and then they quit when someone dies at the point of exposure. I had a dream about him and he was sitting on a rock and by a stream and he told me to stop worrying because "I'm the best I've ever been." After that dream I became so peaceful. They found my brother's body six years later. It comforted my mother.

    Thank you for the support. I don't want to be a whiner. I just didn't want to drag others down.

    Love, Diane

    Diane, so sorry you are feeling so bad
    Sorry to hear about you liver tumors growing. Sorry you are feeling so tired. I hope you begin to feel better soon. I too have enjoyed reading all your posts. You are such an inspiration for all you have been through.

    Glad you had a visit from Linda and it made you feel better. I too miss her so much, and would miss your posts also if you stopped posting. As others have said we are here for each other......through good and bad. Just sorry it is bad for you now. Sending you cyber hugs. You are certainly not a whiner and are not dragging anyone down. In peace and caring.

Discussion Boards