My beautiful wonderful mother died today December 14 of Thyroid Cancer that metastisized to the lung

teenadee
teenadee Member Posts: 86
in Emotional Support #1
In Memory of my momma who passed today trying to win a loosing battle with cancer. My mother tried her hardest to hold on. It was 10:00 am and her heartbeat slowed down to 93 and was going lower and lower but I screamed my head off 'mommy please don't die, please don't leave us' and she fought to come back. She suffered so very much my mom, I don't want to write all the details but my god this past year has been horrendous for her. She finally gave up at noon today - I got to see her last breath and hold her hand. She had tears in her eyes even though they were half closed. I love her so much, this is hurting so much, my father is falling apart. I am grateful only that she is in no longer pain and that is it. I want my mommy even though I'm in my 40's I want her back. thank you for listening.

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  • Cynthia Rose
    Cynthia Rose Member Posts: 35
    #2
    So Sorry
    I am so Sorry your Mom Passed away. I am Very close to my Mom, She is my Best Friend.I wish I could give you a hug. Remember How much she Loves you and Happy Memories.And That You Will meet again.She is at Peace now.Bless you, I will pray for you and your family that you can find Peace some how in this difficult time.
  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #3
    Very sorry
    Hi Teena,

    I'm very sorry your mother passed on. I know it's difficult but
    as you said, she is no longer in pain/suffering. I hope
    peace and comfort will find you during this difficult time.

    Big hugs and warm thoughts coming your way....

    Jim
  • Hondo
    Hondo Member Posts: 6,636 Member
    #4
    Hi Teena

    I know your pain as I too lost my Mother to Colon Cancer years ago, God bless and be with you and your family at this time in your life.

    Hondo
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    #5
    understand
    I'm in my 50's and want my mama back, too, teena.

    I am sorry for your loss.
  • 3Mana
    3Mana Member Posts: 811
    #6
    Keep memories alive!
    So sorry to hear that your mom has passed. I lost my mom in 1989 and still miss her so much.
    This is a hard time to lose someone right before christmas too . Please always remember the happy times with her and try to forget how she suffered.
    Peace be with you during the holidays! "Carole"
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86
    #7
    Cynthia Rose said:

    So Sorry
    I am so Sorry your Mom Passed away. I am Very close to my Mom, She is my Best Friend.I wish I could give you a hug. Remember How much she Loves you and Happy Memories.And That You Will meet again.She is at Peace now.Bless you, I will pray for you and your family that you can find Peace some how in this difficult time.

    thank you to everyone that responded
    I am just so devastated and trying to be strong but maybe with time. Right now I am a complete mess. May god watch over all of us. thank you again
  • jenlea26
    jenlea26 Member Posts: 1
    #8
    i hear you
    I just feel like there are no words to say but I have heard you and I do not look forward the day I will have to go through with my husband what you have gone through with your mother. my prayers are with you and your family.
  • anliperez915
    anliperez915 Member Posts: 770
    #9
    I'm really sorry that your mom passed away Teenadee, my mom passed away two years ago and when I was reading your post it was almost like how my mom passed away too. I miss my mom like crazy and it has been two years already, I think that the pain only lessens but never goes away. I still cry when I think about all the stuff we used to do together or when we used to just sit in her kitchen table drinking coffee and talking I think that's what I miss the most (just talking to her). I hope your pain lessens with time and I wish you the very best in life.

    Sincerely,
    Liz
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86
    #10
    anliperez915 said:

    I'm really sorry that your mom passed away Teenadee, my mom passed away two years ago and when I was reading your post it was almost like how my mom passed away too. I miss my mom like crazy and it has been two years already, I think that the pain only lessens but never goes away. I still cry when I think about all the stuff we used to do together or when we used to just sit in her kitchen table drinking coffee and talking I think that's what I miss the most (just talking to her). I hope your pain lessens with time and I wish you the very best in life.

    Sincerely,
    Liz

    thank you Liz
    the pain is unbearable right now but maybe after the funeral it will maybe lessen. I use to wish for her to get better and that wish never came true. I ask her to come to me in my dreams so I know she is ok - I want her to be the one to tell me that she is ok. Did your mom come to you in your dreams in these 2 years? I am sorry for your loss as well. There is nothing like a mother. I am - not even know if there's a better word for sad because it's beyond that.
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86
    #11
    jenlea26 said:

    i hear you
    I just feel like there are no words to say but I have heard you and I do not look forward the day I will have to go through with my husband what you have gone through with your mother. my prayers are with you and your family.

    thank you jenlea26
    thank you for your prayers. I wish the best for your family as well and I pray your husband beats this awful disease.
  • anliperez915
    anliperez915 Member Posts: 770
    #12
    teenadee said:

    thank you Liz
    the pain is unbearable right now but maybe after the funeral it will maybe lessen. I use to wish for her to get better and that wish never came true. I ask her to come to me in my dreams so I know she is ok - I want her to be the one to tell me that she is ok. Did your mom come to you in your dreams in these 2 years? I am sorry for your loss as well. There is nothing like a mother. I am - not even know if there's a better word for sad because it's beyond that.

    Yes Teenadee
    Hi Teenadee,
    Yes my mom does come to me in dreams, I remember the first dream I had of her she told me she was really cold and lonely and she was very sad, she wanted to know why didn't I visit her,(of course you can imagine how I felt when I woke up). And I also remember when she came to me and told me she was leaving and their was so much peace in her, that when I woke up I was sad but I was at peace as well. After that day the pain became less, I still miss her but I'm at peace that she is not suffering anymore. My mom died of the H1N1 flu virus so she was suffering so much, the last two weeks of her life she spent them asleep because the Dr. didn't want her to be suffering and in pain. Now when I dream of my mom I see her as when she was young not at the age that she died 53yrs. old (not even old) . Please take care of yourself and I'm sending you a warm hug.

    Sincerely,
    Liz
  • cosmic_me
    cosmic_me Member Posts: 35
    #13
    I am so sorry for your loss.
    I am so sorry for your loss. I swear to you I really do understand how you feel right this second. We are living identiacl emotional lifes right now and heres why... I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer on the same day as you lost your mother. My mom died at exactly 1:48 am in the morning. I'm gutted with this loss. I was her care provider and the anguish is overwhelming. Those last few hours were not pretty at all. Her labored breathing was so sad. I didn't scream outloud but inside I was screaming to God almighty to please vow to me she is not in any pain. I feel so much pain right now it's unbearable. Maybe I was meant to see your post and maybe just maybe both our moms met each other and hand in hand they crossed over. Even after dealing with all this horror for months knowing what was to come now that the end has happened I'm still in complete shock that she's gone.
  • shannonbobannon
    shannonbobannon Member Posts: 24
    #14
    Teenadee
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what your feeling right now. I'm sure there's no worse feeling in the world than losing a parent. Just remember to keep your head high because I don't think your mom would want her to see you like this. She would want you to remember the good times. Just remember that although she is gone she is still right with you in spirit. She isn't in pain anymore. Your in a lot of pain from this, but just try to keep thinking about the good times, and just keep thinking that she isn't in pain anymore. Try to keep your head up.


    Shannon

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