My precious lil' wiener dog "Tootsie"~~

GreeneyedGirl
GreeneyedGirl Member Posts: 1,077
in Breast Cancer #1
Such a sad morning for me~ we had a thread recently about our pets, and I mentioned my sweet lil' tootsie. I shared that she had been diagnosed with breast cancer just recently. The tumor was too large to remove, and it seemed to gain speed in its growth. We chose to let her live her days out here at home, comfortable and with us. This week she showed signs that things were becoming more difficult. Her usual "hefty" appetite (she was shy of 17lbs) had dropped dramatically, yet her tail still wagged repeatedly. Over the last couple days her breathing changed. This morning I went to her kennel and brought her in bed with me~we had 45 min. together and she had a sudden convulsion. I held her as she took her last breath. I'm so thankful she was with me and not alone~ I could not bear the thought of having her put to sleep~ having to make that choice seemed so difficult. I spent the last week or so, asking God to just take her here at home, peacefully. I'm so thankful He did that for me. The family surrounded her and we all said our goodbyes. I'm glad she was not alone (maybe for my sake alone).
I got toots when she was 6 weeks old, and have had her for 10 1/2 years~ she stayed faithful to my side through the deaths of both my parents, and my diagnosis (2x) and multiple surgeries, radiation etc.
Thanks for letting me share~ it is part of the healing process for me~ to express what hurts so deeply, to ones i can entrust will understand~
~Melanie
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  • sbmly53
    sbmly53 Member Posts: 1,522
    #2
    Oh, Melanie
    My heart is just broken for you. The one consolation, is that you were able to be there with her at the end.

    Great big consoling hugs,

    Sue
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    #3
    Sorry.
    Our dog is part of our family also and will be missed when it's her time. So sorry for your loss.
  • MAJW
    MAJW Member Posts: 2,510 Member
    #4
    Marcia527 said:

    Sorry.
    Our dog is part of our family also and will be missed when it's her time. So sorry for your loss.

    Melanie....
    My sweet GREENEYED girl......I am so sorry about the loss of your beloved dog....all of us who are Animal lovers and have gone through this understand how much it hurts...They truly become a big part of the family....
    Again, so very sorry that you are hurting....

    Hugs, Nancy
  • RE
    RE Member Posts: 4,591 Member
    #5
    :-(
    Oh Melanie I am so very sorry for you loss, I totally understand as my furry friends are my family and I love them sooo much! I will keep you in my prayers as I know how much this hurts. You were blessed to have each other and blessed to be together to the end.

    Warm hugs,

    RE
  • cinnamonsmile
    cinnamonsmile Member Posts: 1,187 Member
    #6
    I feel so bad for you. I
    I feel so bad for you. I have a little cocker spaniel that is my shadow...follows me everywhere except when her nose gets her in trouble. I feel your sadness with the passing of tootsie. I think our animals can really help us our, especially when going thru something traumatic. I would cry for you, too. Please let us know if you get another dog. It would be nice to hear a story about a new life in your life after you heal from tootsie's passing.
  • robang13
    robang13 Member Posts: 333
    #7
    Melanie, I know how you
    Melanie, I know how you feel. Let the process take it's time. Mine took almost 2 years! I lost my Sandi to oral cancer 2 years ago. It was a fast and furious disease with 2 surgeries and no relief. We had to put her to sleep which was horrific. So happy you didn't have to do that! I still cry when I think of her. I am now as I type this message. There is such a great loss in losing a pet and it takes a long time to get over it. My baby was 12 years young. Thought I would have for another 10. Love and hugs to you and your family~~ If you want to talk about it, pm me. I would love to share.

    Angela
  • gami43
    gami43 Member Posts: 281
    #8
    robang13 said:

    Melanie, I know how you
    Melanie, I know how you feel. Let the process take it's time. Mine took almost 2 years! I lost my Sandi to oral cancer 2 years ago. It was a fast and furious disease with 2 surgeries and no relief. We had to put her to sleep which was horrific. So happy you didn't have to do that! I still cry when I think of her. I am now as I type this message. There is such a great loss in losing a pet and it takes a long time to get over it. My baby was 12 years young. Thought I would have for another 10. Love and hugs to you and your family~~ If you want to talk about it, pm me. I would love to share.

    Angela

    Melanie - I write this with
    Melanie - I write this with tears running down my cheeks.
    I have been exactly where you are; I, too spent the last
    hour of my precious Buffy's life cuddling her in my bed.
    I'll never forget. That was 20 years ago. Six years ago I
    got another precious puppy, Molly, who is my constant
    companion. When you are ready, I hope you will find that love
    again. My heart goes out to you; so sorry for your pain.

    Luv & hugs, Teresa
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
    #9
    sbmly53 said:

    Oh, Melanie
    My heart is just broken for you. The one consolation, is that you were able to be there with her at the end.

    Great big consoling hugs,

    Sue

    Melania, I am so sorry. Our
    Melania, I am so sorry. Our furry little friends are such a huge part of our family and their loss is always devastating.

    My sympathy to you for the loss of your precious Tootsie.


    Hugs,

    Jan
  • GreeneyedGirl
    GreeneyedGirl Member Posts: 1,077
    #10
    gami43 said:

    Melanie - I write this with
    Melanie - I write this with tears running down my cheeks.
    I have been exactly where you are; I, too spent the last
    hour of my precious Buffy's life cuddling her in my bed.
    I'll never forget. That was 20 years ago. Six years ago I
    got another precious puppy, Molly, who is my constant
    companion. When you are ready, I hope you will find that love
    again. My heart goes out to you; so sorry for your pain.

    Luv & hugs, Teresa

    Thanks girls~
    I have had such a hard day, trying to work and stay focused. It is a fog of a day~ I am so touched by all your comments and care, and so appreciate your prayers for me (& family). My daughter moved home from college this summer and brought a black lab with her she rescued~he happily greets me at the door, with a ball in his mouth.
    My "shadow" as angela shared above, is no longer under my feet and following me~ it is an empty feeling indeed~ and Teresa, what a memory for you 20 years later of your buffy~ I am hopeful to eventually have another lap dog, to cuddle with again someday.
    Thanks for your love girls!
    ~Melanie
  • skipper54
    skipper54 Member Posts: 936 Member
    #11
    GreeneyedGirl said:

    Thanks girls~
    I have had such a hard day, trying to work and stay focused. It is a fog of a day~ I am so touched by all your comments and care, and so appreciate your prayers for me (& family). My daughter moved home from college this summer and brought a black lab with her she rescued~he happily greets me at the door, with a ball in his mouth.
    My "shadow" as angela shared above, is no longer under my feet and following me~ it is an empty feeling indeed~ and Teresa, what a memory for you 20 years later of your buffy~ I am hopeful to eventually have another lap dog, to cuddle with again someday.
    Thanks for your love girls!
    ~Melanie

    So sorry to hear your news
    It's always a difficult time but you're being with her made it better for both of you. I remember staying up all night with my Siamese in my lap watching and waiting. I'm shedding tears for you but was glad to hear you're considering another lap dog. We brought home 2 kittens 3 1/2 months after we lost our "old lady" and they have been the light of my life and a great morale boost through my treatments. You were blessed by Tootsie and she was blessed by you.

    {{{{{HUGS}}}}} and special prayers.
  • linpsu
    linpsu Member Posts: 747
    #12
    Sorry
    Melanie - I am so sorry to hear about your sweet little wienie dog. I had one of those as a child and just loved Max so much. Recently, we lost our dear yellow lab Bodhi to cancer. I know how very hard it is to lose such an important part of our lives. I am tearing up as I write this, and it's been over 6 months; I know it must be so hard for you right now. Hugs, Linda
  • grams2jc
    grams2jc Member Posts: 756
    #13
    What a lucky little doggie!
    She had a great life being your shadow and she made your life better too. It is so great that she got to go peacefully and you got to help her. What a happy, sad ending.

    Our pets are our family, especially after our kids move out, and there is nothing better than opening the door to find our best buddy waiting.

    I am sorry for your loss,

    Jennifer

    PS My hubby looks pretty funny sitting in his recliner with not 1 but 2 bassett hounds on his lap. He will really miss his babies when something happens to them
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294 Member
    #14
    grams2jc said:

    What a lucky little doggie!
    She had a great life being your shadow and she made your life better too. It is so great that she got to go peacefully and you got to help her. What a happy, sad ending.

    Our pets are our family, especially after our kids move out, and there is nothing better than opening the door to find our best buddy waiting.

    I am sorry for your loss,

    Jennifer

    PS My hubby looks pretty funny sitting in his recliner with not 1 but 2 bassett hounds on his lap. He will really miss his babies when something happens to them

    Melanie for for your loss
    Sending you a big hug. Very and and beautiful story, she was surrounding by love and comfort.
  • mamolady
    mamolady Member Posts: 796 Member
    #15
    Melanie,
    I am so sorry about
    Melanie,
    I am so sorry about Tootsie but I am glad you were there with her. I don't think it was just for your sake. I am sure she was glad you were there too.

    Cindy
  • laughs_a_lot
    laughs_a_lot Member Posts: 1,368 Member
    #16
    In sync
    You and Tootsie must have been in sync. She even got bc. You knew the right time to go get her. She must have appreciated that.
  • roseann4
    roseann4 Member Posts: 992 Member
    #17
    laughs_a_lot said:

    In sync
    You and Tootsie must have been in sync. She even got bc. You knew the right time to go get her. She must have appreciated that.

    Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss.
    I have a wiener dog sitting beside me. He has been through me throughout my bc treatments. Our dogs are unconditionally loving. Tootsie was blessed to have your love as you were to have her's. Hugs.

    Roseann
  • BetsyJane
    BetsyJane Member Posts: 127
    #18
    roseann4 said:

    Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss.
    I have a wiener dog sitting beside me. He has been through me throughout my bc treatments. Our dogs are unconditionally loving. Tootsie was blessed to have your love as you were to have her's. Hugs.

    Roseann

    Lost one of my beloved dogs in January
    So sorry to hear about Tootsie. I lost one of my German Shepherds dogs this past January just two days before I was to undergo my lumpectomy. Gidget was my little angel in life that never left my side. I still cry for her.
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
    #19
    I'm so sorry Melanie. Being
    I'm so sorry Melanie. Being a pet owner and lover myself -losing a beloved pet is one of the hardest things to go through. You can draw comfort though, knowing she spent the last of her time with you.
    *hugs*
    Heather
  • GreeneyedGirl
    GreeneyedGirl Member Posts: 1,077
    #20
    Heatherbelle said:

    I'm so sorry Melanie. Being
    I'm so sorry Melanie. Being a pet owner and lover myself -losing a beloved pet is one of the hardest things to go through. You can draw comfort though, knowing she spent the last of her time with you.
    *hugs*
    Heather

    I feel your (((hugz)))
    We have been talking and sharing our Tootsie stories together as a family~ Saying goodbye is so hard~tears can turn to laughter, and slowly we heal.
    ~I so appreciate hearing your comments about your pets, and your loving thoughts towards my girl~
    ~blessings, Melanie
  • DianeBC
    DianeBC Member Posts: 3,881 Member
    #21
    laughs_a_lot said:

    In sync
    You and Tootsie must have been in sync. She even got bc. You knew the right time to go get her. She must have appreciated that.

    I'm so sorry Melanie. No
    I'm so sorry Melanie. No words can take away your pain right now, but, eventually, you will be filled with good memories only I hope.

    Hugs, Diane

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