With a Heavy Heart

Faithful_Angel
Faithful_Angel Member Posts: 86
in Caregivers #1
This is the first time I've been able to come back to the site.

But On September 20th at 3:37pm they pronounced My Hero, My Dad. He gave it his all fighting this beast for 19 months. Many times we thought he wouldn't make it through the night. The ending was so brutally hard until the last twelve hours.

The stomach cancer spread to his espohagus, then his spine then everywhere...but went to his brain diagnosed about 2 months ago. I was so proud to be able to take this difficult journey with him. I hope no one has to go through what we had to.

The last twelve hours of his life was very peaceful he slept comfortably..He was essentially in a drug induced coma.. Pain meds, haldol, and ativan every hour..

I want you all to know how much I appreciate you being with me for this journey. Without you I never could have been so strong when dad needed me to be. I not only lost my dad but my best friend.

God Bless all of you. And If you need anything I will still be here. Just right now life is chaotic. Packing the house and moving back to my hometown where all my family is.
~Valerie~

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  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    #2
    prayers lifted
    Lifting prayers for you and your family, Valerie.

    Please come back and let us know how you are doing.

    Hugs.
  • Faithful_Angel
    Faithful_Angel Member Posts: 86
    #3
    Noellesmom said:

    prayers lifted
    Lifting prayers for you and your family, Valerie.

    Please come back and let us know how you are doing.

    Hugs.

    TY and I won't be a Stranger
    This board has done so much for me through this battle I can't just desert all those that may need help. You guys have been great. I love each and everyone of you
  • lovingwifedeb
    lovingwifedeb Member Posts: 183
    #4
    Faithful_Angel said:

    TY and I won't be a Stranger
    This board has done so much for me through this battle I can't just desert all those that may need help. You guys have been great. I love each and everyone of you

    So very sorry to read your update
    Please take care and know this part of your journey will be another well traveled road with others waiting to guide you. My thoughts are with you in these next few weeks of picking up your life and of your dad's... Be settled in your heart and know that his suffering is over now and he is surrounded by loving light.

    Come back before the dam breaks.

    Peace to you and your family.

    Deb
    redesign08.blogspot.com
  • grandmafay
    grandmafay Member Posts: 1,633 Member
    #5
    Sorry
    I am so sorry for your loss. I'm sure you have heard those words way too many times already, and they seem meaningless to you. I just want you to know that I am here and will hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Fay
  • KLScoville
    KLScoville Member Posts: 161 Member
    #6
    So sorry
    So sorry for your loss Valerie. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God Bless you for all you did for your "Hero". I am sure you were strong for him and the rest of your family at this hard time in your life.

    Again my condolensces to you and your family! May God have His Healing Hand on your life and may He bring peace into your heart.

    Take care and keep in touch please.
    ~Kelly
  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #7
    Sorry for your loss
    I'm truly sorry for your loss.
    Sending warm and healing thoughts your way.

    Jim
  • Barbara53
    Barbara53 Member Posts: 652
    #8
    peace ahead
    Valerie, I know you will miss your Dad terribly, but you can feel at peace with the loss knowing you did what you could to make his ending bearable. I went through it ten years ago with my dad, but I still grieved and grieved. There is lasting peace ahead, I promise.
  • Faithful_Angel
    Faithful_Angel Member Posts: 86
    #9
    Barbara53 said:

    peace ahead
    Valerie, I know you will miss your Dad terribly, but you can feel at peace with the loss knowing you did what you could to make his ending bearable. I went through it ten years ago with my dad, but I still grieved and grieved. There is lasting peace ahead, I promise.

    THANK YOU
    Thank all of you for your words of comfort and compassion.

    It is hard personally..Grief is unbearable some days. But knowing he's no longer in pain is a comfort. I will be entering some sort of grief counseling soon, after i get settled in my new home. Moving back to Ohio and my hometown where my family is next week.

    Hope this new chapter is one with good memories and happiness. Time will ease this pain i hope.

    Much love to everyone
  • palmyrafan
    palmyrafan Member Posts: 396
    #10
    I will continue
    to keep you and your family in my prayers. I am so sorry about the loss of your father and I hope that you can find the Peace, Comfort, Strength, Mercy and Love that you seek.

    Please come back and let us know how you are doing when you feel up to it.

    Blessings,
    Teresa
  • LilChemoSmoker
    LilChemoSmoker Member Posts: 185
    #11
    Peace be with you Valerie
    Valerie,

    I know that we have yet to speak directly here in these halls, though it will not stop me from letting you know that I pray for peace in your heart. I pray that you may learn to dance in the rain, knowing that your father is now in no pain.

    My condolences to you and your family.

    Michelle
  • ritawaite13
    ritawaite13 Member Posts: 236
    #12
    LilChemoSmoker said:

    Peace be with you Valerie
    Valerie,

    I know that we have yet to speak directly here in these halls, though it will not stop me from letting you know that I pray for peace in your heart. I pray that you may learn to dance in the rain, knowing that your father is now in no pain.

    My condolences to you and your family.

    Michelle

    No more pain
    Hi Valerie,
    I, too, will pray for peace for you and your family. Your dad knows how proud you are of him and his courageous fight against this horrible beast. He is finally at peace and pain free at last. I pray that memories of happier days will bring you comfort.
    Rita

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