Tomorrow is my first day of chemo. Getting REALLY nervous now...

mom2greatkids Member Posts: 528
I had my port put in this morning. Kinda sore but doing fine from that. I just keep letting my mine go places it has no business going, like "what if the chemo doesn't work...
" I guess that's normal. Just wish I could relax about things.

Thanks to all of you. This board is such a blessing.


  • kikz
    kikz Member Posts: 1,345 Member
    It's a difficult process, alright.
    We hope for the best, fear the worst and find reality somewhere in between. The old cliche of taking things one day at a time now becomes, an hour at a time or even a minute at a time. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I'm sure you'll do fine. We are tough.

  • TeaLurker
    TeaLurker Member Posts: 15
    Places in the mind
    Mom2, I just added this to my profile:

    "Sickness will surely take the mind
    Where minds don't usually go
    Come on the amazing journey
    And learn all you should know..."
    -by Pete Townshend, from The Who's TOMMY

    Sometimes, I work math problems/puzzles, because numbers keep me from thinking in words for a while -- ha!

    The actual chemo infusion wasn't hard (for me) at all, especially since it was administered via my ports (chest IV & abdomen IP) and not via my poor arms. The side-effects of fatigue and constipation were much harder than the chemo process (for me, at least). After the first time, I only wanted someone with me for the long, triple-chemo/double-doc days.

    Sorry you have to do the first one on your own. If they give you a Benadryl pre-med IV, that can help you sleep through it, if you can relax.
  • TeaLurker
    TeaLurker Member Posts: 15
    double post
  • jbeans888
    jbeans888 Member Posts: 313
    I know how you feel. I have
    I know how you feel. I have my 6th chemo tomorrow and I am so nervous. It's my last one then I get scanned. I just want everything to go okay. Don't worry about the chemo. It sounds worst then it is. I always sleep thru most of it because of the premeds. You can tell them you are nervouse and they can give you ativan. It helped me. I will think of you tomorrow. All the best.
  • Hissy_Fitz
    Hissy_Fitz Member Posts: 1,834
    If it's any consolation,
    If it's any consolation, those blasted statistics say that 85% of us will achieve full remission, following first line treatment.

    There's more, of course, but for now, just concentrate on that part.

    One step at a time, as they say. Get the surgery, get the port, get the chemo, and get well. Plenty of time to worry about next year, next year. Or, as my mother used to say, don't be borrowing tomorrow's troubles; today has trouble to spare.

  • Tethys41
    Tethys41 Member Posts: 1,382 Member
    Chemo power
    Before they started my infusions, I would look at the bag of chemo drugs and wish them all the strength they could muster against the cancer they were aimed at fighting. Yes, the drugs are toxic and harsh, but I wanted them to have the most powerful effect they could have against the cancer. I figured if I looked at the drugs as an ally, they might be able to do their work better than if I looked at them as an enemy that could negatively impact my body.
  • clamryn
    clamryn Member Posts: 508
    Pac Man
    I just imagined that the chemo going in drip by drip was a bunch of pac men going in to eat up the cancer cells. gobble gobble.

    It is definitely not as bad as you think it is. You might want to ask the doctor for an axiety pill for you to take before hand.

    I will be praying and thinking of you tomorrow. Please post when you are able.. to let us know how you did.