Today I REALLY hate cancer

Lovekitties said:

Living with and without our friends

Time becomes compressed here on the boards. Friendships are developed quickly, in part because of our mutual needs and in part because each of us has learned that life can change quickly, and we know now we and our loved ones are not immortal.

Each time we open our arms to someone new here we know the risk. We willingly take it.

We want each and every person to know that they are not alone. That regardless of the reason they are here, we will stand by them and help them all we can.

If our love and compassion for each other could conquer cancer, it would not again exist in the world.

Instead we are left with days like today, where sad news abounds. Our tears are shed for our friends and their loved ones. Our tears are shed for ourselves, as we rail against this disease and all it brings with it.

And yet we are blessed. We have been able to be a part of each of their lives when they needed someone most, as they have been for us. Our mutual needs have given us the opportunity to span the globe. We have met and been a small but important part of the lives of many.

Not so very many years ago, we each would have been left to fight alone, fearful for anyone to know of our disease. Today even if we never meet face to face, we have known the love and caring of so many.

For those of our friends who have gone before us, for those who are nearing the end and for those of us left to carry on…

I tell you each. You brought blessings to the lives of those you touched here. You will be missed but never forgotten. Your light shines because in the time of your own fight, you helped me with mine.

Love to all our friends

Buckwirth said:

Two years, one month ago
http://csn.cancer.org/node/166207

lisa42 said:

I second that
I agree- life sucks big time right now! I start the day hearing about John passing away. My 15 yr old who is in charter school classes 2 days a week and on home study the other days wouldn't get out of bed by the time I had to leave to go get blood sucked out of me at the cancer center. Today is supposed to be her big school day- she has lots to do. She was doing better, but now won't take her depression meds again unless we force it down her throat & I couldn't get her up to take them before I had to leave. Then I got bloodwork done and my white counts were too low today- lousy- so I had to stay and get a neupogen shot and I'll now have to go back in for four more days in a row to get stupid shots (all because I talked my onc into experiementing and seeing how my counts do without neulasta). I could have just had that one shot, but no I had to go and mess things up- so now I have 5 shots 5 days in a row. Had to cancel my naturopathic appt for Thursday cause of having to go in and get shots. From there I go to the smog place to get our jeep smog checked for registration. While I was waiting, I went and had lunch across the street- then had a diarrhea attack in the fast food bathroom & was in pain and was humiliated if anyone else should walk into the bathroom (fortunately they didn't). It's been a "crappy" morning!
I come home to find my daughter watching a movie instead of doing her work. I ranted at her at the top of my lungs for about 15 min, then came into the den and logged onto the computer to destress- grrr.....!
Now more news on Kerry and he won't make it through the weekend. I feel like I have so much going on in my life that I'm responsible for that I don't even have time to dwell on my cancer. I think I can't even go do some of the natural treatments that my ND has recommended because it takes most of the day and my time isn't my own- I have to homeschool a 15 yr old who's out to bomb out of life and school right now. I can't do this and definitely don't need the added stress- but what is someone to do? I do what I have to do (& it really sucks big time right now). My husband is so stressed and overworked & his boss at his law firm just had a "talk" with him last week, telling him he needs to put in even more time at work if he wants to keep his job. Isn't that great- he doesn't have time to give me any support or help with anything and he's about ready to have a nervous break down himself over the stress. Hey- I'm the one with the cancer!! Who helps me????
Ok- there's my venting and destress- sorry, everyone. I'll be okay again tomorrow.


Lisa

462lt said:

1 year
I was diagnosed a year ago and came here looking for answers and support. I am so sad that so many of the wonderful people that I have followed for the last year have not made it.My heart goes out to all the family and friends of all the wonderful people gone from this dreaded curse. God bless you all.

tootsie1 said:

*hugging everyone here*
Yeah. I can barely take all of it in. I hate it!

*hugs*
Gail

Lovekitties said:

Living with and without our friends

Time becomes compressed here on the boards. Friendships are developed quickly, in part because of our mutual needs and in part because each of us has learned that life can change quickly, and we know now we and our loved ones are not immortal.

Each time we open our arms to someone new here we know the risk. We willingly take it.

We want each and every person to know that they are not alone. That regardless of the reason they are here, we will stand by them and help them all we can.

If our love and compassion for each other could conquer cancer, it would not again exist in the world.

Instead we are left with days like today, where sad news abounds. Our tears are shed for our friends and their loved ones. Our tears are shed for ourselves, as we rail against this disease and all it brings with it.

And yet we are blessed. We have been able to be a part of each of their lives when they needed someone most, as they have been for us. Our mutual needs have given us the opportunity to span the globe. We have met and been a small but important part of the lives of many.

Not so very many years ago, we each would have been left to fight alone, fearful for anyone to know of our disease. Today even if we never meet face to face, we have known the love and caring of so many.

For those of our friends who have gone before us, for those who are nearing the end and for those of us left to carry on…

I tell you each. You brought blessings to the lives of those you touched here. You will be missed but never forgotten. Your light shines because in the time of your own fight, you helped me with mine.

Love to all our friends