As long as we're sharing our letters to cancer (I'd love to hear some more from others, I know we al
I am but a simple woman, and you are but a simple cell. I went down the straight and narrow path, and you my little simple cell took a wrong turn somewhere, turning into a bad, bad simple cell, and your wrong turn, unfortunately happened in my body.
You were always there doing your own little thing, while I did mine, I was living my life, you were just tooling around no place special to go, just hanging, maybe stopping to say hello to my other simple cells, making friends. Then you became the bad boy of my body, unfortunately I wasn't aware of this turn of events, this little fight going on between you and my good simple cells. And then you gained a hold and turned more simple cells into your bad little gang members and well, here I am now.
So the question is, what triggered you? What made you become more active? Instead of just being the bad boy in the neighborhood, you turned into the gang leader and got all your boys in the "Hood" to join you. So now I have to fight you with chemo and avastin and surgeries. My how, you have changed my life.
I hope some day that the researchers find a way to spank you while you are in your youth, which will make you change your ways. That is my hope, a simple hope from a simple woman.
Winter Marie
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azzwipe........
I call you that because you deserve even less because of all that you are. You are a destroyer of families, of homes, of faith, of plans, of hope, of dreams, but yet even though you come into our lives unannounced and always unwelcome, you will not destroy our love for each other, our bonds we hold for each other, and our instinctive survival mode to kick your a$$ into oblivion...and someday my unfriendly a$$wipe, you will be as a fart in a windstorm, gone forever with nothing but a small scent of bad taste left in our mouth and nose...I will always remember you, not as a friend but as an invader to my livelyhood, my families livelyhood, and all of my friends livelyhoods, and all of the time spent catering to your intrusions into our lives. I am taught to never hate, to never judge, and to never kill. The first two items I have already taken up with you, the third, simply give me an opportunity and you will be history. I will live in spite of you and you will never take my life. So a$$wipe, this is an open invitation to just try and slow me down, I dare you, I will kick your a$$ every time you even try to get close to me. I owe you that much and more. You have taken all from me that you are going to get, you have caused enough despair in my life, and the more I type the madder I get with you...So I will end here, for now, but remember a$$wipe, don't think for a minute that I won't be watching your sneaky a$$, because I know how you are, and sorry but your time with me is limited cause if I go/you go..think about that a$$wipe, Oh and BTW, a$$wipe was being nice to my friends in order for me not to be to vocal and embarrass myself ...I have another name for you, but I'll keep that one between you and I...remember a$$wipe, Im on constant vigil.........buzz0 -
CliftBuzzard said:azzwipe........
I call you that because you deserve even less because of all that you are. You are a destroyer of families, of homes, of faith, of plans, of hope, of dreams, but yet even though you come into our lives unannounced and always unwelcome, you will not destroy our love for each other, our bonds we hold for each other, and our instinctive survival mode to kick your a$$ into oblivion...and someday my unfriendly a$$wipe, you will be as a fart in a windstorm, gone forever with nothing but a small scent of bad taste left in our mouth and nose...I will always remember you, not as a friend but as an invader to my livelyhood, my families livelyhood, and all of my friends livelyhoods, and all of the time spent catering to your intrusions into our lives. I am taught to never hate, to never judge, and to never kill. The first two items I have already taken up with you, the third, simply give me an opportunity and you will be history. I will live in spite of you and you will never take my life. So a$$wipe, this is an open invitation to just try and slow me down, I dare you, I will kick your a$$ every time you even try to get close to me. I owe you that much and more. You have taken all from me that you are going to get, you have caused enough despair in my life, and the more I type the madder I get with you...So I will end here, for now, but remember a$$wipe, don't think for a minute that I won't be watching your sneaky a$$, because I know how you are, and sorry but your time with me is limited cause if I go/you go..think about that a$$wipe, Oh and BTW, a$$wipe was being nice to my friends in order for me not to be to vocal and embarrass myself ...I have another name for you, but I'll keep that one between you and I...remember a$$wipe, Im on constant vigil.........buzz
I Love the way you talk to it, so much meaner then I have been, I think I might share a bit of your tough attitude with my cancer, sure couldn't hurt.
Winter marie0 -
You Will NEVER Win
Cancer you think because you cause so much suffering, pain, tribulation, heartbreak and even death that you are winning but you are not. You take and take. You took my mom but she fought you back starting in 1972. She fought for 14 years before her body final wore out at 64 and then if that was not enough you took my husband of almost 42 years almost five months ago. He fought so hard for over 4 years. You did not win...because of you, my relationships with both of them grew stronger, I learned to appreciate every minute of every day and looked at each day as a beautiful gift. You caused me to be appreciative of the small things in life and not waste time on arguing, fussing, or anything negative. You gave me time to say the things that I might not have said and the time to do those things I had always wanted to do with my love. Yes I HATE you more than words can describe...I HATE all the suffering you caused my mom and my dear husband. I hate you took them too early but you did not win...you just seperated us for a little while. We will be together again and then nothing will be able to come between us. Medicine is advancing daily, our fight is growing stronger with new meds, surgeries, etc each day. Hopefully before long you will not be a threat to me or anyone else. You will be something we talk about like Polio or smallpox. I pray that I live long enough to witness that day ...Thank you for giving me such awesome friends like the ones on this discussion board, the ones I met at the hospitals (Willis Knighton in Shreveport, Blount Memorial in Maryville, TN and at Vanderbilt), the ones at Hope Lodge, and others who share the fight. I am richly blessed because of the friendship and unity and strength of others in living my life like I choose. I know you never mean to cause anything but pain but I am winning because together with other survivors, caregivers, doctors, research members we are coming for you...so be afraid very afraid. You have woken an angry lion who is out to destroy you.
In Memory of my Mom and my Love
Anna0 -
Winter..................amcp said:You Will NEVER Win
Cancer you think because you cause so much suffering, pain, tribulation, heartbreak and even death that you are winning but you are not. You take and take. You took my mom but she fought you back starting in 1972. She fought for 14 years before her body final wore out at 64 and then if that was not enough you took my husband of almost 42 years almost five months ago. He fought so hard for over 4 years. You did not win...because of you, my relationships with both of them grew stronger, I learned to appreciate every minute of every day and looked at each day as a beautiful gift. You caused me to be appreciative of the small things in life and not waste time on arguing, fussing, or anything negative. You gave me time to say the things that I might not have said and the time to do those things I had always wanted to do with my love. Yes I HATE you more than words can describe...I HATE all the suffering you caused my mom and my dear husband. I hate you took them too early but you did not win...you just seperated us for a little while. We will be together again and then nothing will be able to come between us. Medicine is advancing daily, our fight is growing stronger with new meds, surgeries, etc each day. Hopefully before long you will not be a threat to me or anyone else. You will be something we talk about like Polio or smallpox. I pray that I live long enough to witness that day ...Thank you for giving me such awesome friends like the ones on this discussion board, the ones I met at the hospitals (Willis Knighton in Shreveport, Blount Memorial in Maryville, TN and at Vanderbilt), the ones at Hope Lodge, and others who share the fight. I am richly blessed because of the friendship and unity and strength of others in living my life like I choose. I know you never mean to cause anything but pain but I am winning because together with other survivors, caregivers, doctors, research members we are coming for you...so be afraid very afraid. You have woken an angry lion who is out to destroy you.
In Memory of my Mom and my Love
Anna
Thank you so much for this post...............its what we all want to say to the creature you and buzz say it the way we all feel it...............
Thanks and love to you.......
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Annaamcp said:You Will NEVER Win
Cancer you think because you cause so much suffering, pain, tribulation, heartbreak and even death that you are winning but you are not. You take and take. You took my mom but she fought you back starting in 1972. She fought for 14 years before her body final wore out at 64 and then if that was not enough you took my husband of almost 42 years almost five months ago. He fought so hard for over 4 years. You did not win...because of you, my relationships with both of them grew stronger, I learned to appreciate every minute of every day and looked at each day as a beautiful gift. You caused me to be appreciative of the small things in life and not waste time on arguing, fussing, or anything negative. You gave me time to say the things that I might not have said and the time to do those things I had always wanted to do with my love. Yes I HATE you more than words can describe...I HATE all the suffering you caused my mom and my dear husband. I hate you took them too early but you did not win...you just seperated us for a little while. We will be together again and then nothing will be able to come between us. Medicine is advancing daily, our fight is growing stronger with new meds, surgeries, etc each day. Hopefully before long you will not be a threat to me or anyone else. You will be something we talk about like Polio or smallpox. I pray that I live long enough to witness that day ...Thank you for giving me such awesome friends like the ones on this discussion board, the ones I met at the hospitals (Willis Knighton in Shreveport, Blount Memorial in Maryville, TN and at Vanderbilt), the ones at Hope Lodge, and others who share the fight. I am richly blessed because of the friendship and unity and strength of others in living my life like I choose. I know you never mean to cause anything but pain but I am winning because together with other survivors, caregivers, doctors, research members we are coming for you...so be afraid very afraid. You have woken an angry lion who is out to destroy you.
In Memory of my Mom and my Love
Anna
Yep, cancer is a b@stard, and hopefully someday we will talk about like polio, may we all live long enough to witness that day!!!
Winter Marie0 -
that dat will comeherdizziness said:Anna
Yep, cancer is a b@stard, and hopefully someday we will talk about like polio, may we all live long enough to witness that day!!!
Winter Marie
I know that day the newspaper head line reads "cancer epadimic over, cure found" will come. As someone posted cancer loses cause it dies with its host plus it makes the mistake of reveling its self more and more. WE WILL WIN, if it takes 100 years before that happens it will be worth the lives spared. KEEP HOPE IN OUR LIVES AND KEEP THE PASSION TO CURE IN THE FUTURE GENARATIONS0 -
My Letter'S
Fist a word of thanks then a F/U letter
Dear Val (That’s what I named my monster) I just wanted to say a few words of thanks for what you have done for me. First of all thank you for teaching me how special each day is for me no matter what life throw’s at me. Thank you for teaching me how to really enjoy myself, my family, and my many friends. Thank you for showing me that I have just a breath of time to spend with everyone and how I need to be sure that I tell them how much I love them and how much they mean to me.
Thank you for changing my life for the better
Brooks
Dear Val, First of all F/U You chipped tooth a hole!! **** M/F…. If you ever come back to see me again I’ll kick your butt again and again. You take my friends away but you know what? They are never gone from my heart… you cant take my memories away. You might win a fight or two but you wont win the war we have against you. You’re going down.
F/U ****
Brooks0 -
Letter to my Cancer
Hello my little doppelgänger, Galen's black bile.
For millennia you have traveled with us, striking silently, then announcing yourself as you tore apart our organs and bones. Always a mystery, often ignored. We set about defeating your cousins, Typhus, Tuberculosis, Smallpox, Polio and more, and now you take their place at the top of the chain.
Fear though, as we are on to you and now we fight! Maybe not today, nor tomorrow, but soon you shall join your brothers and the pain you wreak will be as rare as the wracked and wasted limbs of the Polio victim.
For now, I shall do what my forebears dare not: I will cut you, burn you, and poison you!
And I shall waste no pity on your demise.0
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