What were the first words out of your mouth after getting diagnosed?

What now?
Hugs
Donna

What now?

Hugs

Donna

"OK"
First words? "Okay, I'm going to beat this." Then I emailed a bunch of people and asked for prayer support and started a list of those we knew or discovered had breast cancer and were survivors.

camul said:

I found a lump and my gp
I found a lump and my gp sent me for a mamo. It was snowing and the gal who did the mamo said I needed an ultrasound. Then I laid on the bed for like a half hour while they called a radiologist from the University Hospital in and it was snowing outside. He came in with freezing hands, did the ultrasound and said: I'm 99.9% sure. I said: sure of what? He said: this is malignant and looks like it is in your chest wall. I looked at him and said: Holy ****, this doesn't sound very good. He said: you need to call a surgeon!

But his hands were like having ice cubes on my chest and I was so cold that what he said didn't even sink in until I got to my car and called my sister!

Speechless
I had a needle biopsy one day. Second day was called to make a appt for the 3rd day. I went alone.I was keeping alot to myself but told my friends who are survivors and my sister. Went to my appt.When the doctor came in he brought another doctor(a female) in the room.He told me it was malignant.Tears started streaming.I was speechlss so the doctor kept talking about it being DCIS, non invasive and will not spread to other organs or rhe other breast.BUT I can get new cancers other places.I just let him explain and I listened,tears flowing.He asked me if I was going to be alright and I said YES.I got my composure and walked out of the office with a better feeling.I had a 45 minute drive so I had to quit crying.

On the way home I thought about chemo and radiation I would need to have but turned out it wasn't needed. When I got home I got online and read about DCIS.

I didn't have alot to say then but I sure ask questions now and speak more about it.

Needle biospy did the dx but the other 2 surgeries(2 benign and 1 malignant tumors)my surgeon was able to tell what treatment I would need to combat bc. I just take tamox.

Lynn Smith

joannstar said:

Am I the only one
who doesn't have a clear memory of what was said?? My surgeon who performed the biopsy called and said that it was early stage cancer and to come in to discuss it. I know that I told my husband immediately, but do not remember anything precise--perhaps I'm blocking it. I'm not sure I want to remember. I'd like to put as much of this journey behind me as possible.
Hugs and smiles,
JoAnn

No, JoAnn, you're not the only one!
My husband was with me when my surgeon came into the office. He just looked at us and made a real sad, frowning face. I started to cry, my husband came and held me and I remember my surgeon just saying, "I know you're not hearing anything right now--please come back tomorrow and we'll talk." He was absolutely right--for me, the curtain came down, I became deaf, blind and was unable to speak. We got in the car, drove home in complete silence, sat in the backyard and my son and daughter-in-law came over. I think the first thing I actually said was "Look how beautiful and blue the sky is!"

Wow--I have not thought about this Ayse--very interesting.

Hugs and hugs, Renee

I was in shock and
I was in shock and speechless. I couldn't believe the news. I wasn't expecting to hear, "You have cancer." I was so positive the doctor was going to say it was a false alarm. I didn't view myself as a potential cancer candidate. I was young( 44), strong, healthy, albeit a little chubby. I quickly learned cancer gives no rhyme or reason for why it strikes, it just does.

I remember crying and thinking what this would mean for me and my family. My husband was there with me and I remember the doctor explaining what my journey was going to look like, it was devastating. I was horrified when he said I'd have to be induced for menopause. It seemed so surreal and unnatural.

Come June 1st, it will be 2 years. I have come a long ways. I Survived and am Stronger than I thought I was. No looking back for me.
BL

sbmly53 said:

I was at work and had been anxiously awaiting the call
My Dr said, 'my dear, I am so sorry...' I hung up, turned to my co-workers and said 'I have breast cancer'. I remember the sound of my voice, it was a matter of fact statement, but time stood still and my mind started racing. Some of those days are a blurr and some moments are frozen in my memory like snapshots.

Strange, huh?

Sue

funny I dont remember any of
funny I dont remember any of the times, it was probably a swear!

BioAdoptMom said:

I do? Really? Don't know
I do? Really? Don't know why I said that because it's not as if the surgeon was going to say, "No, I'm just kidding!"

Nancy

The first thing I said was
Am I going to die? The surgeon said no you are not going to die.

Ticky

mine was "reaaally?" - but
mine was "reaaally?" - but was not surprised. I felt I had it before my dignosis. Then after it sank in, I thought my days were over...

Interesting...
Such a journey we have all had > that day seems so long ago!
I am a woman of many words (are'nt we all!) yet I uttered one simple one: Huh.....
not "huh?" as a question just more like "huh, imagine that" I was silent for about 5 minutes, then asked what I needed to do to get rid of it...
thanks for sharing yur stories everyone, I get to know you better all the time!

pinkapples said:

Interesting...
Such a journey we have all had > that day seems so long ago!
I am a woman of many words (are'nt we all!) yet I uttered one simple one: Huh.....
not "huh?" as a question just more like "huh, imagine that" I was silent for about 5 minutes, then asked what I needed to do to get rid of it...
thanks for sharing yur stories everyone, I get to know you better all the time!

Oh God
I was at work. I got tired of waiting for the nurse to call me, so at 9:30 in the mornng I called her. she was happy and said " I don't have any results yet, it'll be around 4:30 this afternoon". One hour later, I had just set a lady up for a pap smear and told her that the doctor and I would be right in. My cell phone started ringing and I knew without ever looking at it that it was the nurse. I'll never forget the silence on the line then she said " Dawne, this is Melissa. I am so sorry but all 30 samples are cancerous". I remember screaming " Oh God". Then I cried and cried. I remember I kept saying over and over " how am I going to tell my Mom, she's so little, how am I going to tell her. How am I going to tell my kids". The doctor that I work with called my husband and my Mom after speaking to the nurse.

It's strange, but I still cry and my heart pounds very fast when I think about that day. It's only been 4 months, but it seems like it's been a lifetime ago.