our last hours together , bob and jane aka confuzzled

on friday i went to the hospital, to be by her side around 8am.

around 3 pm her oncoligist was running late and came at 4 pm, he said his hellos and said BOB this is not about me and its not about you , its about her, her comfort.

at that time i was getting nervous and she said to me hun, while the doctors here i want to tell you something, i was REAL nervous now. hse said > hun my bodys shutting down< at that time i broke out in tears and almost fainted and lost all my thoughts of reality.

the doctor left after some talking i calmed down a bit.

well around 10 pm she was going in and out of it.

hey said her blood gasses were way off the charts and had to bi-pap her, she refused ,then we talked when she came too and i asked her what she wanted ,she said i want to spend more time with you and get married. i said well then you have to do the bi-pap so they can get you gasses right , after thinking about it she agreed.

they started and she was beating her hands on the bed i asked whats wrong and ran and got paper and a pen. she wrote "can't breath!" i got the nurse she took the bi-pap of her and she vomited.

the doctor said with her nauses they cant do the bi-pap.

i asked what else can be done and they said a ventolater , so after she thought about it she agreed to 3 days no more.

i said to the doc I'm glad there was another option and she said there wasn't. i was in shock!

i said i thought the ventilater was another option, she said no! once we take her off it she is gone .

no im real nervous .

i sad to the doc now what can we do? she said theres nothing elses we can do for her and she understood this was our final hours together.

it was around 11pm she was in and out of it, and came to for a bit.

i hugged and kissed her as much as i could and toild her i loved her.

she said she loved me too.

we were blessed that we were able to say goodbye to each other.

i held her hand all nite around 2 am she was anointed by a priest .

oil was put on her forehead and we prayed together.

around 5am the nurse old me go home and get some sleep, she knew i was there a while and cant sleep in a chair. she doesn't know you anymore shes on her journey to heaven.

so i went home so they could do what they had to.

i couldn't sleep my mother needed something from the store so i went out to get it.

as i turned the corner to pull in the store i got the call, she had passed on.

i am giving her %99 of her wishes , the only one i couldn't was to be married , which i got the paperwork for county ready and was going to bring it Monday and Thursday we were to be wed.

well Jane was the love of my life and IS in my heart and soul for eternity. thought you all would want to know the end , of Janes aka confuzzles life

may my sunshine RIP