Dear Kelly H and Liz.......Moms

Dear Kelly and Liz,

Thanks for your well wishes and thoughts about my mother....yes, I am ecstatic and want to offer some hope and optimism to you about your Moms.....The news we received yesterday was the first decent news we have heard in this 2 year journey.....The first.....Do not give up hope.....and remember, even when it seems that your mothers may be giving up, they may just be having a down day.....As much as we love our mothers, I realize that I can NEVER understand how mine is feeling, and she has every reason to be down, it's part of the process...here she is getting the best news in the past 2 years, and she says to me she feels so awful that she's not sure she wants to take Taxol anymore....even though it's working? REally!!!!!! OMG....I am learning slowly, to take this one hour at a time (i'm not always good at it)....when i heard she had a 1.5 inch tumor in her liver (I learned this January), I spent 2 months being angry and nasty, and had to take a break from the board because I couldn't be supportive of anyone.....then I read LindaProcoprio, and her posts began to bring me back from the brink of despair.....I am accepting more that Mom is very ill, and probably will never be cured, so I better damn well enjoy every moment I get with her.....and you know what else, our whole family has begun to accept it....and you can too....You will be ok......and no matter what happens our Mom's are going to be able to deal with it too....try to just "be" with them....as hard as that is sometimes, and trust me, I get it.....I think they just really need people to "be" with them.....You all will get through this, no matter what the outcome....before, our call yesterday from the doctor, she felt so bad, I thought we were near the end.....and you know what, it was ok...I am sorry for what you are going through, and your sadness...and my heart is with you....Love, Lisa