personal trainers

We have always kept our sense of humor no matter how painful the news was. So therefore we are calling our hospise team personal trainers. John my wonderful husband of 40 years has decided to stop the chemo. He was told by his doctor thursday that he suggested stopping because it was weakening him to much.

John does not give up easy and since Oct 2009 has fought the beast with every thing he had. Even thursday he asked for one more treatment and got it. John has had no appetite for weeks and was using three appitite stimulants to help him but still had no desire for food or much water. His body was telling him it is time to complete his days on earth and go on to a better place. On the way home he asked me to pull into Mcdonalds and got and ate three fourths of a double cheeseburger and a chocolate shake.

We have been preparing our family the best we could for what we hoped would come later not sooner. John and I have been getting some grief counceling. Friday we took our 13 year old grandson along so we could talk about Grandpa not being here when he came over and the sadness and happy time he has shared with his Hero Grandpa. We cried laughed and said many things we needed to say. Conner left there feeling sad but ok and sat in the back seat with his Grandpa holding his hand all the way as we drove home.

I will keep you up to date as to how John moves toward his change of address. He will be going onto see our parents and all those who have gone before us..He being a middle child I told him he managed to be in Heaven the first of the three so there fore he can have all the attention of his parents and be able to be a only child for a while.

As I have said at the beggining we will make an appointment with John's personal trainers Monday and they will be assisting him on his final step into Heaven..He has danced with cancer for almost two years now and it is time to change partners. John will be dancing his way into Heaven. He really was never much of a dancer but did say when asked what dance he would be doing and he said The Tango.

I will close this for tonight and crawl intobed beside this wonderful man who has loved me so very much for the past 40 years. I wish you all could have known him like we do you would be impressed. We have had a caring Bridge site for this Journey and if you would like to learn more about Johns journey you can look under John Skager. Thank you for all the support I will keep you informed on how things are going. Love and Gods blessing to all of you. Shirley