1st chemo tomorrow...so scared!

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  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    #22
    Dee said:

    liquid hope...I like that one
    thank you lovely ladies xx

    funny how I was having a pity party...then our 3rd biggest city in NZ - Christchurch, has just been hit with another huge earthquake...makes it seem so insignificant!

    cheers to liquid hope! and thoughts and prayers to our Christchurch families

    Dee, everyone's right
    The first one is so hard because you don't know WHAT to expect. But it will be okay. You got your water, snacks, someone with you. We're all sending you COMFORT hugs {{{{ }}}}

    Maybe plug into some soothing music or take good reading material (I tried to read but would inevitably cat nap).

    Sylvia
  • Chickadee1955
    Chickadee1955 Member Posts: 356 Member
    #23
    sea60 said:

    Dee, everyone's right
    The first one is so hard because you don't know WHAT to expect. But it will be okay. You got your water, snacks, someone with you. We're all sending you COMFORT hugs {{{{ }}}}

    Maybe plug into some soothing music or take good reading material (I tried to read but would inevitably cat nap).

    Sylvia

    Dee,
    I don't have anything
    Dee,

    I don't have anything new to add; the first is frightening and then you wonder why you were so frightened. I had a port implanted, so we just hooked me up! I sat there the first time thinking---WTH!! I am sitting here while I pay someone to put poison in me!! Can this be real?? I actually did some napping during infusions. I, too, was blessed with a great cancer center and the most compassionate of nurses. My best advise is drink, drink, drink water and don't hesitate to take anything and everything your oncologist offers to ease potential symptoms. I was always one to shy away from taking medicine of any kind, but I gladly took everything offered and never suffered one moment of nausea; had only one day of mild constipation then diarrhea. The most difficult thing I had to deal with was yucky mouth for awhile and fatigue. Nothing like the stories of chemo in days gone by. You'll do just fine!!

    Prayers for Christchurch from Northern California.

    Chickadee
  • Marsha Mulvey
    Marsha Mulvey Member Posts: 597 Member
    #24
    Chickadee1955 said:

    Dee,
    I don't have anything
    Dee,

    I don't have anything new to add; the first is frightening and then you wonder why you were so frightened. I had a port implanted, so we just hooked me up! I sat there the first time thinking---WTH!! I am sitting here while I pay someone to put poison in me!! Can this be real?? I actually did some napping during infusions. I, too, was blessed with a great cancer center and the most compassionate of nurses. My best advise is drink, drink, drink water and don't hesitate to take anything and everything your oncologist offers to ease potential symptoms. I was always one to shy away from taking medicine of any kind, but I gladly took everything offered and never suffered one moment of nausea; had only one day of mild constipation then diarrhea. The most difficult thing I had to deal with was yucky mouth for awhile and fatigue. Nothing like the stories of chemo in days gone by. You'll do just fine!!

    Prayers for Christchurch from Northern California.

    Chickadee

    chemo, earthquake
    Certainly, the fear of the unknown is something we have to deal with. You could hear horror stories about chemo or you could hear some say, "it was a walk in the park". In all probability you'll likely find yourself somewhere in between. From my experience, it's not always easy, but it is do-able, especially when you look at the big picture. Keep in mind that it is your effort to free your body from any cancer cells that may still exist in your body. Best wishes.

    Christchurch - about half an hour ago, I saw the report on Fox News. They showed pictures and video, it does look like it was a devastating quake. My thoughts and prayers are for the dead, injured, and survivors of Christchurch and their loved ones.
    Marsha
  • PinkPearl
    PinkPearl Member Posts: 280
    #25
    the unknown is scary
    I can honestly say it I was nervous the first time but so ready to really begin the chemo and get on the road to beating this thing. It is weird to be putting something in your body to heal you but can have very real side effects-but they have great meds for them so stay in touch with any questions. I had a precription for nausea, one for Dexamethosone-a steroid- and then several approved over the counter medicines for other side effects. If you get in a bind, ask on this site, and ladies a lot more knowlegle than I can help too.

    I just got back from my second chemo tonight and I am feeling fine. The side effects of my first treatment were not bad at all. Mostly fatigue --but I love naps!!!
    Best of luck and thoughts and prayers for you.

    So sorry about the terrible earthquake. Just saw a news report about it on TV--so frightening. Prayers being sent for them as well!
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    #26
    Dee said:

    liquid hope...I like that one
    thank you lovely ladies xx

    funny how I was having a pity party...then our 3rd biggest city in NZ - Christchurch, has just been hit with another huge earthquake...makes it seem so insignificant!

    cheers to liquid hope! and thoughts and prayers to our Christchurch families

    I didn't have chemo, so, I
    I didn't have chemo, so, I don't know what you are going thru, but, want to wish you good luck!


    Hugs, Kylez
  • cathg
    cathg Member Posts: 21
    #27
    Dee said:

    thank you all for your
    thank you all for your messages xx

    Ive got myself a big bottle of water and took down the clock so I cant see how slow it is going!

    Most of all...I dont want to FEEL like a cancer patient...I feel good now and am so scared of actually feeling like I have cancer!

    i know that FEELING
    Hey d...I too felt the same. I did my 4th session today..still have hair..although probably not for long:)

    I too did not want to LOOk or feel like a cancer patient. I too was so scared that I also posted about my fear and the girls here are so grt to hold your hand.

    It is not that bad. The worst part was the lead up..the unknown. But if you have had blood tests and surgery..this is similar to giving blood..well the infusion part. The needle does not stay in your arm..just a minute little tube..you cant feel. then you can walk around with your bag and wheely bag stand behind you..as you will go to the toilet alot..ha ha.

    Im not sure what type of chemo you r having..I am on herceptin ( biological) and taxol. So I go every week and I have not had vomitting ect, no nausea..just a little tired.

    They give you an antihistamine..and that really knocks me out.I take my ipod, some food, water, tea...and sleep. It is a long day the first day, so just close your eyes and rest.

    The nurses are amazing and everyone is so friendly. I was expecting the stuff you see in the movies...not a chance...movies r unrealistic.

    I was nervous,so I did cry...but hey..that is ok. And I looked very serious..did not want to smile..ha ha.

    Will be praying for you and thinking of you..one down in the road to recovery. You will be great.!!

    lots of lOVE
    cathy
  • Hippiechick58
    Hippiechick58 Member Posts: 320
    #28
    sea60 said:

    Dee, everyone's right
    The first one is so hard because you don't know WHAT to expect. But it will be okay. You got your water, snacks, someone with you. We're all sending you COMFORT hugs {{{{ }}}}

    Maybe plug into some soothing music or take good reading material (I tried to read but would inevitably cat nap).

    Sylvia

    Before my 1st chemo, I made
    Before my 1st chemo, I made myself a small fleece pillow (pink, of course) and I took it with me to the clinic. Turns out that pillow became like my "Blankie" It has gone through every single chemo (I have only one more to go!) It really helped to have something to hold when I got scared.

    I agree with all the other ladies, the 1st is the hardest. Try not to project (I know how easy that can be!) Stay in the moment and you will do fine. Remember, the nurses are there for you. They will do anything and everything to make sure you are comfortable. Oh yes, and DRINK lots of water!

    I will be praying for you. Hang in there.

    "May you be at Peace; May you be free of Suffering,"
    Dianne
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    #29
    Dee said:

    liquid hope...I like that one
    thank you lovely ladies xx

    funny how I was having a pity party...then our 3rd biggest city in NZ - Christchurch, has just been hit with another huge earthquake...makes it seem so insignificant!

    cheers to liquid hope! and thoughts and prayers to our Christchurch families

    Dee, I am wishing you good
    Dee, I am wishing you good luck with your chemo. And, sending prayers to the Christchurch families.


    Sue :)
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    #30
    Dee said:

    liquid hope...I like that one
    thank you lovely ladies xx

    funny how I was having a pity party...then our 3rd biggest city in NZ - Christchurch, has just been hit with another huge earthquake...makes it seem so insignificant!

    cheers to liquid hope! and thoughts and prayers to our Christchurch families

    Dee, I am wishing you good
    Dee, I am wishing you good luck with your chemo. And, sending prayers to the Christchurch families.


    Sue :)
  • Boppy_of_6
    Boppy_of_6 Member Posts: 1,138
    #31
    PinkPearl said:

    the unknown is scary
    I can honestly say it I was nervous the first time but so ready to really begin the chemo and get on the road to beating this thing. It is weird to be putting something in your body to heal you but can have very real side effects-but they have great meds for them so stay in touch with any questions. I had a precription for nausea, one for Dexamethosone-a steroid- and then several approved over the counter medicines for other side effects. If you get in a bind, ask on this site, and ladies a lot more knowlegle than I can help too.

    I just got back from my second chemo tonight and I am feeling fine. The side effects of my first treatment were not bad at all. Mostly fatigue --but I love naps!!!
    Best of luck and thoughts and prayers for you.

    So sorry about the terrible earthquake. Just saw a news report about it on TV--so frightening. Prayers being sent for them as well!

    It is tough
    It is tough going that first time but it is very doable. I was really anxious too, there are so many unknowns but it does get easier. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless
    (((hugs))) Janice
  • Alexis F
    Alexis F Member Posts: 3,598
    #32
    Bella Luna said:

    Preparing for Battle
    Dee... It was scary on my first day too, not going to lie. What made it easier for me was that the nurses and staff were kind. My husband came with me too and encouraged me through this process. I also met some wonderful Survivors who were in the same boat as well.

    Think of it this way... you are going into the clinic tomorrow to kick cancers butt to the curb! Good riddance to the cowardly beast. Put on your armor and FIGHT! You will get through this, you are stronger than you think!

    Once you start treatment, make sure to drink plenty of water, liquids. I ate bananas, yogurt, crackers, baked potatoes, and cottage cheese. Some other Survivors will give you some helpful hints, no doubt.

    You are on the Road to Recovery. Remember to breathe and take it one step at a time.

    Take care, God bless.
    BL

    Good luck today Dee!

    Good luck today Dee!
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    #33
    Dee, it definately gets
    Dee, it definately gets better!! By now, you may be done with your first tx and I sure hope it wasn't too bad for you. My first tx was the one that I dreaded but once it was over and I knew what to expect, it really wasn't bad going forward. Some of the side effects like loss of hair was the worst part for me. Like my sisters have said, be sure to drink plenty of liquids to flush your system. Also, know that we are here ready to answer any questions or just hold your hand as you go forge ahead. Sending (((hugs))).
  • dbhadra
    dbhadra Member Posts: 344 Member
    #34
    MyTurnNow said:

    Dee, it definately gets
    Dee, it definately gets better!! By now, you may be done with your first tx and I sure hope it wasn't too bad for you. My first tx was the one that I dreaded but once it was over and I knew what to expect, it really wasn't bad going forward. Some of the side effects like loss of hair was the worst part for me. Like my sisters have said, be sure to drink plenty of liquids to flush your system. Also, know that we are here ready to answer any questions or just hold your hand as you go forge ahead. Sending (((hugs))).

    waiting for chemo is tough....
    but for me the actual chemo has so far (7th week of Taxol) been do-able and have not experienced any major side effects yet.

    Agree with comment so far - drink water - lots - and take any anti nausea that they prescribe...BEFORE you feel nauseous. Don;t try to be a hero and tough it out! I also took some Xanax and continue to take it if I need, say, a breast MRI like today. I don;t beat myself up for any temporary help that I need to handle what's going on.

    You'll get through it! In a month or so you'll be looking back and saying"wow, look at how far I've come!"

    Laura
  • Findingout
    Findingout Member Posts: 132
    #35
    Dear Dee,
    I start the day
    Dear Dee,

    I start the day after you! So I'm sweating and jittery right with you!! A few days ago I posted "chemo jeebies" and got some awesome support that helped my anxiety a lot, in case you want to check out the responses. Felt so much better with the information I got.

    I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, throughout the day! Plesae let us know how it went, I'll be watching for you!

    Hugs,
    Lin
  • pokrydi
    pokrydi Member Posts: 99
    #36
    Findingout said:

    Dear Dee,
    I start the day
    Dear Dee,

    I start the day after you! So I'm sweating and jittery right with you!! A few days ago I posted "chemo jeebies" and got some awesome support that helped my anxiety a lot, in case you want to check out the responses. Felt so much better with the information I got.

    I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, throughout the day! Plesae let us know how it went, I'll be watching for you!

    Hugs,
    Lin

    Dee wishing you the best
    Dee wishing you the best tomorrow I go for chemo class thurs so anxious to get started so I can get my life back. Let us know how it goes will be thinking of you and wishing the very best =:)
  • Findingout
    Findingout Member Posts: 132
    #37
    Gabe N Abby Mom said:

    My onc prescribed ativan for
    My onc prescribed ativan for the night before and the morning of the first treatment. It helps with nausea too, I've used it since the first one too, so it might be worth asking about.

    My doc also prescribed steroids starting the day before the first treatment. If the same is true for you, they might be adding to your jitters. Many people have more energy and get a little hyper on them. For me, knowing that was part of the cause helped me to relax.

    Try a relaxing tea, some deep breathing/relaxation/mediation exercises. One I learned long ago is to lay down, close your eyes. Then focus on just breathing, make your inhale through your nose as long as possible. Then make your exhale through your mouth also as long as possible. Then try and picture your breathing as a circle, with no stopping point between the inhale and the exhale.

    Know that you are strong enough to do this, and that we'll be with you.

    Hugs,

    Linda

    Linda, may I ask what the
    Linda, may I ask what the steroids are for? Your posts are so informative, thanks!

    Lin (starting chemo thurs)
  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
    #38
    cathg said:

    i know that FEELING
    Hey d...I too felt the same. I did my 4th session today..still have hair..although probably not for long:)

    I too did not want to LOOk or feel like a cancer patient. I too was so scared that I also posted about my fear and the girls here are so grt to hold your hand.

    It is not that bad. The worst part was the lead up..the unknown. But if you have had blood tests and surgery..this is similar to giving blood..well the infusion part. The needle does not stay in your arm..just a minute little tube..you cant feel. then you can walk around with your bag and wheely bag stand behind you..as you will go to the toilet alot..ha ha.

    Im not sure what type of chemo you r having..I am on herceptin ( biological) and taxol. So I go every week and I have not had vomitting ect, no nausea..just a little tired.

    They give you an antihistamine..and that really knocks me out.I take my ipod, some food, water, tea...and sleep. It is a long day the first day, so just close your eyes and rest.

    The nurses are amazing and everyone is so friendly. I was expecting the stuff you see in the movies...not a chance...movies r unrealistic.

    I was nervous,so I did cry...but hey..that is ok. And I looked very serious..did not want to smile..ha ha.

    Will be praying for you and thinking of you..one down in the road to recovery. You will be great.!!

    lots of lOVE
    cathy

    Wishing you the best Dee!
    Wishing you the best Dee! Hoping today went well for you.


    Hugs, Debby

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