Live Again
Lonely empty
You try to walk away but you fall
You cannot understand what's this for
In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I have known
You see my face and then you see nothin'
Confused. you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back and then
Look at yourself and live again
Can't see me. you feel me
Want me. you'll find me
I'll be your everything
When you call
You'll need me more & more
When you fall
In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I have known
You see my face and then you see nothing
Confused you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back and then
Look at yourself and live again
How many times have you looked
At yourself and felt mistreated
How does it feel to know that
This life of yours is real
All of your life you've been led
To believe your nothin'
So look at yourself and start to live again
You see my face and then you see nothing
Confused you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back and then
Look at yourself and live again
If you don't change you'll be nothin'
So look at yourself and live again
I turn my face
You're staring back and then
So look at yourself and live again
Sevendust "Live Again" from the album Animosity
Patrick passed in the wee hours of the morning today. I left the door open most of the morning so he could go after. This song is his and was playing when his body was taken. It fits him.
I'm not sad that he's gone as his body gave out long before his spirit did. He's at work now and he's happy, so that makes me happy. I'm sure on his break he'll look in on me.
And if smiling is a crime right now, put me in jail. He's free now and we are both at peace.
Comments
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April
Dear April,
How can my heart be heavy and light at the same time light for you and Pat? Darling Girl, you both fought so valiantly, through your posts I feel as though we're friends; I've both laughed and cried along with your story.
Pat is no longer suffering, no longer in pain, and probably is having a long talk with Mike right about now. Both of them will be smiling down on us forever. My prayers have been with you these past weeks, as I know you've remembered me. May God hold you in the palm of His hand and bless you with the peace and serenity you deserve.
All my love,
Penny0 -
You saved mePennymac02 said:April
Dear April,
How can my heart be heavy and light at the same time light for you and Pat? Darling Girl, you both fought so valiantly, through your posts I feel as though we're friends; I've both laughed and cried along with your story.
Pat is no longer suffering, no longer in pain, and probably is having a long talk with Mike right about now. Both of them will be smiling down on us forever. My prayers have been with you these past weeks, as I know you've remembered me. May God hold you in the palm of His hand and bless you with the peace and serenity you deserve.
All my love,
Penny
from despair many times during my bad times - you and Patrick were both an inspiration to me. Hugs and tears from us.0 -
Dearest April
Let me first send you my most heartfelt sympathies on your loss of Patrick. I am happy to hear that you are smiling, because Pat is too. You are both happy that his pain, suffering, and cancer are gone. Jesus made us a promise. God does not break his promises. Those of you who believe in me will be forever eternal. We will see our loved ones again. Listen to the country song.."Cryin for You" by Trace Atkins, I believe. It so hits home. It says...I will see you on the "other side." Yes, you will. My dad and your Pat are both needing to keep busy. My dad was a farmer, a mechanic, a welder. I think they will get along just fine. And tonight when you look up at the stars, remember one of those bright stars is Pat looking down at you. Love and many hugs to you and your family. The next few weeks are going to be hard. May God give you the strength to carry on at this most difficult time. Please stay in touch. Keep coming to these discussion boards and chat. It will help you to help others. It does me! Talk to you soon. Give yourselves a year or more to grieve and mourn Pat's passing. My dad's 1st anniversary in Heaven will be March 9th. We are just starting to get over it. Peace....
Tina in Va0 -
Tears are rolling down my face.....ketziah35 said:I am sad for you that
I am sad for you that Patrick had to go, but happy that both of you are now at peace. It has been a hard journey for you both.
May God bless you and bring you comfort in the transition.
Hugs and luv,
Ketz
April, I have only admiration and respect for the fight that both you and Pat fought. Your love, your humor, your respect, your "groundness"......ever, ever present in every post you have made.
Yes, Pat is now at peace, you are at peace. And life does go on. At what point, only time will tell. But I know that you know, that Pat wants you to be happy.....to sing, to soar, to live your life and live your dreams and treasure the memories that the 2 of you made.
Be good to yourself...always.
Elysia0 -
Peace be with youhere4lfe said:My condolences. Thanks for
My condolences. Thanks for sharing, and accepting the heartfelt concern for you and Pat.
Take Care
April,
Yes, I can imagine Patrick at work, and checking in on a break! I pray that you will get some much needed and deserved rest soon. Thank you and Patrick for sharing your journey with us, for showing us your frank and sincere heart.
Know that I continue to pray for you, and wish peace upon you.
Lucy0 -
I Am So Very Sorry April
I have wandered in and out of these discussion boards hoping someday to find inspiration or my missing hope and bring it back into my own broken life. April, I have followed you, Penny and Lucy and others and have the utmost respect for what each of you have gone through.
Thank you for sharing your life with Pat here and allowing all of us to bear witness to your you love for him.
Peace to you.
Deb
lovingwife to Bob, stage 4 melanoma0 -
April
April, My condolences for the loss of Patrick. My heart goes out to you, but I know how you feel with respect to smiling as he is finally at peace. May your memories of Patrick comfort you and may your amazing strength and sense of humor sustain you in the time to come.
Thanks for being there for many of us with your humor and spirit; you are an inspiration.
You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. And I know Patrick will be looking in on you more than just at break time. Take care.0 -
April
I am so sorry that Patrick is gone from your life. But he will always be in your heart. You have been so courageous throughout his battle and I'm sure he loved you for it. I think he may be working right along side Paul. From your posts about Patrick it sounds like he and Paul would've gotten along really well.
You have so many friends here that have gotten so much from your wonderful sense of humor and human insight. I don't have to tell you that we will all be here for you as you go through the grieving process with the rest of us. Some days will be okay but others may be a challenge. No matter, we are here.
Take some time to rest. I'm sure you are physically and emotionally drained. As always, I am praying for you.
(((HUGS & LOVE)))
Skipper0 -
Aprilskipper85 said:April
I am so sorry that Patrick is gone from your life. But he will always be in your heart. You have been so courageous throughout his battle and I'm sure he loved you for it. I think he may be working right along side Paul. From your posts about Patrick it sounds like he and Paul would've gotten along really well.
You have so many friends here that have gotten so much from your wonderful sense of humor and human insight. I don't have to tell you that we will all be here for you as you go through the grieving process with the rest of us. Some days will be okay but others may be a challenge. No matter, we are here.
Take some time to rest. I'm sure you are physically and emotionally drained. As always, I am praying for you.
(((HUGS & LOVE)))
Skipper
i am so sorry.
michelle0 -
smile, April, smile
For this is not the end of Patrick's life, as you well know, but the beginning.
Hugs to you. You are in my prayers.0 -
April
April,
Even though we knew this was going to happen, I feel so bad to hear about Patrick. He fought for so long and I know the empty feeling you have right now. I'm glad that he no longer has to suffer from this horrible disease.
You are one of us now because your love is gone forever, but remember the good times you had with him. It's so hard to let them go, but you were so strong for him and stood by his side, so please accept my sympathy now.
Take one day at a time and please keep posting on here, so we know how you're doing. You can now relax, cause your job as caregiver is done. "Carole"0 -
solid
Just because the body is no longer here doesn't mean Pat isn't. He will make sure I am doing fine before he finally goes on. Decided to sit in the living room today, which is something I thought I wouldn't be able to do. And all I can do is sit here and smile.
Anyone who is Irish knows that things that cannot be seen or explained are alive and well. He's just fine and I will be too. I'm not sad in the least because I know he's happy now. It took him too long to find that happy spot for me to be upset over it. Just wish he could have found it with me instead of by himself.
Cha d'dhùin doras nach d'fhosgail doras0 -
Sympathy and Hugsmswijiknyc said:solid
Just because the body is no longer here doesn't mean Pat isn't. He will make sure I am doing fine before he finally goes on. Decided to sit in the living room today, which is something I thought I wouldn't be able to do. And all I can do is sit here and smile.
Anyone who is Irish knows that things that cannot be seen or explained are alive and well. He's just fine and I will be too. I'm not sad in the least because I know he's happy now. It took him too long to find that happy spot for me to be upset over it. Just wish he could have found it with me instead of by himself.
Cha d'dhùin doras nach d'fhosgail doras
I'm sorry this couldn't turn out differently, but glad you have both found some peace. I have often felt Doug's presence and know that he is still here in so many ways. It is a comfort. I am glad you are feeling that comfort, too. Fay0 -
Open doorsmswijiknyc said:solid
Just because the body is no longer here doesn't mean Pat isn't. He will make sure I am doing fine before he finally goes on. Decided to sit in the living room today, which is something I thought I wouldn't be able to do. And all I can do is sit here and smile.
Anyone who is Irish knows that things that cannot be seen or explained are alive and well. He's just fine and I will be too. I'm not sad in the least because I know he's happy now. It took him too long to find that happy spot for me to be upset over it. Just wish he could have found it with me instead of by himself.
Cha d'dhùin doras nach d'fhosgail doras
Your Gaelic made me smile...
Penny0 -
Uplifting
My deepest sympathies to you with the loss of Pat. You have been an inspiration to me and your posts were often a bright spot in the grey days, even today. I pray the days are kind to you and in the coming days you always find comfort in the memories with your Pat.0
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