What do I do?

suspencer31

My mom was diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer early last year. She had one tumor in her pancreas and four or five in her liver. She was on 5 different chemo treatments and the one that was actually shrinking her tumors started giving her an allergic reaction so they changed her to a different one after pausing for a few treatments. Through it all, the constant sickness and pain, she was so happy and upbeat. Now they found more tumors in her liver and some that grew around her stomach that she can feel through the skin. She's 64, has three kids, 12 grand kids and two dogs. She's starting to lose her hair and seems like she doesn't have almost any of the fire she once had while fighting this. What am I supposed to do? How do I know how much time I have left with her? How do I comfort her knowing the inevitable? And also…how do I comfort myself? I didn't think I'd be losing my mom in my early 30's, nor do I want to face that I will. And finding comfort in people who really can only empathize and not sympathize with this feeling is difficult, even if it is wonderful to have someone want to try. I just need support.