Needed to talk

John15_16

I'm new to CSN. My story is, I was diagnosed with DCIS breast cancer 2002. I rejected the standard of care, chemo, radiation, or HRT. I believed I was 52 years old, when the doctor suggested left breast removal in 2005, with treatment. At that time my husband and I was on our 33rd year of marriage, so I rejected breast removal for now. I think I made that decision because I was a little selfish and vain and wanted to keep my breast for now. So, after some breast changes through the years, I asked my husband in 2017 what did he think about if I want to have my left breast remove. He said it's my body and that whatever I decided he would support me. Then I asked him, what if I decide to have both breasts removed and no reconstruction, how would you feel. My husband said I marry you, your breast was a plus, but I fell in love with you and that will always be the case. When I saw the love in his eyes, I melted like butter in sunlight and cried of course. After the total breast removal, I was still rejecting the doctor standard of care, and did no chemo, radiation or HRT treatment. My compassionate and beloved husband passed 2019 from End Stage Renal disease, and other health problems. It's now the first week of October 2025, and I was told the cancer had metastasize to my lung, Stage 4. I'm well and have decided to do the same as before, reject the doctor standard of care. I was told without treatment maybe live 6 months, if I let them treat me, with letrozole and xgeva maybe 5 years. My trust always been in God and His Word. I will always trust God's grace and mercy. With the help of God's Comforter, all is well with my soul about my decision. I don't have any children, and I needed to express the words on my heart. I thank God for His love and mercy, for me, the wisdom he gives doctors' nurses, family, friends and all who face health problems. Thank you CSN.