Survivor Dispatch: “Guinea Pig 3 Over and Out (Still Sane)”

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To bear witness to institutional harm, survivor grief, and the cost of being studied without being seen, “When will they see what they’ve done to me—physically, mentally, financially? I am a human being with feelings. I’ve spent most of my life being experimented on, paying for it in pain, confusion, and silence. I got nothing in return. And when I asked the wrong question, I was told: ‘Lie down and shut up. You’re here on our invitation. We know what we’re doing.’”“The grief I carry is silent, but it’s everywhere. Seen in plain sight, but never understood. I was told I should be grateful to have made it this far. That the price was worth it—for their studies. So I lay there. Quietly. Took it like a man. And now they say: ‘Shout, Joe. They’ll find you. You little unappreciated bas****.’”“Guinea Pig 3—over and out. Still sane. Still speaking. Stop him. He talks too much. He tells secrets. He exposes the truth no one wants to hear. ‘It’s all lies in everyone else’s eyes.’”