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Nikkie14311

Hi, I’m new here but I needed to post. I have stage 4 breast cancer that metastasize to my bones, brain and spine. I have 4 kids I’m a single mom and my kids father passed from a massive heart attack 7 years ago. All I do is cry 1am till I pass out, sleep and eat!! I stay up and cry feeling low! I haven’t really grieved for my kids father or my diagnosis at all. The spinal cord injury was a tumor from the breast cancer. I can’t walk so that’s more depressing for me. I feel so stupid weak and helpless! I feel lonely like a burden to my mom her husband and my kids! I loss everything and everyone! I’m soo hurt and loss!! 2019 till now I have loss people and things! I’m hurting now just writing this! Am I alone feeling like this? I need help!!

Lifeblifen

Dam, there's always hope, hopefully u will be walking again and beating this cancer ish. Life is definitely Life'n on us all. it's good u have ppl around. Better Days will come

Nikkie14311

Thanks luv, it’s definitely lifn omg!! Thank you replying I’m so glad I found an outlet! I know I’ll be walking around again and I’ll definitely beat this cancer I’ve survived a lot!

SusanAnneSanto

Nikki I am so sorry. It must be so hard to be facing both the loss of your health and your children's father. Please allow yourself to grieve. I understand what it's like to be unable to walk. After I had 3 months of chemotherapy I couldn't walk either and was unable to get up by myself. I spent some time in a nursing home home. After some time had passed I was able to get up and to walk and am now in Assisted Living. Who is taking care of you? I hope they are doing a good job. We care about you. I am sending you strong healing thoughts.