thoughts on "radiation song" lyrics ?

jim108

I finished rad & chemo (after surgery) in early Dec of last year. Have been posting in head & neck section. I came across Sheryl Crow's song "Make it Go Away" and wonder what your thoughts are about the line I have bolded. it's confusing to me....

Sometimes I wonder, Which hurts the worse

The thought of dying, Or reliving every hurt

Was love the illness And disease the cure

Make it go away

Full lyrics are here:

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/sherylcrow/makeitgoawayradiationsong.html

song is here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlWB2kxjyF8

thanks,

Jim