Scared and devastated to lose my husband

Mary_Kat

Today, 2 years and 20 days after he was diagnosed, my husband's doctor told him there are no more treatment options. His prognosis is a few shorts months left. I don't know how to handle this. On the one hand, I want to be strong for him, give him the love and support and happiest times possible in the little bit of time we have left together. But on the other hand, I feel like my insides have been ripped out. I can't eat, I can't breathe. I don't know how to survive without him by my side. We've been friends since we were 15, started dating at 18, moved in together at 19, and married at 22.  Now we are 40, and I'm going to lose my best friend. My partner in crime. My knight in shining armor. We've been through everything together, and it kills me to see him suffering so much. Things had been looking up, we had hope last month. And now, its all been taken away. 

Mary_Kat

He’s gone

They said we had months, instead it was less than a week. My husband died on April 19th, and I've never felt so alone in my life. I have no idea how to keep living. We were a team, I can't do this without him. We should have had another 30+ years together. How can I wait that long to reunite our souls? I'm not sure why I'm even posting here, seems that nobody has read my post. Or at least has not offered any type of support or comfort. But just writing it and putting it out there, helps to let the feelings out. 

CSN_Ken

Mary_Kat said:

He’s gone

They said we had months, instead it was less than a week. My husband died on April 19th, and I've never felt so alone in my life. I have no idea how to keep living. We were a team, I can't do this without him. We should have had another 30+ years together. How can I wait that long to reunite our souls? I'm not sure why I'm even posting here, seems that nobody has read my post. Or at least has not offered any type of support or comfort. But just writing it and putting it out there, helps to let the feelings out. 

Hi Mary_Kat,

Hi Mary_Kat,

My name is Ken and I am a member of the CSN Support Team. First, I would like to express my heartfelt condolelences on the loss of yorr husband.  If you are interested in seeking some emotional support we have a variety of resources that may be available to you. Most importantly, we want you to know that you are not alone. 

The American Cancer Society is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week to find the assistance you need. I hope you will reach out to us soon. You can call our toll-free number, 1.800.227.2345, where Cancer Information Specialists are available around the clock every day of the week to speak with you. You can also utilize the Live Chat feature Monday through Friday between 7am-6:30pm CST on www.cancer.org.

We wish you the best during this tough time,

Ken
CSN Support Team

 

Bill91101

Mary_Kat said:

He’s gone

They said we had months, instead it was less than a week. My husband died on April 19th, and I've never felt so alone in my life. I have no idea how to keep living. We were a team, I can't do this without him. We should have had another 30+ years together. How can I wait that long to reunite our souls? I'm not sure why I'm even posting here, seems that nobody has read my post. Or at least has not offered any type of support or comfort. But just writing it and putting it out there, helps to let the feelings out. 

Hi MaryKat,
Hi MaryKat,
So very, very sorry to hear! I read your post and hoped that you and your husband would have more time together.
Sending positive thoughts that I hope will somehow help you through this.
Bill

br_bernardo

Mary_Kat said:

He’s gone

They said we had months, instead it was less than a week. My husband died on April 19th, and I've never felt so alone in my life. I have no idea how to keep living. We were a team, I can't do this without him. We should have had another 30+ years together. How can I wait that long to reunite our souls? I'm not sure why I'm even posting here, seems that nobody has read my post. Or at least has not offered any type of support or comfort. But just writing it and putting it out there, helps to let the feelings out. 

Dear Mary_Kat, thank you so

Dear Mary_Kat, thank you so much for sharing with us. Sounds like you and your beloved husband had a beautiful relationship, and I am so sorry that life took this turn.

I hope that you find a bit of comfort in the memory of the beautiful life you shared and knowing that you being there for him made all the difference in the world.

I hope you can find strength to live on as he would want you to do so, he would want you to do your very best to be as happy as possible, although of course it will never be the same.

Please know that I will pray for his eternal rest and I also pray for you.

Thank you again for sharing with us. You are not alone.

taylormas

OMG I really hope everything

OMG I really hope everything will be ok! Take care and be strong