I'm Scared, Angry and Alone.

Babydolly

I'm 30 years old I found out five days before my 30 birthday I have stage 3 uterus cancer and a full hysterectomy. I don't have no kids and I guess ill never be able to have any unless I adopt which is fine. But at the same time my sisters have children one of them is pregnant with her second child and I can't help but feel good jealous about the situation and I'm angry but I'm not sure to be angry at like I've been through so much already it's just frustrating and then I don't have support from my family I'm all alone in this situation it's scary really scary I'm going through chemo right now I do my third-round of chemo next week I miss my hair the hardest part was losing my hair. I'm so young i i know this wrong to feel or say but nothing every goes wrong for my sister they both have kids and a house and cars everything has been handed to them but me I been on my own since I was 18 everything I every had I worked hard for since I've been sick I've lost everything my job my apartment a car. Now I'm staying out of hotels and doinh what I have to make money to live.  I just feel like I can't get a freaking break just tired of feeling like depressed and angry I'm finally trying to fight this I'm a fighter I've always having I'm not going to let this keep me down or take my smile away but I just don't want to be so angry anymore and scared.