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NormanLovesAileen
NormanLovesAileen CSN Member Posts: 8
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Hello,

I am sitting right now at the hospital, watching my wife, my Love, my Light fade into 

darkness.

She was diagnosed over a year ago with a particularly nasty case of AML.

In the end, a nasty case of GVHD did her in.

I am surrounded by friends and family and yet, I feel alone.

I wish I could lay down with her so she might take me with her when she goes.

I apologize, I am not making sense, it’s just so painful.

I am so heartbroken! I am so angry!

THIS IS NOT FAIR!!!!

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  • TheTerry
    TheTerry CSN Member Posts: 27
    edited November 2017 #2
    I'm so sorry

    I'm so sorry, Norman. This is heartbreaking and not fair. You're right. There's nothing I can say to make it better. All I can do is say that I feel for you. I was heartbroken 25 years ago when my mother died and I'm going to be crushed when my sister dies within months. I hope you have a close friend you can lean on, and that you do lean on him or her. You'll get through this, but that's not a particularly helpful thing to say right now. I'm sorry...

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  • NormanLovesAileen
    NormanLovesAileen CSN Member Posts: 8
    #3
    Thank you The Terry

    Thank you for your kind words.

    Still her, fibrillation happenings more often now...

    If anyone reads this, please send Love.

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  • TheTerry
    TheTerry CSN Member Posts: 27
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    Sending love

    Sending love to you both.

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  • NoTimeForCancer
    NoTimeForCancer CSN Member Posts: 3,632 Member
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    NormanLovesAileen said:

    Thank you The Terry

    Thank you for your kind words.

    Still her, fibrillation happenings more often now...

    If anyone reads this, please send Love.

    Sending LOVE

    Sending LOVE

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