Sorry I haven't been checking in much

I'm sorry I haven't been checking in much.  December 28,2016 my 30 year old daughter passed away from a brain aneurysm.  She had a headache for 2 weeks, had an appointment with a neurologist Dec 30.  She got up for work Dec 28. Her father and I thought we heard the shower running too long...we went up and she was laying in the tub. Ambulance her to the hospital but I believe she had already passed.  She worked as an MA (actually in the internal medicine office so go to to). one of the doctors called me, after reading all the scans, said even if she went the first day to the neurologist the same result would have occurred.  

My thyroid gave out already and they put me on synthroid last week. I also have to have a scope done as the pet scan did show damage to my esophagus.  Seeing the GI doctor on Tuesday, guess he'll set up the scope shortly after.  Good news is both the ENT and radiation oncologist put me on 6 months already! 



  • CivilMatt
    CivilMatt Member Posts: 4,698 Member


    Very sorry to hear about your daughter, that is devastating news.

    My thyroid went slowly south until I had to go on meds, so you are not alone.  I am glad your ENT and rad onc feel you are healing well (not counting damage).

    I wish you many NED’s to come.


  • PACE
    PACE Member Posts: 22
    Checking In


    I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your daughter. I very much want to offer words of comfort but I am at a loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. 

    If you are up to it, please let us know what the GI doctor has to say. 

  • armana
    armana Member Posts: 97 Member
    edited February 2017 #4
    Deeply sorry


    I am deeply sorry about your loss. I can't imagine the pain of losing a child and dealing with cancer at the same time.

    My prayers with you and your family

  • phrannie51
    phrannie51 Member Posts: 4,716
    edited February 2017 #5
    Oh Joanne....

    My heart aches for you....I simply can't imagine the pain of losing a child.  It's times like these that I wish we all lived closer to one another....strength in numbers. 

    It's good to hear your Drs. are letting you test your wings a little. 


  • swopoe
    swopoe Member Posts: 492
    Joanne, I am so sorry for

    Joanne, I am so sorry for your loss. My her memory be a blessing. Best of luck with the scope.

  • Tonita
    Tonita Member Posts: 197 Member
    I'm so sorry for your loss. 

    I'm so sorry for your loss.  As a mom, I can't even imagine what you're going through.


  • tommyodavey
    tommyodavey Member Posts: 726 Member
    How Terrible

    I too am very sorry for such a huge loss.  It is hard to fathom that kind of pain so I won't try.

    Prayers on their way

  • bebo12249
    bebo12249 Member Posts: 181 Member
    edited February 2017 #9
    You are in our prayers. Peace

    You are in our prayers. Peace. Bill

  • Drivingdaisy
    Drivingdaisy Member Posts: 263
    In My Thoughts

    Oh, Joanna...... I am truly so very, very sorry.  Losing A Child is devastating.  Almorst lost My daughter twice in her teens.  My heart feels pain for you.  Add on Radiation after effects, you must be drained both physically & mentally.  I will so keep you in My thoughts & wish You can move forward.  One Day at a Time, only way I have coped with this horrendous Cancer, & the death of My Mom.  Big Hugs,  Lisa. Please hang in there.

  • RottiesMom
    RottiesMom Member Posts: 167
    Thank you

    Thank you all for your prayers and support. I truly am a firm believer in God's will. He called His child Home, her mission here was complete.  I miss her so much. She was my first born (we have another daughter and a son).  I just pray that God gives me the strength to handle this.  I know life will never be the same again and we all will have to learn to live with this, living differently.  I know one day we will be reunited.  I am blessed as my whole family lives together, husband, daughter, son, daughter-in-law, and grandson and we are a great support to each other.  I have said this meditation from about 1970 and never has it been so close to my heart.  I know it is long, but I thought it worth posting.  My GI doctor said since I have no symptoms like acid reflux, etc he doesn't feel the need to scope me - my esophagus is healing, so unless something comes up, I'm good to go.  Next up, Endocronologist on March 7.  Again, thank you all for your prayers, kind words, and support  it means a lot to me.  I hope this meditation helps you as much as it has me!!

    Some Definite Service

    Bl. John Henry Cardinal Newman

    God knows me and calls me by my name.…

    God has created me to do Him some definite service;
    He has committed some work to me
         which He has not committed to another.
    I have my mission—I never may know it in this life,
         but I shall be told it in the next.

    Somehow I am necessary for His purposes…
         I have a part in this great work;
    I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection
         between persons.
    He has not created me for naught. I shall do good,
         I shall do His work;
    I shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth
         in my own place, while not intending it,
         if I do but keep His commandments
         and serve Him in my calling.

    Therefore I will trust Him.
         Whatever, wherever I am,
         I can never be thrown away.
    If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him;
    In perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him;
    If I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him.
    My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be
         necessary causes of some great end,
         which is quite beyond us.
    He does nothing in vain; He may prolong my life,
         He may shorten it;
         He knows what He is about.
         He may take away my friends,
         He may throw me among strangers,
         He may make me feel desolate,
         make my spirits sink, hide the future from me—
         still He knows what He is about.…
    Let me be Thy blind instrument. I ask not to see—
         I ask not to know—I ask simply to be used.

    from Meditations and Devotions,
    “Meditations on Christian Doctrine,”
    “Hope in God—Creator”, March 7, 1848

  • rcaulder
    rcaulder Member Posts: 70

    Very inspirational Joanne.

  • RottiesMom
    RottiesMom Member Posts: 167
    edited February 2017 #13
    You're welcome