Ugh, cat scan on Monday and feeling worried

JanJan63

I'm just having a tough time right now. The cat scan is to see what's going on in the lung they radiated the mets in and to check on the third spot which they said wasn't cancerous after the PET scan early this year. The last scan showed it might be getting bigger. I've been trying not to worry about it but a couple of things have made me worry. Damn, I hate this emotional roller coaster. If this spot does ever turn out to be a met they can't do anything about it. I can't have chemo after the blood clot, no big surgery because I'm on blood thinners due to the blood clot, and it's too close to the aorta for radiation.

So I've been wheezing for almost a week and getting progressively worse. At this point I'm coughing a lot and coughing deeply. I think I'm just sick because I think I'm starting to feel some body aches and my temperature is up a bit but it's still scaring me and my family. I was on the phone to my friend earlier and kept coughing and she got all upset asking why I was coughing so much.

Yesterday one of our patients was telling us about her mother-in-law who passed away from cancer last week. She was just diagnosed two weeks previously and had been being treated for bronchitis up to that point. By the time they found it she had an 8 inch tumour in her lung too close to the aorta to do anything about it. I felt so bad for her. I stayed almost an hour past my day end to sit and listen to her and try to be comforting. But the aorta thing has me freaked out in a big way.

Anyway, just whining once again because you guys are the only ones who can really understand. Hugs to all of you. I so wish you all good health and freedom from cancer.

Jan

Trubrit

It is scary

No point in telling you to be calm and happy; as each scan is a scary prospect. 

One (just one of many) of the frustrating things about being a Cancer patient (and proably other nasty diseases), is that you don't know when you're just regular sick as opposed to 'is the Cancer back' sick. 

A few weeks ago I got sick. I never 'get' sick. I get Cancer, but I rarely get sick. I lay there thinking 'is it back?' even though I was a week out from clear scans. 

I'll say the usual things, keep busy, keep positive; but I know it will knaw at your mind until you sit in front of your Onc for the results. 

I will be thinking of you on Monday. 

Good luck! 

SUE

JanJan63

Thank youSue, I appreciate

Thank youSue, I appreciate the encouragement. I'm also someone who is almost never sick other than cancer. I had/have some other medical issues besides it but the flu and colds and things like that rarely ever got to me. I'd go a few years between missing time off from work. I think what I have now is just the flu or something because I'm coughing up stuff and feel crappy but, yeah, there's always that side that asks 'what if?'

Jan

danker

assume

Just assume it wwill be nothing, and go on from there.  Sometimes we are are own worst enemy!!  Good Luck!

John23

danker said:

assume

Just assume it wwill be nothing, and go on from there.  Sometimes we are are own worst enemy!!  Good Luck!

Hey..... Just for the laughs...

Hey..... Just for the laughs...

I had a CT scan a few weeks ago. It was just another scan of what seems like a few hundred since 2006, but....

I never had a problem with a scan, or the contrast IV or oral. But the last scan put me into the ER right after the injection of contrast. I had a severe allergic reaction, complete with the rashes, the blown-up face and numbness of the mouth and throat, tough time breathing, very high (200 bpm+) pulse and very, very low BP.

Who knew?

Just something to lighten the load, ehh?

There was no explanation for the reaction, other than my system may have finally became sensitized to the IV contrast.

You'll likely have -0- problems, but it may be worthwhile to provide your concerns before that happens. Keeping the radiologist on his/her toes can be beneficial when every second may count.

Just sayin'...

Be well,

John

 

lizard44

Will be thinking of you on Monday, Jan

I hope all your fears and anxiety are unfounded.  It is  nerve-wracking, I know, no matter how much you tell yourself to relax and not worry. Everybody finds their own way of coping, it seems, and what works for one person may not work for another. Some turn to prayer, some turn  biofeedback, etc. Yoga meditation helps me a lot, although some of my yoga classmates (our class is composed in large part of  people with  current or past medical issues, including cancer, amputations, etc ) say they still haven't learned to relax completely during our savasanas. But we all  keep trying to find what works best for us.  I hope you  find what works for you and that all goes well  with the scan on Monday.

Grace/lizard44

JanJan63

lizard44 said:

Will be thinking of you on Monday, Jan

I hope all your fears and anxiety are unfounded.  It is  nerve-wracking, I know, no matter how much you tell yourself to relax and not worry. Everybody finds their own way of coping, it seems, and what works for one person may not work for another. Some turn to prayer, some turn  biofeedback, etc. Yoga meditation helps me a lot, although some of my yoga classmates (our class is composed in large part of  people with  current or past medical issues, including cancer, amputations, etc ) say they still haven't learned to relax completely during our savasanas. But we all  keep trying to find what works best for us.  I hope you  find what works for you and that all goes well  with the scan on Monday.

Grace/lizard44

I'm looking to get into a

I'm looking to get into a yoga class that would be suitable for me and I think I may have found one. Thanks for the support.

Jan

JanJan63

John23 said:

Hey..... Just for the laughs...

Hey..... Just for the laughs...

I had a CT scan a few weeks ago. It was just another scan of what seems like a few hundred since 2006, but....

I never had a problem with a scan, or the contrast IV or oral. But the last scan put me into the ER right after the injection of contrast. I had a severe allergic reaction, complete with the rashes, the blown-up face and numbness of the mouth and throat, tough time breathing, very high (200 bpm+) pulse and very, very low BP.

Who knew?

Just something to lighten the load, ehh?

There was no explanation for the reaction, other than my system may have finally became sensitized to the IV contrast.

You'll likely have -0- problems, but it may be worthwhile to provide your concerns before that happens. Keeping the radiologist on his/her toes can be beneficial when every second may count.

Just sayin'...

Be well,

John

 

Oh thanks John! Something

Oh thanks John! Something else to worry about! Seriously, I don't suppose that's very common. I'm just telling myself that nothing has changed, it is what it is and worrying won't help but it's hard.

Jan

JanJan63

danker said:

assume

Just assume it wwill be nothing, and go on from there.  Sometimes we are are own worst enemy!!  Good Luck!

Thank you! I think you're

Thank you! I think you're right!

Jan

Trubrit

JanJan63 said:

I'm looking to get into a

I'm looking to get into a yoga class that would be suitable for me and I think I may have found one. Thanks for the support.

Jan

DVDs

Because I live in a rural town, I have to rely on DVD's. I have a really easy one called Thriving Yoga - Healing Yoga for Cancer And also some great ones by Rodney Yee. I like the ones for breathing and meditatin with Rodney Yee and his Complete Yoga for Beginners. 

SUE

JanJan63

Trubrit said:

DVDs

Because I live in a rural town, I have to rely on DVD's. I have a really easy one called Thriving Yoga - Healing Yoga for Cancer And also some great ones by Rodney Yee. I like the ones for breathing and meditatin with Rodney Yee and his Complete Yoga for Beginners. 

SUE

Thanks Sue! Once winter is

Thanks Sue! Once winter is here the last thing I'm going to want tyo do is drive somewhere to do yoga. I'll check these out!

Jan

Trubrit

JanJan63 said:

Thanks Sue! Once winter is

Thanks Sue! Once winter is here the last thing I'm going to want tyo do is drive somewhere to do yoga. I'll check these out!

Jan

Shopping spree

I just dropped a few dollars at Amazon.com on more Yoga DVD's

Seane Corn: Vinyasa Flow Yoga - Uniting Movement And Breath - Session One

Yoga For Beginners

Barbara Benagh

 

Yoga over 50 - with 8 Routines

Barbara Benagh

 

Obviously can't recommend them other than the good reviews. 

John23

huh.

Yogurt makes me sick.

 

Trubrit

John23 said:

huh.

Yogurt makes me sick.

 

   

mokomapa

Good Luck

Jan,

'I know how feel about your upcoming test Monday.  After 10 years I still get nervous before any test.  At first I would start feeling anxious a month before, now it's maybe just a few days before.  Try to do something fun and keep busy.  That seems to help me.  Good luck and I'll be sending prayers your way Monday.

Tom

sflgirl

Trubrit said:

DVDs

Because I live in a rural town, I have to rely on DVD's. I have a really easy one called Thriving Yoga - Healing Yoga for Cancer And also some great ones by Rodney Yee. I like the ones for breathing and meditatin with Rodney Yee and his Complete Yoga for Beginners. 

SUE

Thanks for the titles

I just ordered Thriving Yoga.  Thanks for the tip.

Andrea

JanJan63

mokomapa said:

Good Luck

Jan,

'I know how feel about your upcoming test Monday.  After 10 years I still get nervous before any test.  At first I would start feeling anxious a month before, now it's maybe just a few days before.  Try to do something fun and keep busy.  That seems to help me.  Good luck and I'll be sending prayers your way Monday.

Tom

Aw, thank you Tom. It helps

Aw, thank you Tom. It helps that people on here can understand.

Jan

Trubrit

sflgirl said:

Thanks for the titles

I just ordered Thriving Yoga.  Thanks for the tip.

Andrea

And I decided that I had to

And I decided that I had to order something as well, so I ordered 

Seane Corn: Vintasa Flow Yoga - Uniting Movement And Breath - Session One

Yoga for Beginners - Barbara Benagh

Yoga over 50 - Barbara Benagh

I'd better be fit as a fiddle soon. HA! 

SUE

 

mokomapa

Thinking of you

Jan,

'just wanted to let you know I will be thinking of you tomorrow.  I'm confident everything will be just fine.

Tom

JanJan63

mokomapa said:

Thinking of you

Jan,

'just wanted to let you know I will be thinking of you tomorrow.  I'm confident everything will be just fine.

Tom

Thank you, you're sweet! I've

Thank you, you're sweet! I've been miserable all day, just cranky and crying off and on. It's an 8 day wait for the results after, yuck. My family doctor is good about calling me with the results so I dont have to wait, though. He's a good guy. He's so happy with how I'm doing. He calls me his rock star. I think more for surviving the embolism than for the cancer, though.

Take care Tom, I hope you're feeling a bit better about things. It's amazing how much it helps to have the people here who genuinely know how it feels and the emotions we go through. Other people try to understand but how can they, really. Some of my own emotions have been a surprise and not how I'd have thought I'd feel if the situation were presented to me. I remember feeling apologetic when I found out about the lung mets. Like I'd let my family down. Like I hadn't tried hard enough to fight it off or something. Mostly I felt bad for putting them through this again. The fear and worry. I honestly think it's easier to have it than to be the caregiver.

Jan 

mokomapa

JanJan63 said:

Thank you, you're sweet! I've

Thank you, you're sweet! I've been miserable all day, just cranky and crying off and on. It's an 8 day wait for the results after, yuck. My family doctor is good about calling me with the results so I dont have to wait, though. He's a good guy. He's so happy with how I'm doing. He calls me his rock star. I think more for surviving the embolism than for the cancer, though.

Take care Tom, I hope you're feeling a bit better about things. It's amazing how much it helps to have the people here who genuinely know how it feels and the emotions we go through. Other people try to understand but how can they, really. Some of my own emotions have been a surprise and not how I'd have thought I'd feel if the situation were presented to me. I remember feeling apologetic when I found out about the lung mets. Like I'd let my family down. Like I hadn't tried hard enough to fight it off or something. Mostly I felt bad for putting them through this again. The fear and worry. I honestly think it's easier to have it than to be the caregiver.

Jan 

Thanks

Jan,

'Hope your test went well.  Now we just have to keep positive until you get the results.  I'm doing much better thanks to you and all the supportive folks that sent me positive messages.

Tom