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Footstomper

Freenc said:

Just home from meeting the surgeon...

He says that they will take the kidney and this will be the end of it. He said that they would grade it but in his experience he is not expecting any mets.....ever. He said the mass is very well contained and the surgery will be a breeze. Again the only concern that he has is my mental state which is still bad.

So that is all excellent news but I still feel broken. It is time for professional mental help now.

 

Tom

Great news

The first of many I'm sure. 

Freenc

Footstomper said:

Great news

The first of many I'm sure. 

Ok so I am broken...

Just yesterday the doc said that he would take the kidney, the cancer would be gone and due to it being stage 1 he does not think this will ever come back. Heck this could still be benign but I am obsessing on the 5 percent chance this could come back.

What is wrong with me. I cannot focus on the 95 percent cure. I am a broken doll. I just want to see the positive and believe in it.

What do I do to fix this?

 

Tom

icemantoo

Freenc said:

Ok so I am broken...

Just yesterday the doc said that he would take the kidney, the cancer would be gone and due to it being stage 1 he does not think this will ever come back. Heck this could still be benign but I am obsessing on the 5 percent chance this could come back.

What is wrong with me. I cannot focus on the 95 percent cure. I am a broken doll. I just want to see the positive and believe in it.

What do I do to fix this?

 

Tom

Part of the 5%

Tom,

 

As I understad the statistics they are 5 year survival rates and the chances of us dying in the next 5 year from something other than Kidney Cancer approaches 5% or more anyway depending on your age. As I said before I as well as others did not take this well in the beginning. Absent something which is not currently in the cards, things will get better. Just give them a chance,

 

 

Icemantoo

APny

icemantoo said:

Part of the 5%

Tom,

 

As I understad the statistics they are 5 year survival rates and the chances of us dying in the next 5 year from something other than Kidney Cancer approaches 5% or more anyway depending on your age. As I said before I as well as others did not take this well in the beginning. Absent something which is not currently in the cards, things will get better. Just give them a chance,

 

 

Icemantoo

There's nothing wrong with

There's nothing wrong with you. Give yourself a break and stop beating yourself up for being scared, anxious, and apprehensive. You're allowed. After all, you were told you have cancer. It's not the end of the world, and thank god it's just stage1 and your prognosis is excellent, but it's still not like being told you have the flu either. So be kind to yourself and give yourself a chance to process this. It's ok to be scared. It's ok to be angry. It's ok to be apprehensive and worried about the future. It's not ok to blame yourself for feeling this way and to expect yourself to just blow this off like it was nothing. It's a big thing that comes with a lot of psychological as well as physical costs. Time will help. Surgery behind you will help. But beating yourself up for feeling this way is not going to help. We can't help our emotions and all the rational thinking in the world are not going to make your fears "poof" disappear magically. Only time will. And being told your scans are clear in the future. Just hang in there. Hugs xo

brea588

Freenc said:

Laparoscopic

My procedure will be a radical via laparoscopic. 

 

I am still having panic attacks which suck so bad. I keep thinking that what happens if it comes back. I guess that is normal but how do you move on with your life. I feel paralysed.

 

Tom

hi

When I was first diagnosed with a smaller tumor than yours, of course I was worried and didnt talk to anyone other than my husband about it for a day or so.  Not even my minister.  I had to have my time to come to terms or peace with this.  As a registered nurse, and seen a lot of cancer is my career, I never questioned why me?  I seen so much I lot of times thought , when it is my turn.  Then through my faith In Jesus I learned to lean closer to Him for my comfort.  When days were worse than others I talked to Jesus, my family just anyone to comfort me.  The surgery went fine with robot laparoscopic.  Normal healing time.  Was sore in ribs for quite some time and still tender in that area. I had the kidney sparing  surgery due to I wanted to keep my kidney function if at all possible. I was blessed and that is what happened.  As for your panic attacks, if you are a child of God, turn to him and ask him to help you through these tough days.  Pray about it.  Lean closer to Jesus.  Hope all goes well and I will be praying for you beginning today.  Hugs and warm wishes.