Last words from Winter Marie

Lovekitties Member Posts: 3,364 Member

This was posted on Winter Marie's facebook page.  I don't know who put it there, but I can believe it was something Winter herself wrote.

I post is here because she mentions you.


I did not go peacefully into the night. I was busy kicking and screaming at the grim reaper when he came. I looked that b@stard in the face and told him that I was not ready to go anywhere with him. I had children and grandchildren to enjoy and to keep loving for many more years. I told him I didn't need his ugly head looming over me. The grim reaper didn't listen to me now, did me?

I was raised in Homer, Alaska spending years weeding the large family garden, raising horses, participating in rodeo's, cross country skiing, snowmobiling, bought my first motorcycle at 14, was Alaska Civil Air Patrol Cadet of the year in 1974, took flying lessons, joined the US Air Force at 17. I lived in Springfield, Ohio for 20 years, lived in Washington, Oregon, Texas, Louisiana, Mississippi, Montana and finally California. At 52, after being diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer (age 50) with the encouragement of my children and just a ninth grade education and a GED in hand, I attended/graduated from Cabrillo College with an AA in Political Science.

My greatest joys are two of the most wonderful children that I am leaving behind, my precious daughter Christina Maria Hillard, and her children, my beautiful grandchildren Dylan Audie and Preston Heath, and my precious son David Ray Scott II and his wife Siobhan and their children, my beautiful grandchildren Nicolas Anthony and Kane Amzi Amor. I wanted to watch you two children growing old and being your older annoying Mama for a lot more years, I wanted to watch your children, your precious ones, grow up and to attend their graduations and weddings. It was not my choice to go. But know this, I'm still here in spirit, I have always believed part of me will still exist, watching over you, holding my arms around you still, wiping your tears away, please know a piece of me remains within you, the blood of my blood beats strong still in your hearts and soul. My love for you has no end. You are my legacy and I am so proud of both of you, so very proud.

I also leave behind my darling husband Mark N. Egbers, (Love you baby! Please take care of yourself) my dear Aunt Wanda Hammond (we had great "adventures"), my step-brother Gary Anderson and Lynn, my brother Walter W. Mantor, my brother Bil W. Mantor, my brother John W. Kodiak and Lorie, my sister Kathleen M. Mantor and many nieces and nephews. And to my fellow cancer friends at CSN, thank you.

Those that rode the spirit path before me are my father Walter Wayne Kodiak, my beloved mother Reba Ramona Anderson, my baby brother Anthony Wayne Kodiak, my brother John (Randy) Anderson and my first born.

To all reading this, please, do your body a favor and when you reach the age of 50, get a colonoscopy, cancer sucks.

I enjoyed life very much, more than most I think. I remained as long as possible upon this sweet earth, but...cancer came and shortened it, I fought tooth and nail, so very hard to live, managing a few years extra, undergoing chemo and surgeries, with the help of Dr. Yen who extended my life (thank you Dr. Yen) as well as the skilled surgeons at Stanford.

No, I did not go easy in the night.



  • NewHere
    NewHere Member Posts: 1,417 Member

    Beautiful words.  One remarkable person for sure.  I think of many here everyday for how they have helped me....

  • z
    z Member Posts: 1,411 Member
    Winter Marie

    Sounds like her, maybe she wrote it a while back.  I enjoyed reading about her life, it was very full and I am sorry she had to leave so soon. Lori

  • JanJan63
    JanJan63 Member Posts: 2,478 Member
    Thank you for sharing that

    Thank you for sharing that Marie. I can hardly type I'm crying so hard. Dammit. I'm so sad for her family and sad for her knowing that she had nothing left to fight with any more. Goddam cancer.

  • sharpy102
    sharpy102 Member Posts: 368 Member
    Thank you for sharing this

    Thank you for sharing this with us. Reading her message....I get so mad at cancer. I hate the fact that there's nothing I can do, that it is not in my control and never was. I devote so much time reading about it, and now, off in college, doing cancer research and is all in a waste. All the people I knew, either closely, or not so closely just leave. Because of this ****! It makes me so mad....>.<

  • Easyflip
    Easyflip Member Posts: 588 Member

    respect and love Winter Marie. Peace to you and your family, one last naked dance for you, tears.


  • jen2012
    jen2012 Member Posts: 1,607 Member
    Thanks for sharing

    Thanks for sharing Marie,

    Geez she sounds so much like my mom, who also fought til the end and who also was so sad about not seeing my youngest grow up.  Very hard when the will is there but the body can no longer fight.  I hope her family finds peace in the memories.

  • annalexandria
    annalexandria Member Posts: 2,571 Member
    I'm sure she wrote that

    sounds exactly like her.

    She was a special lady.

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,754 Member
    I like that idea

    I am sure Winter had it all worked out. 

    None of us want to die, but it sure doesn't hurt to have all your ducks in a row. 

    I like the idea of one final post. I want folks to know that I didn't want to die, but like millions of worthy souls, my time had arrived and all was well. 

    Bless her for thinking of us, along with her loved ones. A truly  great lady!

    Sue - Trubrit

  • Kathleen808
    Kathleen808 Member Posts: 2,342 Member

    Beatufiul and tragic words.

  • beaumontdave
    beaumontdave Member Posts: 1,280 Member


    Beatufiul and tragic words.

    Feisty lady, but then I knew

    Feisty lady, but then I knew that just seeing her avatar. I hope I have just some of her courage when that moment comes, but until then "I have promises to keep...and miles to go before I sleep". Goodbye Winter Marie, be at peace.

  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    Very Sad to Read this

    I am so sad to read this.  I remember Winter Marie would respond to almost all of my posts with encouarging news and always positive thoughts.  She is now an angel. 

    We will all continue this fight.