Scan results tomorrow... so scared

amanda_christy
amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
in Lymphoma (Hodgkin and Non-Hodgkin) #1

Been very stressed of late waiting for results of my CT Scan after 3cycles of ABVD..... (Stage 1A HL) Never thought it cld b this hard. 2moro i get results. :( so scared!

The lumps in my neck have gone and i know chemo should have worked but i keep expecting the 'body-blow' that my diagnosis was to me! Is my fear completely irrational? After getting the worst possible news that u do have cancer i guess its hard to be optimisic; even when that optimism is justified!

Asking for your prayers

Amanda

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  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #2
    Hi Amanda

    Hi Amanda.  "Scanxiety" is very normal so you are definitely not alone there :).  Try to keep yourself distracted.  Sending you warm thoughts for great results!

    Hugs and pants,

    pug animated GIF

  • illead
    illead Member Posts: 884 Member
    #3
    jimwins said:

    Hi Amanda

    Hi Amanda.  "Scanxiety" is very normal so you are definitely not alone there :).  Try to keep yourself distracted.  Sending you warm thoughts for great results!

    Hugs and pants,

    pug animated GIF

    Hi Amanda,

    I'm so sorry you are so stressed.  I know how you feel tho.  It sounds like you are doing well and I am sure everything will be good.  I never used to get stressed with Bill's scans until he relapsed.  Now I'm a wreck every time Smile.  Please let us know how it goes tomorrow.  We are thinking of you and hoping so much for a positive outcome.  I want to thank you so much for your kind words in your other post.  Try to relax until tomorrow when I am sure you will hear good news.

    Our best to you and your family,

    Becky & Bill

  • NANCYL1
    NANCYL1 Member Posts: 289
    #4
    AMANDA

    Hello Amanda:

    I know how you feel, a scan is a very  "nervous-making" thing.    It sounds as if the chemo has worked and your news should be good.  Let us all know.

    Jim posts very good, cheery animal photos.  I will try with a very short video clip.  This video is  very good and has a happy ending.  Baby Elephant outwits 14  Lionesses:

    Nancy

  • givingrace
    givingrace Member Posts: 161
    #5
    NANCYL1 said:

    AMANDA

    Hello Amanda:

    I know how you feel, a scan is a very  "nervous-making" thing.    It sounds as if the chemo has worked and your news should be good.  Let us all know.

    Jim posts very good, cheery animal photos.  I will try with a very short video clip.  This video is  very good and has a happy ending.  Baby Elephant outwits 14  Lionesses:

    Nancy

    Hi Amanda,    I have seen

    Hi Amanda, 

       I have seen your strength from your first posts. Just think about how far you have come. I am sure that it has been very difficult but remember that you are not alone.  

    I think keeping busy is a very good idea. I know I have been so full of anxiety no matter if it's a scan , treatment , shot , blood work , or check up.

    If you don't have anxiety meds It might be something to ask about. It was mentioned to me by Jim and it has saved my behind.  

    Stay strong ♡

     

     

    Please keep us updated. 

    Sending you a great big hug.

    ~GG~

  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #6
    Scanxiety

    It is a very common thing and we all go through that.  I'm from the colorectal board only on here because of my brother's recent diagnosis and I've been where you are at - especially the first couple scans.  It just takes your breath away.  That's all you think about night and day. I'm praying every day for all of you on these message boards.  All our lives have changed with those three words "you have cancer" and forevermore, we will always wonder.  I'm thinking the best will be your outcome.

    Kim

  • NANCYL1
    NANCYL1 Member Posts: 289
    #7
    givingrace said:

    Hi Amanda,    I have seen

    Hi Amanda, 

       I have seen your strength from your first posts. Just think about how far you have come. I am sure that it has been very difficult but remember that you are not alone.  

    I think keeping busy is a very good idea. I know I have been so full of anxiety no matter if it's a scan , treatment , shot , blood work , or check up.

    If you don't have anxiety meds It might be something to ask about. It was mentioned to me by Jim and it has saved my behind.  

    Stay strong ♡

     

     

    Please keep us updated. 

    Sending you a great big hug.

    ~GG~

    ANXIETY MEDS

    gg

    I also take Anxiety Meds, "Ativan" and "Lexapro."   Don't know what I would do without them.  Am stressed out frequently and the stress gets me in the stomach.  Trouble is, sometimes the pills make me sleepy.

    Nancy.............

  • Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3
    Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3 Member Posts: 3,819 Member
    #8
    jimwins said:

    Hi Amanda

    Hi Amanda.  "Scanxiety" is very normal so you are definitely not alone there :).  Try to keep yourself distracted.  Sending you warm thoughts for great results!

    Hugs and pants,

    pug animated GIF

    Dog therapy
    Amanda,
    Just watch Jim's cute doggie when you are waiting on the doc, and all will be fine ! Look at that mug ! Dogs lower blood pressure and create a relaxed sense in nearly eveyone.
    max
  • Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3
    Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3 Member Posts: 3,819 Member
    #9
    Annabelle41415 said:

    Scanxiety

    It is a very common thing and we all go through that.  I'm from the colorectal board only on here because of my brother's recent diagnosis and I've been where you are at - especially the first couple scans.  It just takes your breath away.  That's all you think about night and day. I'm praying every day for all of you on these message boards.  All our lives have changed with those three words "you have cancer" and forevermore, we will always wonder.  I'm thinking the best will be your outcome.

    Kim

    Kim too
    Calm and peace with your brother's news tomorrow also, Kim.
  • amanda_christy
    amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
    #10
    Max Former Hodgkins Stage 3 said:

    Kim too
    Calm and peace with your brother's news tomorrow also, Kim.

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

  • Jeff148
    Jeff148 Member Posts: 184
    #11
    amanda_christy said:

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

    Thumbs up!!!

    Have been praying for you and your hubby every day. You are on my prayer list along with a bunch of others in this little famly of warriors. Sounds like the chemo is working!!! Remember, Philipians 4:6-7. God gave me peace even during some of the more intense moments. I've been reading all the comments and see that your working out has slowed down. That's what happended to me too and it was ok. You have to listen to your body. Sometimes it needs all the energy it has to deal with the chemo etc. I can tell you this, once you start up agian, the first few workout are tough. But stick with it because after about two weeks, things got better quickly. Don't focus on too much. One day at a time. And anytime you feel good enough to get up, get up and get out, even if it is just to walk around the mall (if it's cold where you are). Thanks for the great news!!!!

  • illead
    illead Member Posts: 884 Member
    #12
    amanda_christy said:

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

    Super

    Now you can get on with your life.  We are so happy for you.  Of course, you will always have it in the back of your mind, but keep it there and move forward.  Use your experience for positive things.  It will help you to be more compassionate to others, especially those dealing with negative circumstances.  For now though I think I sense a big celebration in your near future Laughing.

    Our very best to you and your husband,

    Becky & Bill

  • Rocquie
    Rocquie Member Posts: 869 Member
    #13
    amanda_christy said:

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

    Congratulations!

    Wonderful news and I am so happy for you and your husband. Good luck tomorrow with the radiology appointment tomorrow.

    Hugs,

    Rocquie

     

  • amanda_christy
    amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
    #14
    Jeff148 said:

    Thumbs up!!!

    Have been praying for you and your hubby every day. You are on my prayer list along with a bunch of others in this little famly of warriors. Sounds like the chemo is working!!! Remember, Philipians 4:6-7. God gave me peace even during some of the more intense moments. I've been reading all the comments and see that your working out has slowed down. That's what happended to me too and it was ok. You have to listen to your body. Sometimes it needs all the energy it has to deal with the chemo etc. I can tell you this, once you start up agian, the first few workout are tough. But stick with it because after about two weeks, things got better quickly. Don't focus on too much. One day at a time. And anytime you feel good enough to get up, get up and get out, even if it is just to walk around the mall (if it's cold where you are). Thanks for the great news!!!!

    Howzit goin?

    Was wondering where ud got 2! Lov that bit of scripture!! Thanks (Y)

    I had to stop working out cuz i was faint/dizzy all the time. I suffered with virtigo a lot too. O and it was so scary at times, i wld go hot and cold and then kinda swoon.Even while sitting or lying down.

    i start my awesome bootcamp again on monday. Yaaaay! Its getting a bit nippy on evenings but i like my walks 2. Nothing a good set of  thermals wont take care of though. :-D How is ur fitness atm? r u back to the level u were b4 u began treatment?

    Thank u for cheering me on and for ur prayers for me and my family.

    :-) wishing u continued good health

    Amanda

  • amanda_christy
    amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
    #15
    illead said:

    Super

    Now you can get on with your life.  We are so happy for you.  Of course, you will always have it in the back of your mind, but keep it there and move forward.  Use your experience for positive things.  It will help you to be more compassionate to others, especially those dealing with negative circumstances.  For now though I think I sense a big celebration in your near future Laughing.

    Our very best to you and your husband,

    Becky & Bill

    Thanks guys :-)

    Uve hit the nail on the head there! Ive grown through all of this and i wldnt change a thing; i wldnt hav it any other way. :-) Its helped me to appreciate life more and to distinguish the important from the trivial.

    Wishing u and ur husband all the best too

    Amanda & Jason

  • amanda_christy
    amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
    #16
    Rocquie said:

    Congratulations!

    Wonderful news and I am so happy for you and your husband. Good luck tomorrow with the radiology appointment tomorrow.

    Hugs,

    Rocquie

     

    Yaaay me lolz!

    Fanx!! We're so happy!. this experience has brought us closer and made us stronger. Time to celebrate :-D

    xoxo

    Amanda

  • givingrace
    givingrace Member Posts: 161
    #17
    amanda_christy said:

    Yaaay me lolz!

    Fanx!! We're so happy!. this experience has brought us closer and made us stronger. Time to celebrate :-D

    xoxo

    Amanda

    Congratulations !! I praise

    Congratulations !! I praise God and and want to crawl threw this computer and give you a great big hug.  I am truly happy for you. I know God has great plans for you and this is just the tip of the ice burg of all the grand things he will do for you. Keep trucking. I just heard a quote by .... oh I forgot lol anyways "clarity is the antidote for anxiety." So is our heavenly Father. Sorry to get all preachy but it's how I feel and what I want to share with you.  You keep up the good fight .

    Much love and hugs.

    ~GG~

  • Lifeisbeautiful
    Lifeisbeautiful Member Posts: 50
    #18
    amanda_christy said:

    Howzit goin?

    Was wondering where ud got 2! Lov that bit of scripture!! Thanks (Y)

    I had to stop working out cuz i was faint/dizzy all the time. I suffered with virtigo a lot too. O and it was so scary at times, i wld go hot and cold and then kinda swoon.Even while sitting or lying down.

    i start my awesome bootcamp again on monday. Yaaaay! Its getting a bit nippy on evenings but i like my walks 2. Nothing a good set of  thermals wont take care of though. :-D How is ur fitness atm? r u back to the level u were b4 u began treatment?

    Thank u for cheering me on and for ur prayers for me and my family.

    :-) wishing u continued good health

    Amanda

    So happy for you!

    Hi Amanda,

    I'm so happy to hear the good news, especially when I felt worse than any other day so far from the beginning of my treatment and this brings so much optimism. You're lucky you were able to do your bootcamp classes and very soon you will continue them. I used to exercise regularely (even during pregnancy) but then I had the C-section and I had to actually learn how to walk again. Tried going back to the GYM few weeks after I got a little better but came back crying, couldn't do even the most basic stuff so now that I'm getting closer to the end of my treatment , I simply can't wait to feel better and start exsercising again. I agree with you that it makes you feel better.

    Go celebrate and get yourself something as a reward!

    Be well and keep in touch, please.

    Natasha

     

     

     

  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #19
    amanda_christy said:

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

    WooHoooo

    Wonderful news.  That is a time to celebrate and time to do something special.  Seems like things are working in the right direction.  Great news and you have much to celebrate this Thanksgiving so enjoy every moment.

    Kim

  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #20
    amanda_christy said:

    Simply WOW!

    Great news everyone, lymph nodes hav greatly decreased in size. Dr believes lymphoma is gone but wont know 4 sur till ive had my PET scan in 3months or so. Biggest node which was 2.7cms is now 1.3cms. Don't quite know wat to do with myself; so excited! Havent slept well in days. I hav anxiety meds but didnt want to attend appointment while sleepy.

    I want to tell each and every one of u how much ur kind words hav meant to me. I appreciate your support so very much! :-)

    Meeting to discuss radiotherapy 2moro :-) Hubby is so relieved/happy! Love him

    Wonderful news

    That is great news, Amanda!  I've been fairly busy lately and haven't posted a lot but trying to catch up some.

    Hugs to you and yours,

    Jim

  • amanda_christy
    amanda_christy Member Posts: 60
    #21
    jimwins said:

    Wonderful news

    That is great news, Amanda!  I've been fairly busy lately and haven't posted a lot but trying to catch up some.

    Hugs to you and yours,

    Jim

    Thanks Jim. Thanks u guys

    Thanks Jim. Thanks u guys :-D

    Still got targeted radiotherapy to the neck left to go. 3 weeks of **it then 3-month wait for pet scan etc etc. O! Got my mask made... wasn't as scary as anticipated.

    Don't know wat else to say really but u guys hav been AWESOME!!!

    hugs and kisses (yes im weird and know it)

    *giggle*

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