Buzzz, Click, Click Click, chirp

EaglesFly
EaglesFly Member Posts: 7
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Here I go again, tomorrow. I find there are such interesting adjustments to my POV required. This could be an important and life changing day coming at me, and yet I don't fear it. In fact, I rather look forward to it now. I certainly look forward to having the scans and the analysis all in the past. I really am looking forward in life and it surprises me how great that makes me feel, but there's still a tiny part that is hesitation. Nevertheless in the past  8 or 9 months I've faced things so much more devastating than anything that might come from these scans tomorrow. Makes me think, but until this is done and analized, I'm not at all certain as to what to think. :) Ahhh... maybe I have the answer for me... right now it's a good mystery. I've promised myself that I will make all of my experience with cancer into something good. I'm doing good work in that direction. 

Confused? Maybe I am a bit. I can't figure out how someone so claustrophobic as I has defeated all the fear of going into that machine. In fact I beat it the very first time they stuck me in there for so dreadfully long. 

Tomorrow is gonna be a blesssed good day. By jove, it's my duty to myself to make it so!

 

Hi all friends of life.

Arthur

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  • EaglesFly
    EaglesFly Member Posts: 7
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    Round 2 in the BUZZ CLICK STAKES!

    In another MRI machine counting clicks this coming Sunday. Then Monday it's into the Gamma Knife machine to get at two tiny tumors. One's in a real lousy location. There is real risk with this. I do hope I remember though..... I must tell them to take the cobalt out of the Gamma Machine and stuff some kryptonite in there or nothing's gonna happen! :) These tumors are metastaces of the now inert lung tumor... so... If this succeeds, I just might be to the end of the tunnel here where I can just fall back to maintenance mode with the drug that seems like a miracle to me. I think it really is.....

    So.... I need your prayers, positive thoughts, and take a moment to enjoy your own happy smile.... make one if you don't have one. It will help me. Helping yourself, will help me. I promise... the reverse works too... so I smile and I do smile for you.

     

    Arthur

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