In need of support

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Hi Everyone,

 

I am new to this site and I had to join something because I am just feeling so horrible lately because I recently just found out that my grandma has pancreatic cancer and with chemo she will only have a year to live. She has taken care of me since my mother died in 2000. I had my brother and mother pass away in 2000 just 3 months apart and in 2012 I lost my grandpa who I was close with as well. My grandma is one tough woman and she is in good spirits but I am just feeling absolutely sick inside and I try to remain in good spirits when I am around her but inside it is truly killing me. I currently live with my grandmother and I am taking care of her right now by doing whatever I can around the house to help her but I am unsure how I will be able to handle things when she isn't with us anymore. I really haven't thought about the future because it makes my want to cry every single time I even think about her not being her anymore. She is truly my hero and if it wasn't for my grandparents I have no idea where I would be. My aunts and uncles and brother will help me but they will never measure up to my grandma. I am truly blessed and thankful for everything she has done in my life and I wish I could repay her. I feel like I really need support because I am starting to become extremely depressed.

 

Thanks for reading.

 

 

Justin W.

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Hang In There

First, I am sorry you are having to deal with this. Second, keep in mind that no one knows how long someone will live with or without cancer. When my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer, the literature all said the average survival was 22 months. He made it for 6 years. We just don't know, any of us, how long we might live. that doesn't make it any easier especially when you have already suffered so many loses in your life. Of course you are sad and scared. Try not to let the prospects of the future prevent you from cherishing the now. You sound like a very caring and brave young man. Come here whenever you need support. Many here care. Keep helping your grandmother out as much as you can. As a grandmother myself, I know that she is very proud of you. Hang in there and continue to make good memories with your grandmother. Take care, Fay