Still fighting, but starting to take some bruises

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Doc_Hawk
Doc_Hawk Member Posts: 685

Please pardon the copy and paste from an email I sent to family and friends.  So here goes!

This is the email that I've dreaded writing for three years, ever since I first wrote to tell you I had cancer.  I can't say for certain that I I'm dying, but I am getting very, very weak.  Warning: The following is pretty graphic, but if you want to know how bad things are it's important not to skip.  There was an incident a few days ago where I was getting off of the toilet and got to a a halfway standing position and couldn't get up past a crouch.  By time I go into my bedroom my canes were on the ground and I was crawling down the hall.  Of course, my cell phone was dead a getting a charge.   The life alert necklace I wear around my neck, dangling unforgotten.  I don't know how long after that, but the nurse came in to change my diaper (yes I've had to have nursing care for some time) and it was full of blood.  And when I say full of blood, I mean slasher flick amounts.  During all of this, my oxygen level dropped to about 70% while 90 or above is desirable..!  The nurse made the comment to my sis that left untreated, I would have died within 12 - 16 hours.  Happy Fourth of July.  

 

Well my friends, that's about all.  Lu is well, better than me in fact!

 

 

Well May God Bless and keep you all

 

Ray/Doc/Hawk

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  • MaryCarol5
    MaryCarol5 Member Posts: 102
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    So sorry to hear what you are

    So sorry to hear what you are going through but also so glad you have the strength to check in here.  So many, as you know, have been worried and praying for you!  Rest, stay strong and know that continued prayers are being sent up for you! 

    MC

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,800 Member
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    DOC, SO HAPPY!

    I have been so anxious this week to hear either from you or of your friends. 

    How horrific to have bled so much and be unoncious of it.  Shall we dangle the Life Aler from your ear? 

    So very thankful that the nurse came and found you.

    Thank you so very much for taking the time to post, and we don't care about it being from an email. Any news from you means that you are still fighting.

    Blessings!

  • fatbob2010
    fatbob2010 Member Posts: 467 Member
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    Glad to Hear From You

    Doc,

    Good to hear from you...Glad that you still have some fight left, despite the bruising.  

    I wish you comfort and peace Doc.

    Art

  • lp1964
    lp1964 Member Posts: 1,239 Member
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    Hey Doc,

    You don't know me, because I'm just at the beginning of my treatment. But I wanted to wish you the best possible outcome and send you support.

    Laz

  • Cathleen Mary
    Cathleen Mary Member Posts: 827 Member
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    lp1964 said:

    Hey Doc,

    You don't know me, because I'm just at the beginning of my treatment. But I wanted to wish you the best possible outcome and send you support.

    Laz

    Thanks so much for posting,

    Thanks so much for posting, Doc.  You have been on my mind and in my heart and and prayer. So sorry that you are having such a rough time of it. I hope for strength and relief so you can enjoy a bit of each day.

    Thinking of you,

    Cathleen Mary

  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
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    Sorry

    Oh, dear. So sorry to hear about this. Praying for you!

     

    *Hugs*

    Gail

  • karguy
    karguy Member Posts: 1,020 Member
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    I'm sorry

    I'm sorry to hear the news,but you can't give up.In 2008 I had my first tumor,I got a colosomy from that one.Last year I had to get a liver resection for another tumor.I just got out of the hospital from having a tumor removed from inside my spine.I will not give up.You should keep fighting even with a few bruises.Just never give up,I will keep praying for you,and will try to send all the strength I can.

  • hippiechicks
    hippiechicks Member Posts: 509 Member
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    Sending you strength and well

    Sending you strength and well wishes as you battle your bruises.  So glad to hear your nurse arrived to help you through ... 

     

    My best to you  

  • joemetz
    joemetz Member Posts: 493
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    Thank you for sharing... and I'm praying for you

    Doc

    You're one awesome guy. You helped me 2 years ago when I was first diagnosed and your advice, ideas and your comments have always been spot on and very helpful.

    Thank you for all you've done for me and for others here at CSN.

    One day, God will bless you with eternal life without pain and suffering.  I just hope it's not for a while. But, if its this month or next year, please know that you have touched many many lives and your sharing of your experience, although graphic for some to read, again... you are helping all of us Cancer Fighters.

    Virtual hugs for strength and for happiness forever.

    Joe

     

     

  • tanstaafl
    tanstaafl Member Posts: 1,313 Member
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    thanks
    Thanks so much for thinking of us and letting us know, Ray. Sorry that you are having such a tough time with the slasher "fireworks display". I hope they've got that straightened out.  On this 4 of July, I salute you.  
  • annalexandria
    annalexandria Member Posts: 2,571 Member
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    Sending strength and love your way, Doc...

    we miss you here.  AA

  • wawaju04976
    wawaju04976 Member Posts: 316 Member
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    This experience shows what a

    This experience shows what a fighter/survivor you are!!!

    Judy

  • Luckygirl2
    Luckygirl2 Member Posts: 308
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    Thinking of you
    Have not been able to connect in awhile and have been anxious for you and thinking of you each day! Your strength is an inspiration to me.

    Debbie
  • Deena11
    Deena11 Member Posts: 199 Member
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    Oh My

    Oh, Doc...so sorry to hear about your struggles.  Hang in there.  Sending strong positive thoughts your way!

    Deena

  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
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    Darling Ray.....

    We have your back, dearest....just worried when we didn't hear....please, if you can, post occasionally....

     

    BIG warm hugs, Kathi

  • herdizziness
    herdizziness Member Posts: 3,624 Member
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    Hey doc

    Been worried about you, glad you posted. 

    Gladder that the nurse showed up in time to save you!  My goodness how scary.

    keep reminding yourself that you have that life alert thing around your neck so you will remember if there is a next time you need it.

    Thinking about you dear man.

    Winter Marie

  • Maxiecat
    Maxiecat Member Posts: 544 Member
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    Doc..you have been in my

    DoC...you have been in my thoughts.   I have been away from the board for a few weeks and when I came back...you were one of the people that I most wanted to check up on.  I am so gla Ethan that nurse found you.   No one should have to go through this alone.  Tha k you for sharing what yare have gone through..this is life....part of all of us.   You are one tough cookie and we are all better people for knowing you.  I hope you get your strength back soon...you are a fighter...I hope you are feeling better new.

     

    alex

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,800 Member
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    Maxiecat said:

    Doc..you have been in my

    DoC...you have been in my thoughts.   I have been away from the board for a few weeks and when I came back...you were one of the people that I most wanted to check up on.  I am so gla Ethan that nurse found you.   No one should have to go through this alone.  Tha k you for sharing what yare have gone through..this is life....part of all of us.   You are one tough cookie and we are all better people for knowing you.  I hope you get your strength back soon...you are a fighter...I hope you are feeling better new.

     

    alex

    Last post

    This was your last post to us, Doc.  We all mourn your loss to the message boards. 

    One bruise to many. 

    Fare thee well, good man.