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  • illead
    illead Member Posts: 884 Member
    #22
    AAArrgghhh

    I'll be thinking about you and your mom today and hoping for the best, hang in there.  Love Becky

  • anliperez915
    anliperez915 Member Posts: 770
    #23
    epicc said:

    I like your idea

    Becky,

    I'm going to suggest it to the doctors.  However, as of last night her blood pressure was dropping and she might have her infection back.  She  also has a loss of appetitie.  We just van't get out of this rut we are in. I'm very fustrated today. Love, Emily

    So sorry Emily

    So sorry Emily, this has been extremely tough on your mom and all of your family. Please hang in there sweetie...I will be praying for your mom, please keep us updated. Take care (((Hugs))))

    Sincerely,

    Liz

     

  • lianadw
    lianadw Member Posts: 72
    #24
    epicc said:

    I like your idea

    Becky,

    I'm going to suggest it to the doctors.  However, as of last night her blood pressure was dropping and she might have her infection back.  She  also has a loss of appetitie.  We just van't get out of this rut we are in. I'm very fustrated today. Love, Emily

    Prayers and healing wishes

    HI Emily,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom. I'm sorry your having to go through such a difficult time with all this. I hope the rut ends soon, the infections get cured, and your mom can get back on track with kicking the cancer. And that you can get some rest. Sounds like your going 24/7caring for her. Such an awesome daughter!

    hugs and love,

    Liana

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #25
    illead said:

    AAArrgghhh

    I'll be thinking about you and your mom today and hoping for the best, hang in there.  Love Becky

    You are all so kind

    Liz, Liana, and Becky.

    Thank you for your kind thoughts.  I was at the hospital late last night.  She has a burning pain in her *&%..lol  Not sure if it's a hemroid or some kind of tare.  She was very unconfortable.  Her blood pressure is still low and her lungs have fluid.  Staying in bed does not help.  My sister is getting very discouraged.  She is the one in the family who is very optimistic.  We are trying very hard to get her to drink and eat.  We can't do much more.

    Pray things get a little better.

     

     

     

     

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #26
    lianadw said:

    Prayers and healing wishes

    HI Emily,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom. I'm sorry your having to go through such a difficult time with all this. I hope the rut ends soon, the infections get cured, and your mom can get back on track with kicking the cancer. And that you can get some rest. Sounds like your going 24/7caring for her. Such an awesome daughter!

    hugs and love,

    Liana

    Hi Liana

    How are your treatments going.  Sounds like you are a real trooper!  I know you will get through this with flying colors.  I'm very proud of you. I see how difficult it is and yet you never seem to complain.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  Love, Emily

  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #27
    epicc said:

    You are all so kind

    Liz, Liana, and Becky.

    Thank you for your kind thoughts.  I was at the hospital late last night.  She has a burning pain in her *&%..lol  Not sure if it's a hemroid or some kind of tare.  She was very unconfortable.  Her blood pressure is still low and her lungs have fluid.  Staying in bed does not help.  My sister is getting very discouraged.  She is the one in the family who is very optimistic.  We are trying very hard to get her to drink and eat.  We can't do much more.

    Pray things get a little better.

     

     

     

     

    Hi Emily

    I hope things get better soon for your Mom and the roller coaster will level out.  I'm thinking of you guys. 

    Hugs and positivie thoughts,

    Jim

  • lianadw
    lianadw Member Posts: 72
    #28
    epicc said:

    Hi Liana

    How are your treatments going.  Sounds like you are a real trooper!  I know you will get through this with flying colors.  I'm very proud of you. I see how difficult it is and yet you never seem to complain.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  Love, Emily

    Hi Emily

    Treatments are going ok. I'm on my third day of inpatient R-ICE. Should go home tomorrow if my numbers are up. Pet scan scheduled for the 20th, and if there's enough improvement, I start the mobilization process for the Bone Marrow/Stem Cell transplant. The actual transplant is tentatively scheduled for May 20th. It's such a long process! But I'll get through it, and get well.

    Today is my daughter's 8th birthday. We had a small family celebration last weekend, which made her very happy. They came to see me today so I got to give her birthday hugs.

    Life is just such a mix of joy and at times suffering. Got to focus on these moments of joy to get through the suffering.

    love, liana

  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    #29
    lianadw said:

    Hi Emily

    Treatments are going ok. I'm on my third day of inpatient R-ICE. Should go home tomorrow if my numbers are up. Pet scan scheduled for the 20th, and if there's enough improvement, I start the mobilization process for the Bone Marrow/Stem Cell transplant. The actual transplant is tentatively scheduled for May 20th. It's such a long process! But I'll get through it, and get well.

    Today is my daughter's 8th birthday. We had a small family celebration last weekend, which made her very happy. They came to see me today so I got to give her birthday hugs.

    Life is just such a mix of joy and at times suffering. Got to focus on these moments of joy to get through the suffering.

    love, liana

    Hi Liana

    Happy birthday hugs to your daughter and big hugs to you!  Hang in there.  This is such a roller coaster ride on so many levels.  It really helped me to focus on just getting through each step/treatment and have little celebrations along the way.  Before I knew it, the treatments were finished - then I had to renew my driver's license bald and all - they wouldn't allow me to wear a hat so here I am today, carrying my drivers license with the picture of the "alien" with pride :).  I recently got pulled over by a state trooper for having a "heavy foot".  He kept looking at the license picture and me.  I explained it was taken shortly after chemo and he reduced my ticket :).  So, my "alien pic" did have an advantage - lol.

    Smile and laugh when you can but it's okay to cry and let it out too - believe me, I did my share of that.

    Big hairy hugs (yep it grew back),

    Jim

  • allmost60
    allmost60 Member Posts: 3,178 Member
    #30
    epicc said:

    You are all so kind

    Liz, Liana, and Becky.

    Thank you for your kind thoughts.  I was at the hospital late last night.  She has a burning pain in her *&%..lol  Not sure if it's a hemroid or some kind of tare.  She was very unconfortable.  Her blood pressure is still low and her lungs have fluid.  Staying in bed does not help.  My sister is getting very discouraged.  She is the one in the family who is very optimistic.  We are trying very hard to get her to drink and eat.  We can't do much more.

    Pray things get a little better.

     

     

     

     

    Praying...

    Hi Emily,

     Keeping your mom in my nightly prayers...my list is growing by leaps and bounds lately, but that's ok....just need to start my prayers before my night time meds kick in Surprised! I hope you are getting some rest through all of this. Take care...

    Love...Sue  (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

  • illead
    illead Member Posts: 884 Member
    #31
    I'm here too.....

    .......as always.  Love,Becky

  • laurs
    laurs Member Posts: 7
    #32
    suggestion

    Has she cried?  Crying allows frustration out also.  It's not quite depression, it's kind of frustration also.  You might take her some family photographs, make videos of the children etc....  It is frustrating.  It kind of gets your spirits down, kind of oppressive feeling also.  When will I feel better, when will the pain stop, is there something wrong with me where I deserve this?  etc....  Maybe even develop some mental imaging with her of good safe places, good memories, places she wants to go or dreamed of going to ..or has been.  It's part of coping with the frustration.  Talk to her about her frustration.  Possibly get a different hospital or clinics opinion, new advances all the time. 

  • Lucky_Horseshoe
    Lucky_Horseshoe Member Posts: 15
    #33
    Depression & Anxiety

    Dear Emily:

    I too went through a lot of hospitalizations when my Graft Versus Host Disease raised its ugly head not to mention getting sick in the hospital.  I became very depressed and anxious. I became so sick that I wanted to give up the fight.  I laid in that stupid hospital room feeling mighty sorry for myself.  My family and friends kept coming in and not giving up on me.  It cheered me up tremendously.  You are doing what your mother needs.  Let her cry it out too.  It helped me.  After I got out the last time, they had to put me on anti-anxiety pills.  I just couldn't kick it all of the way.  I was hospitalitzed the year before because of my reaction to the RICE treatments.  As everyone has been saying, pictures and/or videos of family members would be great.  Or just a quiet visit with her daughter talking it out if she is willing.   My Mom was my sounding board.  Sometimes I made her sad to listen to me; but, she hung in there.  I'm 50 and she is 72.  She and my husband were and still are my godsend. 

    I also had a visit from my next door neighbor who is a pastor.  He brought me frozen yogurts (I couldn't eat much) and helped me through some serious questions about faith that I needed.

    I hope your Mother gets better soon and keeps on fighting.  I am rooting for your whole family.  She can kick this and Cancer's butt. 

    Sincerely,

    Traci

  • tall floridian
    tall floridian Member Posts: 95
    #34
    Depression

    Emily: It's so sad that depression hits us all at one time or another in our fight. One thing that helped me so much in my many stays in the hospital and medical rehab was the pictures of my 2 year old grandaughter spread out on the bulletin board near my bed. When I felt depressed I would look at those pictures and a joy would replace the depression and I would smile and pray to God that I would be able to see my grandaughter grow up. I'm 71 now and still cancer free and driving for the first time in a year and a half and even shopping by myself and taking 1 mile walks.

    Also, my wife would bring in photo album's and we would go from page to page reliving the fun times in our lives and praying together for my healing. The rehab had animal visits and that helped alot with my depression too. My wife went through soo much in the year and a half of my struggle - teaching school all day then spending quality time with me. Her life was put on hold-having to try to cheer me up day after day and keeping my spirits high.

    My prayers are for you and your mom- that the depression will leave and a hope instilled in your mom that this monster can and will be defeated and that the doctors will help your mom recover and move forward to complete remission. God bless you both- Hugs to mom and you- Steve

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #35
    tall floridian said:

    Depression

    Emily: It's so sad that depression hits us all at one time or another in our fight. One thing that helped me so much in my many stays in the hospital and medical rehab was the pictures of my 2 year old grandaughter spread out on the bulletin board near my bed. When I felt depressed I would look at those pictures and a joy would replace the depression and I would smile and pray to God that I would be able to see my grandaughter grow up. I'm 71 now and still cancer free and driving for the first time in a year and a half and even shopping by myself and taking 1 mile walks.

    Also, my wife would bring in photo album's and we would go from page to page reliving the fun times in our lives and praying together for my healing. The rehab had animal visits and that helped alot with my depression too. My wife went through soo much in the year and a half of my struggle - teaching school all day then spending quality time with me. Her life was put on hold-having to try to cheer me up day after day and keeping my spirits high.

    My prayers are for you and your mom- that the depression will leave and a hope instilled in your mom that this monster can and will be defeated and that the doctors will help your mom recover and move forward to complete remission. God bless you both- Hugs to mom and you- Steve

    Thank you

    Thank you everyone. We are having a difficult time. We are back in ICU. things are not good. She has an infection which is resisant to antibiotics.  Not sure what the outcome will be.  Love Emily

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #36
    Lucky_Horseshoe said:

    Depression & Anxiety

    Dear Emily:

    I too went through a lot of hospitalizations when my Graft Versus Host Disease raised its ugly head not to mention getting sick in the hospital.  I became very depressed and anxious. I became so sick that I wanted to give up the fight.  I laid in that stupid hospital room feeling mighty sorry for myself.  My family and friends kept coming in and not giving up on me.  It cheered me up tremendously.  You are doing what your mother needs.  Let her cry it out too.  It helped me.  After I got out the last time, they had to put me on anti-anxiety pills.  I just couldn't kick it all of the way.  I was hospitalitzed the year before because of my reaction to the RICE treatments.  As everyone has been saying, pictures and/or videos of family members would be great.  Or just a quiet visit with her daughter talking it out if she is willing.   My Mom was my sounding board.  Sometimes I made her sad to listen to me; but, she hung in there.  I'm 50 and she is 72.  She and my husband were and still are my godsend. 

    I also had a visit from my next door neighbor who is a pastor.  He brought me frozen yogurts (I couldn't eat much) and helped me through some serious questions about faith that I needed.

    I hope your Mother gets better soon and keeps on fighting.  I am rooting for your whole family.  She can kick this and Cancer's butt. 

    Sincerely,

    Traci

    Traci 
    thank you for sharing

    Traci 

    thank you for sharing your story. My sister and I spend all of our time here with her at the hospital. My dad also is here. We try to give her all the love and support we can. Last night was a very tough night. Her blood pressure was very low. She didn't want to come up to ICU. After seeing her grand kids she changed her mind. My mom is 82 and the treatments are taking its toll on her heart. She also has infection that is difficult to treat. The canger is under control for now.  We are taking it one day at a time. Thank you for your prayers. Much love to you and your family. Love Emily

     

     

     

     

     

  • illead
    illead Member Posts: 884 Member
    #37
    epicc said:

    Thank you

    Thank you everyone. We are having a difficult time. We are back in ICU. things are not good. She has an infection which is resisant to antibiotics.  Not sure what the outcome will be.  Love Emily

    Oh Emily

    I so wish I could be encouraging.  I will keep you in my prayers, you and your dear mother are special.  Love, Becky

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #38
    illead said:

    Oh Emily

    I so wish I could be encouraging.  I will keep you in my prayers, you and your dear mother are special.  Love, Becky

    I know

    I know Becky.  It has been a very emotional weekend.  My sister and I are exhausted.  It's in god's hands.  Thank you for being there.  You and Bill are so special along with everyone on this website.  I love you all.  Love, Emily

  • anliperez915
    anliperez915 Member Posts: 770
    #39
    epicc said:

    I know

    I know Becky.  It has been a very emotional weekend.  My sister and I are exhausted.  It's in god's hands.  Thank you for being there.  You and Bill are so special along with everyone on this website.  I love you all.  Love, Emily

    We love you too

    We love you too Emily, I also wish I could do or say something to help you through this. Thinking and Praying for your mom, you and your whole family...take care

    Sincerely,

    Liz

  • epicc
    epicc Member Posts: 137
    #40
    anliperez915 said:

    We love you too

    We love you too Emily, I also wish I could do or say something to help you through this. Thinking and Praying for your mom, you and your whole family...take care

    Sincerely,

    Liz

    Thank you Liz

    You have all been wonderful. Thank you for all your support during this difficult time. I hope you are feeling well. Love Emily 

     

  • lianadw
    lianadw Member Posts: 72
    #41
    epicc said:

    Thank you Liz

    You have all been wonderful. Thank you for all your support during this difficult time. I hope you are feeling well. Love Emily 

     

    Thinking of you

    Hi Emily,

    I am thinking of you and your mom, and praying for her recovering from the infection that is plagueing her. It sounds like you have such a loving and supportive family. So hard to see someone you love so much who has always been so strong, suffer this way. I'll keep sending good thoughts.

    hugs,

    Liana

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