Another scan... UPDATE
Here we are at another scan and as you can imagine I am shaking on the inside. I was just sitting outside on my front porch thinking that I am going to lose my mind. It's so quiet except for a wood pecker pecking away at a big oak tree. I wanted to yell at him to knock it off...I mean doesn't he know that I am on edge and need some peace and quiet?!
I have had some really hard times with all of this but being still and waiting on GOD was enough to keep me sane but now I am feeling like I need to get some counseling to help me cope and process everything. I still have tons of hope in my heart but my mind is not holding up as well.
Could I get you guys to send prayers for us? I feel so numb and afraid that it is hard to pray...I know GOD knows my heart and all of our needs but knowing that you are sending up some prayers would really help me get through.
I pray that we all have a blessed holiday and those of you that aren't from the US I pray you have a blessed Thursday along with us.
GOD's blessing to all.
Brenda
The scan was all clear! Praise GOD!
The doctor that ordered the scan is the one that told us that we needed a miracle and that Dennis had 2 years (almost 2 years ago). He told us that the "news is good for now", he said that he still thinks it will come back. He also brought up a 3mm nodule in his lung that has been there from day one. The Madison group determined that it was a non issue when it didn't change with 6 months of 5fu and Avastin, they explained that lots of people have nodules that are non cancerous and Dennis was one of them. I have always called this Doctor,Dr. Doom becuase he has never given us any hope. When we asked him for a referral to the UW he told us that "he thinks it's a long shot". He told us today to go home and have a good Thanksgiving and Christmas as if he were suggesting that it won't be this good next year. I guess time will tell... but we are happy as can be after a visit with Dr. Doom.
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Hi Brenda,
I understand
Hi Brenda,
I understand completely. My husband was just diagnosed stage 4 in August and has his first scan coming up Nov 30th. I'm already feeling sick about it. I was just wondering this morning how people here seem to stay so positive and thankful when I just want to throw things and yell. I say yell at the woodpecker to shut up! Maybe you'll feel better if you let some of the frustration out.
I will definitely pray that you find some peace and comfort and mostly that Dennis gets great results tomorrow.0 -
Thanks Jen, it helps to knowjen2012 said:Hi Brenda,
I understand
Hi Brenda,
I understand completely. My husband was just diagnosed stage 4 in August and has his first scan coming up Nov 30th. I'm already feeling sick about it. I was just wondering this morning how people here seem to stay so positive and thankful when I just want to throw things and yell. I say yell at the woodpecker to shut up! Maybe you'll feel better if you let some of the frustration out.
I will definitely pray that you find some peace and comfort and mostly that Dennis gets great results tomorrow.
Thanks Jen, it helps to know that someone is listening and praying.
If there is anything I can help you with just let me know; I remember the first few months after dx and how exhausting it all is.
I went to scream at the wood pecker and he was gone! lol0 -
Brenda
I know scan anxiety! I have one coming up next month after I complete my 12th round of Folfox. Sending prayers your way for clear scans. Have a happy Thanksgiving.
Sandy:)0 -
Hope hubby has a greatMomof2plusteentwins said:Brenda
I know scan anxiety! I have one coming up next month after I complete my 12th round of Folfox. Sending prayers your way for clear scans. Have a happy Thanksgiving.
Sandy:)
Hope hubby has a great scan!!! Waiting for results is so hard, how long till you guys get the results??0 -
at appt tomorrow (12:30 CST)smokeyjoe said:Hope hubby has a great
Hope hubby has a great scan!!! Waiting for results is so hard, how long till you guys get the results??
at appt tomorrow (12:30 CST) I will update as soon as I get home.
I broke down and took a lorazapam today, I was getting a little sick from nerves.
This may sound crazy but I kind of wish that the results were after Thanksgiving only because I know it will be a really good or really sad holiday now. Please don't take that the wrong way, of course I want Dennis to get results asap.
Brenda0 -
I'll pray for both your peace of mind and health
Everyday is precious, maybe that's what woody the wood picker is saying.
Or maybe he was just pecking.
Listen to your feelings, a good counsellor might help.
Hugs,
Pete0 -
wishing to hear the good newspete43lost_at_sea said:I'll pray for both your peace of mind and health
Everyday is precious, maybe that's what woody the wood picker is saying.
Or maybe he was just pecking.
Listen to your feelings, a good counsellor might help.
Hugs,
Pete
Hi Brenda, I am so wishing to hear the good news and I have send prayers to that effect.
Wishing you and Dennis a peacefull and wonderfull Thanks Giving from Canada, we had ours last month.
Actually, for me everyday I am alive and feeling good is a Thankfull day, I pray for the same for you and Denis.
Hugs, Marjan0 -
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Prayers on the way for a clean scan. It's so hard waiting. Just don't the the doctors realize the anxiety that we feel for that impending status. Keep us informed.
Kim0 -
Praying for you and Dennis,
Praying for you and Dennis, may all your holidays be filled with NED and joy!! It seems even harder somehow with the upcoming holidays my stress level was high last week before my husband scanned, (even though I knew he felt good), but low and behold all was going good and tumors still shrinking......So try to think happy thoughts and know you can't control the results anyway. Kim0 -
Prayers, hugs and good vibes
coming at you from Kansas . . . it's gonna be good news and you're going to have a great Thanksgiving! Dan0 -
I can totally relate. Your
I can totally relate. Your story is similar to mine. Scans are the worst kind of torture a person should have to endure. The first one after starting chemo (the first time) was terrible. I remember wanting to call and delay the scan until after Christmas. The first scan after surgery was difficult too. It's quite a way to live. Even though it has only been going on two years, it is hard for me to believe there was a time when we did not have scans, chemo side affects, CEA levels etc to worry about.
I laughed when I read about the woodpecker. I know that exact feeling.
I don't pray often (I'm still too pissed), but I will pray for good test results and for God to give you and Dennis the strength to deal with whatever hand you are dealt.
Good luck tomorrow. It will be a stressful morning (waiting to see the doctor). Just put one foot in front of the other and get through it. I'll be praying for good news.
Chelsea0 -
Thinking of you, Brenda
And boy do I understand. And I really believe there are post traumatic stress issues that go along with battling cancer yourself or along with a very close loved one - like your husband. My daughter. Etc. It's just awful. And these scans are something else.
I will absolutely send up a prayer for Dennis and you. Hang in there! And I hope and pray things continue NED for Dennis.
Sandy0 -
Brenda, I am praying thatVarmint5 said:Thinking of you, Brenda
And boy do I understand. And I really believe there are post traumatic stress issues that go along with battling cancer yourself or along with a very close loved one - like your husband. My daughter. Etc. It's just awful. And these scans are something else.
I will absolutely send up a prayer for Dennis and you. Hang in there! And I hope and pray things continue NED for Dennis.
Sandy
Brenda, I am praying that tomorrow's results giive you and Dennis every reason to be filled with gratitude Thanksgiving day. Cancer can run havoc on our emotional well being. I am a strong believer in prayer and a strong believer in counseling. Seek help if you need it; cancer takes away enough from us. Will be lookiimg for you to post an update. Know a lot of people care and understand.
Cathleen Mary0 -
Updated original post.
Updated original post.0 -
Dear Brenda
Wonderful news and certainly adds to your things to be thankful for this year.
May there be many more years to be thankful for.
Hugs,
Marie who loves kitties0
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