PICKED MY POISON TODAY....

ptharp
ptharp Member Posts: 190
in Ovarian Cancer #1
I have decided to go with the Carboplatin IV every 3 weeks and the Taxol IV every week for 18 weeks. I also decided on getting a port. So why am I crying like a baby? Everybody said I feel better when I move forward.

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  • Cindy Bear
    Cindy Bear Member Posts: 569
    #2
    Hello
    Just wanted to say good luck and send big cyber hugs your way. I think crying is pretty normal. On one hand, you're terrified (who wouldn't be) and it just drives the point home.. this is for real... When my mom was diagnosed (uterine cancer) we kept thinking this isn't real, this isn't happening. They've mixed her records up with someone else's , it's all a mistake. It wasn't until she went to "Chemo clas" that it sunk in. this is happening.. it's really happening. As you say, you've made a decision and you are moving forward. Some of those tears might be tears of relief. At least now you have a plan in place. Atta girl.
  • poopergirl14052
    poopergirl14052 Member Posts: 1,183 Member
    #3
    Cindy Bear said:

    Hello
    Just wanted to say good luck and send big cyber hugs your way. I think crying is pretty normal. On one hand, you're terrified (who wouldn't be) and it just drives the point home.. this is for real... When my mom was diagnosed (uterine cancer) we kept thinking this isn't real, this isn't happening. They've mixed her records up with someone else's , it's all a mistake. It wasn't until she went to "Chemo clas" that it sunk in. this is happening.. it's really happening. As you say, you've made a decision and you are moving forward. Some of those tears might be tears of relief. At least now you have a plan in place. Atta girl.

    Glad you picked
    Your chemo..a lot of us can't. A port is a lifesaver and will save your veins. I get Carbo/Taxol every 28 days and it is bringing my numbers down. A good cry never hurts...you have to get it out and move on.Stay well..stay strong....Val
  • Glad to be done
    Glad to be done Member Posts: 569
    #4
    poopergirl14052 said:

    Glad you picked
    Your chemo..a lot of us can't. A port is a lifesaver and will save your veins. I get Carbo/Taxol every 28 days and it is bringing my numbers down. A good cry never hurts...you have to get it out and move on.Stay well..stay strong....Val

    Oh I cried all the time.
    Oh I cried all the time. There was a couple days I cried at chemo at my chemo nurse sat and hugged me and cried with me. She was a doll. Val is right - you need to start doing things.. Try not to let this consume you.
  • Mwee
    Mwee Member Posts: 1,338
    #5
    moving forward
    This is all so much to take in and in such a short time. Crying's not a bad thing. Please keep in mind that your ONC and office staff are all part of a team right along with you. If you feel overwhelmed, let them know. Many of us are on mild anti-depressants and they really help.
    ((((HUGS)))) Maria
  • ptharp
    ptharp Member Posts: 190
    #6
    Mwee said:

    moving forward
    This is all so much to take in and in such a short time. Crying's not a bad thing. Please keep in mind that your ONC and office staff are all part of a team right along with you. If you feel overwhelmed, let them know. Many of us are on mild anti-depressants and they really help.
    ((((HUGS)))) Maria

    My Oncologist office said
    My Oncologist office said they do not prescribe anti-anxiety and anti-depressent drugs. I have to go to my GP for that. They said they will give me Ativan which they prescribe with the chemo. It helps with sleeping, anxiety, and getting sick.
  • Alnik
    Alnik Member Posts: 56
    #7
    ptharp said:

    My Oncologist office said
    My Oncologist office said they do not prescribe anti-anxiety and anti-depressent drugs. I have to go to my GP for that. They said they will give me Ativan which they prescribe with the chemo. It helps with sleeping, anxiety, and getting sick.

    ativan
    i take that as well it does seem to take the edge off. Are you familiar with the chat room on this site? It is a great place to vent and ask questions also can just be a place to listen to others . Hang in there !!!!!!!!!!!!!1
  • ptharp
    ptharp Member Posts: 190
    #8
    Alnik said:

    ativan
    i take that as well it does seem to take the edge off. Are you familiar with the chat room on this site? It is a great place to vent and ask questions also can just be a place to listen to others . Hang in there !!!!!!!!!!!!!1

    Yes but not sure how the
    Yes but not sure how the chat room works.
  • lulu1010
    lulu1010 Member Posts: 367
    #9
    ptharp said:

    Yes but not sure how the
    Yes but not sure how the chat room works.

    ptharp
    I have heard that Carboplatin tends to decrease Seratonin levels increasing the depression. I dont know if it is true or not but I started taking an anti-depressant and the weeping considerably lessened. The docs are usually more than happy to prescribe it especially while on chemo.

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